yep. im back from thai disco.
seriously, i dont know why we keep going back to that places.
lols.
tsk.
im didnt drink much.
tsk.
if not i alr go my bed n sleep le.
anyways.
im so fucking high that
i mistook the contacts solution cap for my contact lens cover cap. lols.
tis is how FREAKING dizzy im now.
budden.
im still blogging rite?
lols.






DADDY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

love you lots =D


shit lah.
why i love you so much arh~
tsk tsk.



so many happening stuff happened budden whenever i wanna confide in you, all mood is gone the moment i see you.
lols.
suddenly glad that im ur rubbish truck instead you of being mine.
LOVE YOU LOTS.
someone impt in my life =D

tsk.
please at least TAG when u see this can?



tsktsk.



i miss thai disco suddenly.
-sadded-




i miss the people i love and used to love and whatever else.
i fucking miss them.

I have everyone but not someone.
irony.
tsktsk.




dammit.
nabei.






anyway.
WILSON KOR!
YOU OWE ME TWO THAIDISCO NOW!!
-heehehehehehhehee-





someone pls call me and say that you love me alot.
thanks.






p.s.
im fucking angry juz becuz you lied to me and didnt tell me tat u juz wanted to meet him.
i have nothing against u meeting him.
i also noe that u miss him fucking much.
i can understand that.
juz fucking pissed that why didnt u tell me earlier.
juz straight out.
juz simply the truth.
i understand we all have different priorties.
i understand that.
your bf is more impt.
i never said tat it was wrong.
but u promised me
right?


the main pt wasnt u broke ur promise to me becuz of ur bf cuz i'd still understand if it was becuz of that.
im angry cuz u didnt tell me in advance and decided to fly me areoplant at the very last minute.



to me,
he is someone impt.
of cuz i wouldnt want to see him dissappointed anymore.
oHwells.
what we said to him really DID come tru.




for these few days.
i had been so fucking dissappointed with everyone and anyone.
seriously.



ohwells.
watever.
im fucking seh now.
i dont care abt what the hell im typing.


dammit.






p.s.s.
i heard this three guys over the street when i juz got out of the cab.
they were singing my fav song:
求求你给我个机会~
不要再对爱说无所谓~


=D
no,
i didnt imagine it all up.
lols.
they were singing lee shengjie's song before switching to that.
LOLS!~

im juz fucking pissed.
you are not in any wrong.
i KNOW.


but am I in any wrong to be so fucking pissed?




dammit.
fuck.
nabei.
arghs.

Before the stunning thing later.



happy birthday wilson kor! XD
many wishes for the future and pls stop thinking like a laoren. =D





p.s.
and.
friend.
pls.
take good care of urself.

NBNBNBNBNBNBNBNB.



dammit. tsk. arghs!
DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT.

NABEI NABEI NABEI.

FUCK FUCK FUCK.


-ARGHS!!~-

today had the chance to meet min in the afternoon to shop for wilson kor's bdae present, and instead of the perfume we wanted to get, we got him a bag.... in a certain style which reminded both me and her of him---

HARDDDDDDDDDDDD GAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY



and i know there are some people out there who dont know who HARD GAY is (-DISBELIEF-).

"Hard Gay dresses in a tight black leather outfit with the letters HG on the back of his top. His short black hot pants are the stuff of legends, and his sunglasses and black leather cap are almost a permanent fixture on his head."

he is A LEGEND. omg. LOLS!~

here are some websites which you can reference to:
- http://www.hard-gay.org/
- http://wiki.bakakage.net/Hard_Gay


anyway. lols. i sidetracked too much.
the bag reminded us of this legend which wilson kor intro-ed to us. so we bought the bag for him. i dare say he was pretty gandong when he saw the bag. even thou he freaking did not want to meet us today at all.

durh. did not regret bah, wilson kor?

lols. and he looks even more gin-na when he carries the sling bag sideways. budden, well, see! SHUAI GE!~ lols~ he treated us to fried mars bars after tat. lols.

met huii to chat since she was in town also. had some yogurt before going home.



yest met up with ivan n ham at raffles to sign the card.
and met mummy, yan, jit, tian gege for dinner @ raffles shopping center for dinner.
slacked a little before heading home.... which we decided to head to esplanade to take bus. and tian gege had to ask where did daddy actually worked at. so me n leenx brought him sneeking ard the restuarant... =X
and we stood at the catacus there... and realli saw daddy serving his customers! and we both did onion prayer to see him the second time... AND WE REALLY DID!~ -amazed-
lols. in the end he did see our mgs and called us when he came out for a smoke. in the end, ended up waiting for him to fin work and mac-ed tgt before heading home.


pix:

me, yan, leenx, tian gege at mrt while waitin for matthew mummy n jit to come bak frm the toliet.


me, daddy, leenx:


wilson kor unwrapping his present:




THE BAG.
(it looks more HARDGAY in real life =p)


he carrying the bag.


us THREE =D

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Waaaa~



im in a weirdly HIGH mood.
LALALALALALA~
i woke up freaking late.
i took a cab to sch and was STUCK in the freakin jam all the way.
i am totally BROKE for breakfast, brunch, lunch, hightea, dinner, supper and prata.
and
the lab's printer is DOWN.



budden.
i reached school in time (even thou i spent every single cent i had on cab fare).
i found an empty lab juz on the same lvl as my lab class with a WORKABLE printer.
and that lab actually HAD a class but suddenly today no class.
my project mirciously could work.
i could even explain to the teacher what did i do.
and becuz of sky gege,
I CAN GO HOME AND KOON cuz he promised me tat he'd send teach me how to do SSSD tmr =D


MY -school- DAY ENDED EVEN ANYONE ELSE'S DAY STARTED~
woot!~ =D


can go chinatown preorder mayday's CD.
can go meet minmin buy wilson kor's present.
can go home SLEEP FOR SOME TIME.
woot~



the day suddenly seems alot nicer =D

我真的超鄙视你。
难道你生命中唯一从那么多你口中所谓那些失败的恋情中所学到的只是逃避吗？


COWARD.



face it LAH.
fuck.
itsn't it TIME you had to face something?

if it's ALWAYS happening and ALWAYS the SAME BLOODY THING is happening, isn't it pretty obvious there IS A PROBLEM which you need to solve?

everytime you choose to RUN AWAY and sink into whatever hell there is.
YOU ARE SO FUCKINGLY RUNNING AWAY.

you CHOOSE TO IGNORE THE PROBLEM.
tsk.
You choose not to see and accept THE UNPLEASANT STUFF.



life's not always bright and sunny.
it pours yet we survive tru it.


dammit.
how could you allow yourself to sink to become such a weakling?





how fucking selfish for you to ignore all those whom might be fucking worried for your imature actions.




perhaps you love yourself more than you love anyone else.

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my 6 words:
peace. love. music. magic. daydream. red. =D

The weekend was spent in half craziness.
in which i didnt not even had any time to blog about.





FRIDAY.

tsk. went work. had plans to meet daddy during his break. in the end wilson kor popped tis weird qns after he came bak frm his lunch:

"你觉得我因该打耳洞吗？"

off we went then! lols~ in the mood for some craziness.

sidetrack:
on the way there we witnessed the end of some robbery where the security offices of parco chased the guy out to the street and tied him down with rope. wilson kor, being THE SINGAPOREAN, stood on the bench to catch some of the action -so throw face! tskk...-


and we reached PS... the process...




tada!~ :




chey. tot what. lols.
the lady was like. "how many u wanna pierce? one? one only arh? pierce three let her see lah!~"

lols!~ wilson kor dont dare. and i was uber excited. lols!~ and bought a pair of earrings for him. MAKE SURE when we go out clubbing he muz wear tat and the coat he bought. wahahhaha~

and then daddy came for his break. ate at kfc. and he haolian-ed to me that one of his friends got him the abslout vodka PEARS miniature. -showoff- tsk.
these two cancerians are WEIRD. lols. and they surely can crap alot tgt. lols~

daddy went off bak to work n came wilson kor's friend, jerry:


and he sure knows how to crap even more also!~ lols~ we both tok bad of wilson kor tgt.... wahaha... den met jiali n sufen. wilson kor n friend went off to game~

walked ard in PS for some time before heading home with the two with dinner bought @ carrefour. crapped at my house. transfered the taiwan photos from jiali's camera. and both went off for their activities.

some shit happened but everything has more or less a conclusion le. thanks to the peeps who talked to me and calmed me down =)
you guys know who you are lah =)

handled SO MANY people on the phone and msn for mummy's bdae preparations. tsk... most LAST MIN event EVER. stupid pasir ris park and eastcoast park... ALL FULLY BOOKED.





SATURDAY.

woke up late. prepared my stuff and went down look for daddy for his break. felt super giddy while waiting. dunno izzit because i didnt had enuf food or sugar or watever. the whole world was like.... floating ard and turning right n left all the while. had to sit down and rest and close my eyes.

pooor daddy finally sneaked off for break but had to go bak again to settle stuff before able to go off for break. tsk~

met leenx n wangzi. passed the bombay to wangzi so he could carry for me. =p bought matthew's bdae present at last. woot.... ex..... =X

caught a bite with daddy at FIN'S.... nice calamari... red beans n green beans sucks totally... blehs~ and... SUPER NEHNEH. someone gave me SO MANY COINS. tskkk!!~



i shall remember tis SPECIAL occasion forever.


on the way to catch the bus to boonkeng mrt, saw the ndp parade people, the marching contingent, army, scouts, npcc, ncc, guides, etcetc... lols~ made me miss the ndp experience....

went off to meet yan, carrot at hougang mrt. bought stuff at hougang mall ntuc and made our way to mummy's house. turned out that he didnt actually need help to carry the catering stuff cuz he got his brothers to help... moved over to the bbq pit beside hougang sports hall.

set up the stuff and started cooking. bought more ice and carcoal and stuff. food was pretty nice. esp the tuna, prawn thing with biscuits, chocolate cake, PRAWNS with salt n butter which me n yan invented and the coke. lOls =p

the real actual cake cutting and bdae wishes and stuff was real exciting and crazy cuz both his brothers and our grp were equally HIGH, spraying coke and cake and watever on him. lols~ yumseng-ed so loudy with the champange which his friend bought over. made SO much noise that someone called the police... =X

vid. bdae cake cutting


vid. bdae wished n card qns.

well. all the effort and stuff was worth it cuz matthew aka mummy was pretty touched =)

reached hm abt 4am... crapped so much with uncle joseph on the cab.. lols~

matthhew's present from taiwan. mineral water... lols~


ivan showing off his present which we gave him.... pink boxers! =D
as for matthew's BRIGHT ORANGE boxers, pls refer to leenx's blog =p


the chao ta-ed corn....


his NEW wallet...


my bombay!~ -sadded-


us all =D






SUNDAY.
tsk.
was nothing much. met daddy for his break @ PS and had sakae. leenx joined us after tat and we sent daddy bak to esplanade before gg h0me.
went to sleepy after toking abit with min on the phone. slept from 8pm till tis morning 9.30am.


I LOVE SLEEP.
and i super uber love my bed =D





p.s.
lastly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY AKA MATTHEW =D

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Mummy,


I LOVE YOU! =D

Labels: 洋蔥

Im so sorry my defination definition of FRIENDS are is so different with yours.
friends can dont meet up for 10years but their friendship wld b as forever as strong before because both parties have tried their very best to put in effort to maintain the friendship.


good friends doesn't have to meet often.
but why do they meet often?

cuz they miss each other other's comfortable company.


it's a simple reason.



commitements to other stuffs?

im so sorry im not attached.
im so sorry i dont have anything else to be commited to.
im so sorry that im actually so imature to feel that i have a need to be commited to friends and people whom i love around me.
im so sorry that my priorities are actually spending time with people whom i love, which are my dear friends around me.
im so sorry im the kind who feels there's a need to communicate and tok and keep in touch from time to time
im so sorry i got used to spending time with you guys and getting used to you guys' company in the short period of time
im so sorry that my defination of friends and the way i should interact with good friends is so different from yours.
im so sorry i have always nothing better to do and to suggest gatherings and outings.

im sincerly sorry that mentioning more than once to you and asking you along to any of the gatherings is irriating you so much.

im so sorry that you had to mention and repeat time and time again to me that you aren't free for any of outings.
im so sorry that i expressed so much anticipation to see you being able to join us and have some fun during the gatherings.
im so sorry my gatherings are never organized on any dates which you are avalible.
im so sorry that YOU DONT GET US PEOPLE.


im so sorry that you dont get me.



im sincerly sorry.







perhaps to you im juz another unimportant person in your path of life that just happened to pass by.
but you are someone important to me in my life and i feel the need to treat you in THIS way which obviously you hate.





im sincerly sorry that this is obviously going to hurt the friendship.
















and i dont think im the only one who needs to grow up.


my conscience is clear.
i did my part.
im done saying my piece.
i didn not let myself down in anyway.


perhaps sometimes
we should all remember to take a look around us.
and see what we've always insisted on is correct and true to the heart.

pursuading the goal for the sake of pursuading?
loving for the sake of loving?





before you said those words.
did it ever occur to you that how hurtful it'd be?




there's more i'd need to learn.
just like anyone else around.
we aren't always correct.
and dont presume we'd always be correct.
cuz in the end,
you'd only see yourself and you alone.

my new eyecandy.



-SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI GE-
=p



presenting,


Gary 曹格 =D

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You Are Cream Pie

You're the perfect combo of simplicity and divinity Those who like you life for understated pleasures

well. something random which i saw.
「背叛 原来是每个人心底最深最痛的自觉。」


something random which i took:











dont feel like blogging much in words.
we all get tired of life quite frequently.


tsk.


moodswing de, find someone whom you can tok to perhaps wld feel better =)


planning n being the organizer always is REAL EXCITING.
well.
its my job.
im not given this rank for nothing de.
i can DO IT.
tsk.


trust me.

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today was a pretty exciting day. tskk~ lols.


both me n leenx woke up late, even thou having a date with ham, matthew, huii, ivan to lunch tgt. thanks to minmin who woke me up with her call.... if not i wld had slept all the way tru.... =X
called leenx and both of us got ready and cabbed down to raffles area and met ham n matthew mummy.
FINALLY MET HAM! MISS HER SO MUCH!!!!!!
machiam almost like 10thousand years nvr see ham le! she nvr change much also... still the cute crazy ham, teasing mummy non-stop all tru lunch.
after mummy and ham left, huii and ivan came.
lunched together. ivan was so damm gaoxiao, kept massaging his chest till one side seemed bigger than the other side =X
went bak to sch for dsag proj. had a start on it. got slight idea of wat im doing but am stuck somewhere. and forgot to bring the bloody diskette so cant do mp. -dammit-

poor minmin, wallet and phone to stolen.
CURSE THAT WHOEVER WHO TOOK IT.
MAY YOUR HANDS BE ROTTEN AND DROP OFF. tsk.

met wilson kor, joyce and minmin for dinner @ ahjiteh PS.
i SO SO SO misssssss joyce can!
LOLS. i guess it's been the first time ever in a very looooooooooooong time i had such a good laugh non-stop. i dont mind the evil words and insults cuz we all know that joyce actually loves us alot! lols!~
she narrated the story once again, of yangguo (wilson kor), xiaolongnv (was amanda de but she forgot and tot i was xiaolongnv, im the yahuan aka maid actually) and the condor (minmin). lols.
dammit evil but we were all laughing so hard. lols. minmin and me, one sitting infront of wilson kor and the other sitting beside him. i swear he was damm afraid tat either min or me was gg to throw up on him can!
i was laughing non-stop till my face was so freakin red.


i now proclaim that I LOVE JOYCE SO MUCH!!!! XD

lols. cant imagine how much i miss her evil mouth. and watching min n her argue is SO SO SOOOOO very exciting!!!!! can juz buy popcorn and sit infront and watch arh!!! XD
as wat wilson kor said, he already threw all sense of reason outside the door before stepping inside the restuarant for dinner. and min added he shld also had thrown away all sense of shame also. tskkk~ lols.

priceless people.
love you guys millions =D



pix!!!


ham n matthew mummy



baby cow aka 牛宝宝 made his way to school today!
(actually, all three days he also pei me go sch... relieve stress...)



leenx n sky gege behind =D



DINNER.

see! the mini unagi don is SMALLER THAN MY PALM!!!



food at ahjiteh! fried chicken softbone, octopus, potato with cheese


bacon with white fish


crab~


fish in the cheese sauce


min!


wilson kor!


joyce!



us four!




p.s. AMANDA! why you not free arh?!~

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看了过后，
感到莫名的沮丧。


“不是这样的。
不应该是这样的。”
那是脑海里唯一浮现出的一句话。



怎么好像他们在最快乐和最HIGH的那些歌曲中都似乎会难免流露出一点点那么悲伤的感觉？
我还记得他说过，[疯狂世界] 其实歌词里带有自杀的意思。
我们都听出来了吧？
再听似快乐的旋律后歌词唱着的却是想要从莫名其妙的世界逃走的渴望。


就算全世界都被毁了，
但我相信音乐的信念会永远存在着。

Labels: 五月天

Seems that




it's always easier to believe that others would be more fortunate and happy than ourselves.
it's always easier to believe that everyone is happier than ourselves.
it's always easier to believe that people ard us would succed in what they do rather than ourselves.



we always like to put ourselves down.
and expect people around us to build up our confidence tru praises and concern.


allright.
i admit i'm like this.
and i think that there are many similar to me out there.



somewhat my guesses were partly correct.
something WAS going on and it wasn't meant to be made known to others.
tskk.



buck up and jiayous.
like what I've told you.
Believe in yourself and the love you have for the other person.
We are all sensible people even thou sometimes we yearn to be weak and hope for the concern and rely on people close to us.


cuz we're humans mah!
TSKKK!!!~

作者: balaja (新年快樂) 看板: MayDay
標題: 端午節快樂
時間: Wed Jun 20 06:55:37 2007


端午節快樂

大家都好嗎?
希望你們都好
然後要說的是其實我很不好
覺得累的快要死了的感覺
其實如果可以就這樣上天堂好像也不錯
不過像我這種人可能會先到地獄去吧
哈哈
這樣說好像壞事做盡了的感覺

反正我自己就喜歡抽菸喝酒
又喜歡開演唱會又喜歡寫歌錄音
生活作息不正常
身體不好也是應該的

不過希望我可以好一點,我盡量啦...
也希望大家可以好一點,大家也盡量一點好嗎?

當然你知道這世界不好的事情總是比認知的佔了那麼多一點
昨天妳在擔心我們投票會輸小豬的時候
加薩走廊就要開始投下第一枚炸彈了
然後妳在擔心加薩走廊的時候
我們的國會走廊總預算跟中選會的爭鬥也弄了好久了
搞什麼!?

然後接下來正如你知道的五月天輸了票選輸了金曲獎
沒了金曲獎那個什麼什麼的
然後五月天在那個夜晚仍然還是很雖的繼續要做音樂
沒有慶功宴也沒有雖小安慰宴
就像是平常的夜晚一般

在那個時候我又很賤的超想睡很想偷懶但是又想喝點小酒爽一下
但是又有東西沒錄完一定要撐住不能休息
然後最雖的是我又有靈感想寫歌然後怎麼睡都睡不著

最後我突然發現其實地獄這種地方不用等我怎樣了才過去
因為我早就在那裏了

另外還有其他四個悠悠哉哉地在裡面撐著

是的,我在地獄裡好久了
從我開始做音樂的那一天開始
我有其他四個人陪我在地獄裡打滾
我盡量讓自己在地獄活的開心點
我也希望他們可以開心點

當然
我也希望大家開心點

最終我們還是會弄一堆我覺得好的但不一定會獲得老師的讚美的音樂給你聽
因為我們就是這樣不像樣的五個人
因為我們是平凡人不是評審不是老師
因為我們還是想做
因為我們不做就閑置就生鏽

那跟我在這放屁不一樣
畢竟讓我自己覺得驕傲的
或是讓你覺得認同的

最終還是我們的音樂


端午節快樂



your friend,
monster

Labels: 五月天

背叛, 曹格




雨,不停落下来
花,怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人,欣赏悲哀

爱,只剩下无奈
我,一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块,就不精采


紧紧相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句
say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快


心,有一句感慨
我,还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段,还在不在






gary should really go shave properly and it'd make the MV a perfect one.
tskkk.
that was super random.

in love with this song currently.
esp with the rain.



how i wished i was drenched in the rain, rather than juz plainly watching in behind these cold bars of the window.


and.
i freakin freakin freakin super uber duber love the MV.
strange strange feeling.

like the part where he wrote on the paper and all the red link leaked out of the pen;
like the part where they were so close to somewhat hugging on the bed;
like the part where the fire was used to burn the plastic red rose;
like the part where gary was singing and the girl burried her face in his neck and he gently closed his eyes and seem as if he was in much pain;
like the part where he sang '爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢' in the second verse;

and 03:51;

and like the part where he laid on the bed with the girl on him and red liquid was dripping on his hand where there was a crust-like-thingy on his arm;


make gary shave properly and it's really be the perfect MV. ever.




amazingly how we listen to and believe in some people without even questioning if they are correct.
we keep giving in as if it's the right thing to be doing.
everyone just got used to approve habits that keep happening.


btw
something extra :

Labels: ING, 曹格

the urge to retaliate is getting stronger and stronger.




when the time comes.
either i'd make u damm fucking regret by digging your brains out or i'd kill myself before i do anything stupid.




I SWEAR.




you are not the only single one who knows who to issuse those fucking threats.

It's time to blog.
what did i really do during the weekend arh?


thurs.
came bak frm taiwan.


fri.
unpacked. rushed out of house. buy chicken rice. meet leenx. went down gave daddy a surprise during his short break. went bak to the office let sarah sign amanda's card.
met the traid people for dinner @ Breeks taka lvl5.
had some baked seafood pasta and brownie with cheese (YUM!)
gave ah deng her bdae present =D
met G @ starbucks but decided not to have coffee but to go for KTV partyworld in the end. had a DUBER UBER crazy time singing and screaming their songs and dancing to wubai's songs and doing uber crazy and silly stuff inside the KTV room.

it's been looooong since i've met up with them other than any of their events. guess we've all changed in certain ways. one year, it's been ONE YEAR since we've made that crazy trip to HK together for them. such a loooong time ago. tskkk~ time really does flies.


sat.
slacked at home and unpacked everything.
met samantha and passed her the stuffs and chatted about life while waiting for sufen at suntec mac. sufen came and i passed her the stuffs i got for her, the masa's Le Power and some other stuffs.
went home early.
but met up for prata with huii daddy leenx in the night.
passed huii her present, the kiki&lala towel tat she wanted and daddy his daddy's day present, tada, absolut vodka pears (smells really nice! )
i swear that i regret totally not seeing clearly his priceless expression. lols. esp when he was knocking on the bottle making sure it was made of glass, not plastic.
sent huii hm after prata cuz she was pretty sick.
went down to serangoon liquid kitchen for awhile before heading bak home.



sun.
went to work. completed translating RosyLife episode 20. tskkk~
met up with huii at esplanade and went walking ard in suntec area for awhile. grabbed a bite before heading bak home with huii cuz she wanted to use my house come for her ESIP thingy... tian gege and leenx came along too and had fun showing them the stuff i bought bak frm taiwan =)



mon.
went bak sch for MP stuff. managed to connect the com tgt... dunno can ping each other or not. tskk! stupid linux coms and zebra giving me uber headache. THIS WEEK MUST COMPLETE EVERYTHING!
went all the way to tampiness interchange and walked ard there for so long cuz recieved tian gege's call tat minmin was ard that area... tskk.... we dont hab fate cuz i didnt get to see her even after walking ard tat area so loong~ (turned out that she moved to century sq! arghs~)
went down pei daddy during his break in the end.
and pei-ed sufen to have her dinner also before heading bak.




sidetrack.
dunno which day arh.
had this dream.... erm... nightmare... bout being unable to find certain important people. i woke up damm freaked out even though the dream was pretty blur... but it was pretty scary... as if i was going to lose them all in one single moment.

haiii~






我一直都以为我很快乐。
但有时却发现自己只不过是在拥抱着幸福的假象。

看看周围的人，
被爱着的毫无知觉
爱着的却埋怨多多
不被了解，不被尊重，不被认同，不被承认
有爱人的，
担心被误会，想说的话却有被误解成另一个意思。
没爱人的，
担心等不到，渴望的一切有可能都没有机会成真。


我
有一点累，有一点慌。
但
不想认输，不想放弃。


心里满满想说出的话，
结果到那一刻一切却又躲回了心里。
开不了口，开不了口。





p.s.
daddy,
DNS means Domain Name Server =p

this is simply hilirious man!
LOLS!!!~

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are lively, dramatic, and flamboyant. You have an outrageous personality... And you secretly resent anyone who makes you tone it down. Underneath it all, you are driven by your need for attention and acceptance. You need to feel special at all times. You are secretly jealous and occasionally insecure.

烦恼全忘掉。
离开。
逃走。
别习惯。
别上瘾。


别习惯。别上瘾。别习惯。别上瘾。别习惯。别上瘾。别习惯。别上瘾。别习惯。别上瘾。






现在播放中：

[ Jump! 离开地球表面 ]

丢掉手表 丢外套
丢掉背包 再丢唠叨
丢掉电视 丢电脑
丢掉大脑 再丢烦恼
冲啥大 冲啥小
冲啥都让人常烦恼

恨得多 爱的少
只想越跳越疯
越跳越高
把地球甩掉


一颗心扑通扑通地狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我再也不要
再也不要
委屈自己一秒

一颗心扑通扑通地狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我甩掉地球
地球甩掉
只要越跳越高


JUMP！







hiding behind the facade of pumping music, it's easier to run away from the earth.
im surprised.

也许他们也是。
我们都是不敢面对这个残酷世界的地球人。
他也是，胆小鬼。
我也是，胆小鬼。
我们都是。
你嘴中唱出的。

"逃走，翻过围墙，我只能逃走。"

我记得。


都躲在自称同样的信仰后，躲在信仰着的共同点，躲在音乐琴声鼓声贝斯声一切旋律的背后。
放纵。
喜欢笨蛋的人都是笨蛋。
我们都和那群笨蛋信仰着同样的东西。

是因为害怕所以躲在借口后面，
还是因为我们了解后不再硬碰硬?


不了解哦~

Labels: ING, 五月天

Ahdeng,
happy burst day in advance =)


hope you had a wonderful time...

Labels: 五月天

hihi.
am back.


Day 1
10 june 07

thanks to huii n leenx who specially came down to give me a surprise by sending me off at the airport~ love yah babes!
and thanks to dear moto for waking up so early juz to wish me good luck... so sweet! =D
and tian gege... who almost made it to the airport but kenna asthma attack in the morning... hope you're alr feeling better kaes? =)

took the plane by jetstar to taipei. very smooth takeoff.
reached bout evening taipei time.
tour guide picked us up and send us to the hotel called 一乐园大饭店 (i think so).
was very near ximenting (西门町), yep, the 传说中的西门町.....
walked ard and had the first experience of taiwan food, 泸肉饭 (basically is juz the minced meat cooked in soya sauce drenched over the rice but is the BEST FOOD i had in taiwan!!!!!)，蚝煎(erms... singapore de more nice lah)，萝卜糕 (carrot cake... singapore de... SUPER NICE CAN!).
was RAINING ALL NIGHT LONG.... the shops were still open but it was ALL RAIN AND MORE RAIN so didnt had the mood for shopping also.
made the visit to 7-11. WOOT!~
they sell EVERYTHING. lols~ oki lah... not everything... budden.... alot of stuff all ard, tibits and cup noodles and DRINKS!


am amazed by taiwan's drinks. super alot of variety and super nice =D





shall blog bout other days slowly. need to go sleep now. tired. unpacked halfway. realized didnt really did buy alot of stuff beside the drinks. bout 5cans of lepower back and 2 bottles of mineral water and one coke and two juice bottles cuz the bottles were simply SUPER NICE =D

and i realli missed singapore alot.
and the people back here.

first time i go traveling and feel that the time is passing super fucking slow.
tskkk.

love,
rong.

tsk.



thanks to these people whom I've managed to meet/hear about in these few days:

jiali,
for lending me her camera
yinren,
for asking me to buy taiyang bing
joyce,
for calling me specially to remind me about her herbal lamb cup noodles

and of cuz those who wanted to juz meet me before I left this place.
minmin, leenx, huii, sufen =)

and dear daddy who asked me to buy so many bloody stuff and asking me not to get lost there.
tsktsk.

make sure u miss me enough if not i will SENSE IT AND not buy any of ur miniatures or cigars or porn mag or littletwinstar or super mario or watever watever watever.







new song up.
kinda....


describes what im feeling.


[ 嘿! 我要走了 ]

轻轻闭上眼睛
此刻我觉得清醒
已经不需要
一些挽留字句

这绚烂新世纪
深情已不受欢迎
爱你那么用力
却好像一场闹剧


嘿~ 我要走了
昨天的对白
已不再重要
我已，见过最美的一幕
只是在此刻
都要结束


你我不断找寻
然后再不断放弃
不断的犯错
然后再不断远离

如果你还肯听
我想说声我爱你
反正自做多情
是我看家本领

嘿~ 我要走了
昨天的对白
已不再重要
我已，见过最美的一幕
只是在此刻
都要结束


收拾我的行李去
找寻新的自己
都要结束






it kinda suits... 疯狂世界。
"
如果说了后悔
是不是一切就能倒退
回忆多么美
活着多么狼狈
为什么这个世界
总要叫人尝伤悲
我不能了解
也不想了解


我好想好想飞
逃离这个
疯狂世界
那么多苦
那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水

我好想好想飞
逃离这个
疯狂的世界
如果是你
发现了我
也别将我挽回
"




rescapism.
escapism.


whatever.
im gone.

Labels: ING, 五月天

"
又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓，当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着，味道却淡了

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有


我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人，
不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍

我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的


把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声，听了都不冷

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人，
不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍

我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
我的决定是对的

"









只不过是不小心又听到了这首歌。
回忆中冒出了好多画面。
大声唱着这首歌的画面。

我。
她。
他和她。

不同的人，不同的声音。

有些曾经是寂寞的人类。
找到幸福的
寻找中的
等待中的
期盼中的
找到幸福的

Labels: ING

他妈的。



我真的，
真的觉得我们的人生观又好大好大的分别。



反正你要干什么，就干什么。
我没有资格去过问你的人生。



你口中的酗酒，是坏习惯。



但说真的，
那一秒


我对你过着这样的人生，为你感到可惜。
感到遗憾。
感到不知所措。

但，
对了。

不管我的事。
是你的人生。


也许就连一个朋友就只能为你做到这里。




幹!

today. the 2nd and last paper, SSSD. was pretty... hmm... all right. the stuff i remembered came out but i forgot parts of it. Oh watever... tsktsk....



slacked the whole day.
met leenx @ clarkequay for icecream... but in the end... erm... yah... wasted trip... cuz we both felt guilty.... cuz didnt ask mummy along.... >.< wwnk =")" style="font-weight: bold;">ALMOST IRRITATING.

tsktsk.




还有，
我可爱的台湾朋友！
我也很高兴认识你们！






XD

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