在她的網記讀到了這一句

"This heart is yours to have forever"


又剛好腦海里浮現了這首歌


拔河
陈奕迅 @ 婚禮的祝福



你說她又失蹤　一整夜電話撥不通
不敢睡怕噩夢　醒著又怕想到心痛
血滴在心中　多苦我能懂　
絕不讓一步　把自己逼瘋
你很想知道　誰盜走　她的夢

我們都會失控　有人搶　越是不放鬆
如果忘了初衷　最後爭到手也沒用
感覺自己像　面對個黑洞　
多努力激動　回應都是空
除非自己想通　掙脫這場捉弄


你為誰拔河 (女人之間計較特別苛)
愛恨在拉扯 (男人的錯很快不記得)
感情怎麼分割　怎麼曲折　都等她選擇
你爭的究竟是愛　還是種資格

你別再拔河 (真心不是誰比誰坎坷)
能捨才能得 (淚水不能解幸福的渴)
愛其實說穿了　不該你的　不怪誰招惹
只拖著　她的軀殼愛著　那又如何









好像是為她寫的歌...

My mentality is that those who truly care would always ask you what's wrong.
They might not understand but they sure do try their best to do so.

You told me that true friends would always be the ones to stay behind in the end.
And I believed in you.




You told me weeks ago that one should not live for others, if one lives for others, one should just go and die.

She told me it was harsh of you to say so.
cause she also felt that you were implementing that i should just go and die cause such a life is meaningless.


I agreed with her.
And I agreed with you.




Blame for not understanding myself?
I apologize that one who cares about me cant understand me cause I don't understand myself well enough to explain every of my actions, feelings and thoughts.





If you believed that I'm a scheming person, that let it be so.
It only bears to reflect how am I as a person in your heart.







I read this once in an email a friend sent me;



Watch your thoughts; they become words
Watch your words; they become actions
Watch your actions, they become habits
Watch your habits ; they become character
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny

為著你今仔日欲來找我
對早上等到深夜
阮總是相信你會甲阮來作伴
猶原無影無跡

我不敢信那無你甘會生活
按怎渡我的生命
寒風也冷袂過你對我的心肝
那堪糟蹋著我


愛到你心驚驚　
想到你心痛痛
但是我無法度將感情收煞
看到你愛別人就親像你愛我
按怎攏袂心痛

愛到你心驚驚　
想到你心痛痛
我己經無資格對你講條件
等別人對待你就親像你對我
愛到才知影痛









mood: AFFECTED.

Labels: ING

讓我身邊的空氣停止吧
讓我任性投入你給的惡作劇
讓我慢慢習慣從反寂寞的感覺
讓我這樣淹沒在你冰冷的嘲笑中




怎麼可能絕口不提


一起看過的星空
一起走過的小巷
一起喝過的咖啡
一起聽過的天氣
一起哭泣的歌曲



生活不斷的蛻變
人生不停的旋轉
命運不歇的輪迴

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剛才唱歌去了



拒絕點的 「溫柔」
故意點的 「分手快樂」

歌詞好美的 「夜」
印象最深的 「我只在乎你」

好久不敢唱的 「憨人」
唱了最多次的 「安靜」
情緒最激動的 「離開地球表面 」
唱的最用力的 「讓每個人都心碎」

想唱卻沒唱到的 「口是心非」
感覺似曾相似的 「愛到才知痛」

令其兩個人崩潰的 「我懷念的」








我的千言萬語, 化為沉莫.

This is something random.


It's like..... 3:03AM now.

Why am I still awake?
cuz.... I caught the craze of watching xingguangdadao AGAIN.

2nd batch.


Specifically, mr.yuming lai.



But, the mainpoint is.... I saw in one of the comments...








Xiao Jingteng's english name...






is.....









JAM TENG.






JAM?! JAM?! JAM?!

-insert hilarious laughter-




I still butter lehs, jam.... TSKTSK. LOL.

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His style is like... erm.... weird???





yuming 賴銘偉 's 口是心非


But singing is really damm stunning.


I like.
And....


I have been listening to this song non-stop ever since!



omg.
and.




and.....


He reminds me of Mummy Matthew!
omg? =x

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又是另一天.

十二月的到來真是懷念往事的好時機

今天約了好友阿芬見面
到了熟悉的星巴克喝咖啡
口里浮現著似曾相似的苦與甜

不知不覺聊起了他

一年了

有些習慣我改掉了
放工後不再走那條路回家
喝冰摩卡時不再添那些奶油
聽著 westlife 的 「angel 」 和 五月天 的 「溫柔 」 時不再激動落淚

原來我和他之間藏著那麼多的秘密
那些不能說的秘密
好多不能說的秘密

時間漸漸沖淡了生活
沖淡了思念
沖淡了憂傷
卻沖不走一切的記憶

就像盧小美口中的 「離開我」

想要問你的那麼多
想要和你分享的喜悅
想要與你經歷的小事情

一年後
風吹過了
雲似乎比去年的少一點

少了你的十二月
會是怎樣的呢 ?

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今天, 打工時, 妹妹傳了個簡訊, 說從電台那裡聽說了一件太驚人的事.

我的天啊!

他們真的要來了!
前天做的那 random 的夢真的成真了?!
我帶著滿腔的激動到處向大家宣布這一個難伊令人自信的事.

其實並不多朋友能夠了解這所謂的迷戀
對這一些處在遠方只聽的見聲音又看不到真人
我的星光幫

從前的我總是希望
對我來說那麼重要的朋友能夠了解
這一分感動

用盡唇舌解釋
但最後卻選擇了
用回那些感動了我的聲音, 試著幫我解釋

有些人似乎聽懂了
有些人似乎被感動了
但卻好還是沒有人能夠了解

在東天來臨前認識到的
星光幫


從得知他們要來了的消息過後的第六個小時,
在喜悅與興奮中跳躍中的心情終於沉澱下來了

想著


唱現場的宥嘉會不會依然那麼欠扁
仁杰唱 [ 不安靜的夜 ] 時, Judy 會不會幫他伴舞

還有,
阿潘現場會不會唱搖滾的東西啊?



好期待 =)

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"
昨天，記憶中靦腆的你
今天，現實中認真地你
明天，期待中未知的你 "









心情;

因喜悅激動驚喜狂奔跳躍後的沉澱

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I have NO MOOD TO WORK.
























omgomgomg.




OMGOMGOMG.








the FREAKY THING IS.

I just DREAMT that they were COMING the day before.
星光四少!!!!!

not the 10 of them,
just yoga, judy, 仁杰, 阿潘!!!!!!!!!



OMGOMGOMG.
FREAKYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!













but still,
heck lah.



OMG.
THEY ARE COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Blah.




Lesson's finished earliest this week XD

Quoted......




" 喜歡聆聽你的淡定、你與世無爭的聲音，
我的耳朵，和你的溫柔歌聲，悄悄展開一場愛戀。 "

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Dear Mr.Aska,



Please don't smile as if ah pan just kissed you mouth to mouth while singing this song cause its a bloody emo song.



At least try to look abit emo like him right?





To think I almost cried when I listened to you singing the first verse.

Labels: 星光

What a drama night.








I have dramatic friends.

不要去當然可以啊.




反正做壞人的都只是我.

小海海，是有眼睛的看了都说帅！

小天天，是瞎了眼的看也会说帅！



.........................no2good

Labels: 不二朗, 五月天, 飛輪海

[ 左邊 ]
曲/詞：吳青峰




收拾好舊時光的傷口　投靠了陌生的河流
時間往前衝　沖散了你和我
沖散心跳脈搏　回憶寄放窗口

粉刷好舊屋簷的巷口　掩埋了淚眼的斑駁
在轉角之後　扣上故事門鎖
請你張開雙手　讓我死在懷中

握你的左手　散落在我手中的是溫柔
曾經給你太多　傷心過後總會寬闊
握你的溫柔　散落在我心中的是錯過
我需要寂寞來撫摸　雨季中百花凋落過後的沉默



也許就逐漸忘了有多久












蘇打綠,
无与伦比的美丽

Labels: ING, 蘇打綠

他背負著一種令人害怕的悲傷...
一種難以了解又複雜的情緒

他背負著一種令人困惑的夢想...
一種難以摸索又沉重的包袱



好想念夢見他
好想念聽見他
好想念...

他 .

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All crazy alr XD

Labels: 星光

都说他回来了。。。。









XD

Labels: 星光

Life holds a different meaning to everyone.



I never thought that you would be the one who will tell me that all my directions and understandings of life is wrong.


If I can try my best to understand what life means to you, I can't see no point why can't you put in a littl effort to try to HEAR what am I trying to tell you.
Maybe cause it never occured to you that everyone holds a different meaning of how one should live their life to you.



From what I heard, I'm too passionate for my nature and I bring my feelings and troubles which I feel from someone else back home with me, making my life miserable for myself and I deserve all this trouble.



-sighs-



If I changed, and left all those feelings there, I won't be me.



Maybe it didn't occur to you.









Differences.
amazing difference between your thinking and mine.
I wonder at how did we manage to communicate all these while.























Why should I try to be someone who isn't me?

Labels: tsktsk

我喜歡....




只在乎你的那種感覺

Labels: 蘇打綠

Don't know why :




拿掉女生的聲音就是另一名曲...
愛和承諾




最佳組合...


雙美 - 不愛你




雙緯/偉 - 左右為難




雙緯/瑋 - 請跟我來












但還是最想念....





XD

Labels: 星光

I dreamt that someone was kissing me real hard in a club in my dreams yesterday.








it was so damm real.
And I couldn't figure out who it was cause it felt as if he was someone very familiar =X

Life is unpredictable.
and of course,



very fragile.


So much can happen in a second.






Have we all forgot that It was and is still simple.
Perhaps we've seen too much complication examples to believe that it can remain simple.
When life's too simple, we doubt it, doubt it reality, doubt its meaning, doubt its presence.



We care, yet don't dare to care because we're afraid we'd get hurt, or that we'd be a burden to those whom we love.
We put in effort and claim that we don't expect anything in return when it's obviously of human nature to have expectations.
We claim to want to let go repeatably whenever someone advises us to do so, yet deep inside our hearts we know that we won't be able to do so.
We whine and complain about the unfairness of life and refuses to accept the inevitable, choosing to pretend nothing has ever happened.





We expect to receive love before being prepared to give it.






Humans.

Labels: tsktsk

他说过 我很难以捉摸.
他们觉得 他们很了解我的为人.


了解我为何迷恋
了解我为何疯狂
了解我的最爱
了解我讨厌的


却
自然而然的否定掉了我的一切一切



因为他们对我所谓的了解





我讨厌我听见和看见
讨厌那些理所当然的口气
讨厌那些理所当然的付出

Labels: tsktsk

今天是星期五了!!!!!




期待 ING....

















星光依舊閃耀燦爛.

Labels: 星光

I seriously hate those who don't take me seriously.




Am I what?
A big joke to you?
Someone who only craps?
What the fuck?



Things which I've done, are done out of concern and because I place YOU in my heart, all those small little things.
Please don't behave, talk nor act as you DESERVED everything and I SHOULD JUST DO EVERYTHING.




I'm not OBLIGATED.
Did you forgot about this point?





You ask ME to think of YOU and spare a thought for YOU GUYS time after time.
Did you ever ONCE spared a SINGLE THOUGHT FOR MY FEELINGS?
WHAT I MIGHT BE FEELING?


after every single fucking time of telling you the same thing time after time and you telling me NOT to be silly and be more open and spare A THOUGHT for you people?



HELLO?
I'M NOT WORTH TO BE SPARED ANY THOUGHT?!

















If you think I'm talking about you,
YES I AM THEN.
FUCK. THINK OVER IT.


If you think I'm talking about a particular person,
Please just bloody hell TELL THAT PERSON.




honestly,
your words and actions really did piss me off.
I guess I forgot to tell you that I have an attitude and IT'S QUITE GIANT ALSO AT TIMES.

If you're not happy with me giving you THAT kind of attitude,
Come tell me STRAIGHT in the face, thank you very much.
But before you do that,
PONDER over and think what generated THAT kind of attitude.

Labels: tsktsk

[ 抓狂 ]





我要飞而你却像
埋葬梦想的高墙
我要跳而你却像
地心引力那么强

很不爽我很不爽
不要让我更不爽
快抓狂我快抓狂
不要搞不清状况

我要飞而你却像
埋葬梦想的高墙
我要跳而你却像
地心引力那么强


是你让大气圈缺氧
是你把天堂弄脏
是你把地球变成
我的战场 (快抓狂快抓狂)

是火药装满心脏
是血管装满岩浆
呼吸也不能呼吸
呼吸呼吸 (快抓狂快抓狂)

要怎样不然你想要怎样
要怎样我们现在就明讲
谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降
谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂


恨是火愤怒是钢
我是沸腾的胆量
为什么要生存在
天使坠落的地方

很不爽我很不爽
不要让我更不爽
快抓狂我快抓狂
不要搞不清状况

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I think I'm in an emo mood today.















If you have to leave me, leave me with a kiss......

Stunts, surprises....

XD




Happy 21st birthday, yiyan!

























p.s.
min, if you get to see this, NO MATTER WHAT TIME IS IT, CALL ME.

I feel damm uneasy about something.




shit.

Help donate rice to end world hunger:


http://www.freerice.com/index.php

KNN.



BLOODY TORTUROUS WEEK AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: 星光

Have you been feeling stressed recently?





watch this:

confirm LAUGH YOUR HEAD OFF!!!!! XD



bloody shit.
super addicted to this song:





as you can see, esp the... 'GO GO SISTER.... GO GO BROTHER' part XD



actually, is the entire dance la~ XD

he sings of dreams being given up along the path.




I never knew how close to the truth it was of what he sang until today.

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last weekend, unexpected many family gatherings....



Saturday:
minds cafe with the nieces, nephews, cousins.....











weird looking food in the steamboat....
with ms joyce, bixian and min...



sunday:
dinner with grandma and eryi @ boonkeng




monday:
mummy buy for me and me only, ribena! XD



6nov07, tuesday
sing k with jiali at partyworld

amazing discoveries from partyworld.

they have an AMAZING database of songs!
they even had 我爱夏天 by 脱拉裤，the ORIGINAL Give me 5 by 张 awei, 马戏团 by 陶喆....


He looks SUPER like mr.ashin 6yrs ago!!!

and he's actually 张克帆....



and tony 老师 from 女人我最大

from his 豹小子 days!
and sumore they sang 爱你在心口难开!!!! OMGOMGOMG!~

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02nov2007




craziness and randomness XD
from clarkequay to holland village.

nice fish!
plan to bring grandma go eat...





too bad min and sufen couldnt join us ><



















this guy looked SUPER like daddy from behind.... =X

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Priceless XD

Labels: 星光

oct ING~




ham's bdae....




8oct07: meet jiali for dinner @ PS and passed her the super duper belated present...




16oct07:
ramen @ gallery hotel with daddy



11oct07:
ktv session with cancerians XD

mr.idol keeps singing


ignoring me and minmin



but still, he loves us la~
XD


kopi time!



19oct07:
maybelline came my house to slack and catch up~


met min for dinner after ms gorgeous areoplane-ed us





xingguangbang's albums all in major CD stores island-wide!!!




23oct07:
beautiful night sky =)



28oct07:
visit to the new T3.

thousands of dollars worth of benches.


me and sufen...








saw 許默默's MV making.... wahahaha.... SHUAI XD



raining season...



30oct07:
in celebration of day1 home alone
schgirls KTV session @ chinaown kbox. DUPER CRAZY NIGHT XD



31oct07:
pei amanda go for her casting and chilled at town coffeeclub

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