Friends.
make u feel on top on the world.
and
banish u to the bottom of the world too.


tat juz came out of no where.



okays... today~
big, big, BIG, BIG, BIG rain.
flooding everywhere.
im praying... tat the curse of long service award wunt fall on me.
please dont.

><



people.
got time blog more tis week... cuz my oni source of blog reading aka-ed sam, has gone to camp... dumping me here alone... with not much blogs to read tis whole weekend!! arghs... wats happened to all the bloggers around me arhs~~~


and.
i would very much like to tell shijie,
its Secretary,
not Secondtary.

LOLS. XD


Champion's out. support qiang biang. kaes?
lols. i tink most ppl reading my blog dunt support original.... >< wat the use~ but their first song... quite nice... but the image like... errr... dunnno lehs... like too ke yi.... mayb packaging is very important nowadays bahs? den more xiao mei mei will like them and buy their album and scream when they come... lols.

*go digs out the pic i took with the cow*

scardy can sell for money when they are really darn famous. hehehehe...

have been listening alot tis few days... hmmm... and MV watchin quite abit... few pretty good MVs, can check them out... like the duet between David Tao and Jolin, jin tian ni yao jia ge wo... nice MV! like the 1,2,3,4 by qiang bian... lols... i like tat mv too... so i so darn determined to catch them on wan yu... hmm... and the quet between Jay chou and fei yu qing, qian li zhi wai, as translated "Faraway"... and certain dubious MVs which keeps showing on MTV but u dunno who the singer is tat kind... ><


im juz plain bored. can see arh?





The Heaven has stopped crying.

Eagles [Take It To The Limit]
All alone at the end of the of the evening
And the bright lights have faded to blue
I was thinking 'bout a woman who might have
Loved me
and I never knew
You know I've always been a dreamer
(spent my life running 'round)
And it's so hard to change
(Can't seem to settle down)
But the dreams I've seen lately
Keep on turning out and burning out
And turning out the same

So put me on a highway
And show me a sign
And take it to the limit one more time

You can spend all your time making money
You can spend all your love making time
If it all fell to pieces tomorrow
Would you still be mine?

And when you're looking for your freedom
(Nobody seems to care)
And you can't find the door
(Can't find it anywhere)
When there's nothing to believe in
Still you're coming back, you're running back
You're coming back for more

So put me on a highway
And show me a sign
And take it to the limit one more time

Take it to the limit
Take it to the limit
Take it to the limit one more time

Labels: ING

一切都不那么重要。
其实。


别把我放开。拜托你了。
别放弃了我。




一切即将都会很快结束。
相信吧。

Never forgive and never forget?


我试过了。

但是。我真的好不甘愿。
好不甘愿。

为什么是我?



因为我就是我吗?

除了这个烂理由好像就没有别的理由了。



亲爱，你甘有听我讲?
亲爱，到底是好不好?

i love the airport.


do i need a reason for tat?



met ppl to study. joel. shitian. darren. ivan. err... yang zhou.

bo bians. Joel alot of FANS... hehehehe...


popeye food nice! tat time go hk got eat... nice... mashed potatoes and chicken. but dun try the chicken burger. fries oso quite nice. stay there to study... frm 12+ to 3 or 4pm arhs.

then went sakae juz ivan want to eat.. airport sakae got vegetarian orhs!
i noe joel's weakness liaoz~ lols. EGG! lols. see Egg he buay tahan liaoz~ lols. opps~ i juz leaked out the secret... hahhahaha...


and arhs.


Ivan is our hero. HAHAAHHAHAA.... lols. ask me entertain whole day... i can go vomit.... arghs... unless i superly good mood. >< hahahaa.... i bad girl i noe~


great. i really studied and made useful notes today. MDBS almost done. OPSY... err..... WWNK and OOPG!!! here i come!!!

sorry god. i wasnt born clever. i wasnt born hard working. i wasnt born to love to study and love to recieve IT knowledge. im trying my best... even thou it isnt my very best. yes i know it.

sometimes u should not be too contented with life.

anyway... its been a long time i've been at the airport... i love tat place... hahaha... like coffee there... coke there... chicken there... air there... all especially nice. maybe cuz once in a while go? hahahaha... i hope to go there soon in the near future... go eat sakae buffet... go drink coffee... nov got cambobia'02 outing at there.. hmm.... not juz becuz of a motive to go. but... juz becuz i like it... and will, muz bring camera... hahaha... go see air planes! yeas~ hahahaha...





when u lose something, you'll gain something too.

was reminded of tis today.



oh YES.
i changed my blog skin. lols

ROCK YOU LIFE.

find your other part... hehhee XD


keep ROCK'IN.

Hmm....


people who wait for love... will they really get it?
yes?
no?
wat?
see how?


I very much want to say...
I'll reserve my heart for you.




but...
prob is....





nobody to say to! ><




There is so much wanted to spill out... of the heart which used to be thought to contain alot and too much of emotions. but u take a peek inside... did u find out juz like me? that it actually is murky and dunno izzit empty or not?


i guess im juz very much like the msn nick i have now.
i dont know.
i really... dont know....
izzit tat i dont bother to find out?
izzit cuz its not of enuf importance to me so i dont find out?
so
so?
so.


will i end up always juz saying
''Watever''
?



i guess so?



My life, is simply so full of questions marks and i noe ur goin to tell me that i deserve it cuz im a lazy bum.
oh yah.
yes.
watever.




-------------------------
''My dear shijie''
sounds superly good. XD
-------------------------




I heard a new type of excuse/phobia today...
phobia: of taking MRT.
Reason: cuz had a dream and thus developed phobia of when the MRT goes underground, it will slip into another dimension and cuz there's no food and no way out, the humans cum singaporeans will start eating one another.


sounds cool?
hehehehe....


Intro-ed Hard Gay to val today... me and wilson... hahahha..... so, taiwan really so lack tat they nvr heard of HG before? lols. where's their life gone to~ hehehe... LOLs. Hard Gay, is one with superly ORZ butt muscles lor... imagine to be able to maintain his trademark hips-thrusting-non-stop action... wow. takes a whole lot of superly duperly strong butt and thight muscles.... hehehehe XD


i guess, not daring to put enuf emotions in cuz ur afraid of being hurt.
but on the other hand is, if you dont open ur heart and thus endangering it to being hurt, you wont be able to taste love or watever else stuff close...


look around you.
are those really the stuff wat u want u life?
do you really know wat u want in life?
do we really know?
do you do wat u want?

want u want
might not be wat u need.

wat you THINK you are looking for
might be wrong.

wat u've found to be right
might fill u with doubts after sometime.


so nothing is absolute.

so in other words
life juz sucks cuz nthing's forever.
but again
life rocks becuz nthing's forever.




Ever heard of a breakingg heart?


No,
i didnt break my heart today.
truthfully.



I'm just...
thinking.

Okies.
to Yurong:
u really should not, study in a group.



my theory worked today... hahaha... i really cannot de~ study in a group. we met up at bugis. darn ass... today dunno wat accident near the sim lim there... Jam like siaoz! jam till my house bus stop there lehs! kua zhang or not~ a 10mins bus trip took almost 30min++ arghs~
Shuhui, joel, shitian, elieen, ivan, darren.
den walk around... shopped around. OH! we didnt take neo-s! arghs~ ><>< but ivan's baked rich not bad. heard tat sandwiches oso.... pls... be warned and dun try the spagetti... dont even give it a second chance... dont... dont be so stubborn like me and sufen... XD
Watched Love Wrecked. Jonathan Bennett is sooooo cute. lols. tat guy in the show. NO. not the ''rocker'' but the best friend. lols. the ''rocker''.... yikes... forget it... ashin's more cute than him. lols. He was faking the guitar lor! wasnt playing it lor! the guitar sounds WAAA... but he's not playing that... >< err... the movie... ok lor. not TERFFIC-ly WAA but... err... ok lor.. but... the cinema SUCKS... bugis de... so lok kok. arghs. i miss cathay... or prince oso better lor! arghs...
went national library study. alamak. wats the use of a library like tat... so darn strict... cannot even bring bag in... hmm... its rules, yes... but too darn inconvinent liaoz~ ended up those who wanna study muz go the dwnstairs de... lol... we ended up booking a table at the children's corner... lols. imagine we 7ppl... squeeze at the children table... lols.
dinner at tis very nice cafe... err... all pinkish thingys... candle light... nice food... can back there again sometime.
went casting. err.. quite a gao xiao experience lah. there the office damm ulu... ubi ave3 arhs... lol... but their studio cum office quite nice. the layout.. but abit dangerous u noe~ >< hahahhaa... the cat~ cute... hahahha... play until got alot of cat hair on my shirt. the casting... err.. bascially... she juz ask us go in... look at her, smile, let her take photo... den fakely read book, smile at the camera.. den she film... liddat nia... lols. most farnie was at the end she ask us all go in.. den she take group photo... LOLS. damm gao xiao.. she still ask us go there... ask us TP cool or not... got mehs? hehehehe... lols.
den go home lor...
tired lehs.. my oni day off... have to go HIGH... hehehe... den 2mr work... den... sat.. need to down agency double chekc and see how to book the stuff and all... den... sun house got stuff.. monday goin study... arhs... wed exam liaoz! fri exam finish den can go out play! can watch THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA... den can meet up with maybelline and crowd... cuz our dear maybelline goin GERMANY on sept11... den meet up with nenx for crapping session... lol... den... THAILAND!!!!


okies.
overly HIGH-ed. lols. damm tired. going sleep soon.
CYAs.

I have many to blog bout. but lazy to type many thing... lols.


Interview--> lmet yali @ the bus stop outside MJR. walked one big round... den realized the place on the add was juz opp the bus stop i was waiting for her... lol. actually, the whole thingy juz lasted for oni less than 5mins. cuz i tell the boss. i can oni work 2days. den she say nvm. den i go out and ask yali go inside interview. thus, my interview ended. lols. if it can be counted as one lah.


met sam @ sunshine plaza for wonton mee. saw shan na. err... they saw... i didnt see her face.. juz her back. crapped. ate... decided to proceed with plan of watchin 'the Break Up'. walked to cineplex. thanks to joel and jiali who helped me check the timing... hahahaha....


we watched the movie at the main BIG theatre! the BIGGEST one... the last two time i went there, watch CLICK and THE OMEN was the other cinemas... not the BIGGEST ONE... WOW. we should have been inside there... darn freaking big! really! the Break-up was quite good. err... lots of screaming around and arguing during the process of breaking up. wow. adults... guys and both girls... sometimes can be so darn immature... lols. but... jennifer ainston... wow... nice~ hehehe.... nice body sumore... lols.


humans when we angry, we speak of the deepest thoughts and... we dun spare a thought for others... sometimes it mite juz be angry words... but sometimes oso the truest words... we always dont want to hear the blant, naked, bloody truth... cuz it usually hurts... alot...
but we cant be running from ti forever i guess... one day, you have to face it... eventually...


and chatting session with yali n kahsin after sam left... wow... two years... we left sec sch... TWO YEARS liaoz! imagine... we now 18.... J they all 19... A-kiang oreadi 20! omg.... so fast... haiz~


Ben&Jerry's!

alas~ tat lost voucher i dunno with whu liaoz~ the one which i DIDNT get to eat on sat! who took it!


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说再见比再继续容易


以后 再也没有了以后

以后的黑夜与白昼 无止境的守候

以后只留下这伤口 再也无处可躲

曾经痛的那么 无助

以后一切已经模糊


你的天 你的地 在哪里 已遥遥无期

转身去 忍不住 问自已

过去的点点滴滴 要忘记 也可以

只能说我已经很努力


以后 再也没有了以后

以后的黑夜与白昼 无止境的守候

以后只留下这伤口 看不见的尽头

曾经痛的那么 无助

以后一切已经模糊


以后 再也没有了以后

以后的黑夜与白昼 无止境的漂流

以后只拥有这伤口 再也无处可躲

回首爱的那么 糊涂

最深最痛最美 最初


i dunno why... but i very hooked on this song recently.... yahs. DEPRESSION song type... ><

How tired one can get?



I guess working life is like this. I have juz realized its quite easy to get used to working life~ work, eat, work, go home, watch TV, go online chat, sleep. This is bascially wat my working lifestyle is. sometimes after work meet friend go eat freaking ex meal... errr... ok lah... not freakin ex lah... unnecessary big meal.


we are juz children who never learn the wrong lesson. me and sufen. ok. i admit. its juz me. hahahaha.... never go back to a restuarant tat u've tasted not very okay food? hmm....


I am going for the interview for the IT fair thingy 2mr... with sam n yali.... long time nvr seen gals... both exams finish liaoz~ ><
青春是挽不回的水
转眼消失在指间
用力的浪费
再用力的后悔


it is a crazy world
i may be wasting my life.
but who cares.
im living it now... tats wat it matters.
and i love my friends.
hahahahaha.
and i noe im going to get married eventually.
and
i have memories.
XD

Okies.


my last post. one whole big chunk kenna delete or wat... GONE... arghs~ watever... hahaha... i now really no mood to type it out again... besides... the point was made---> i had FUN... hahahaha....


Hmm....



Does one really can get used to live aimlessly?
What does it mean by living aimlessly?
Living without a goal, or any dreams?
People like this should be looked down upon?


hmm....


how much of ur life can u dictate? Dreams and Goals... wat a wonderful thought... maybe fickled-minded people like me juz cannot decided wat we.... I want in life... or mayb juz simply im TIRED to think about it.... mayb im juz in fear of rejection or dissappointment?


you ask me?


I would juz shrug and say I dont know....



u tink i nvr thought about it arhs? everyone does think about stuff like this at a certain part of ur life.... but how much of ur life and time would you spent on thinking? to a certain point maybe i juz simply gave up and did refuse to think about it totally...



yahs.
im juz a stubborn kid.

*.....*UPDATED*.....*


err. today. spent alot of money.


lols. i reach home de realize.
i really should not continue going out. ><

met joel, jit and shitian for click @ cathay cineplex.
yes lah~ i know what my sis meant by the duck and the dog.. lols... and i know why sam cried like siao~ XD
den crapped @ starbucks. diaoz~ hang around addias shop... with the $25 voucher... lols. didnt buy anything thou. hahaha... oni enuf to buy socks or wristguard... hahaha....
den went for K-ing. paradiz KBOX really cheat LORS. so early kick us out. diaoz~ 10mins before 10pm... no worries. we can continue HIGH. lols. and the yi qi zou ba~ LOLS.
HIGH, HIGH, HIGH.

went to find ning and all there at the padang after tat. class95 was screening MI3 and X-men. ok lah... caught bits of X-men... was quite good.
u noe wat ning's bdae cake was or nt?!
Elmo agar agar!!!
SOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!! XD


had a great time. ^^


Your life, afterall-ly. is being dictated by yourself.
and afterall it all comes back to karma... right~ like wat u do, it will juz get back to you. i guess everyone should take more time to slow down and notice wats around yourself. remember to treasure... wats around you... you'll never know when you'll lose them.

when i saw the father saying 'I love you' to the son... haiz... i thought of my grandma....

sometimes its juz so hard to say it out.
we juz made it a habit to keep all the love shut up in out hearts and juz dun want to get it out of ur mouth.


Stuff might be hard to say.
Pain might be hard to endure.


but watever it is... dun let time be ur barrier... never have any regrets...

SaM lEE ShenG JiE really ROCKED



his LIVE singing never changed... still same as good. he sang zui jing, chong lai, guan yu ni de ge, hen xiang shuo, shou fan kai, ni men yao kuai le, yan di xing kong. we tot he wasnt going to sing na na me ai ta... lols... keep screaming for that. esp when the DJ jiahui said it was going to be the last song. den ask us guess... hahahaha... we screamt NI NA ME AI TA... diaoz~ still have to scream 2nd time cuz he didnt hear clearly. den when he did, he was like:"ni na me ai ta? Ha. Ha. Ha. bu shi yea".... LOLS. he leng xiao 3 times lehs!!! den the other ppl guessed is ni men yao kuai le... okies lor~ den he sang tat.
den end liaoz~ surely got encore de mahs....
你那么爱她!!!!!
lols. he really did sing. i tink he juz kenna shocked dio... cuz we guessed dio wat he was going to sing for encore... LOL.... hahahahahahha... other song was chi xing jue dui. oso DARN HIGH. hahaha...
so i guess... so diff... hahaha... qing ge and rock song... lols....
like not much ppl high. lols. darren was like SUPER high cuz we all there nt high de. den he keep screaming too lee sheng jie stuff... lols...
sumore called us DA MA li gong xue yuan.... lol... is TAN MA XI li gong xue yuan lars... hahahahaha... and he taught us sing the hen xiang shuo chorus.

很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
My love


everyone was screaming the "My Love" part... lols... cuz other all dun rem liaoz... lol....


lee sheng jie was terrrific. partly cuz he sang ni na me ai ta.... XD

A - Available?
yah lar~
B - Best Friend?
err... BEST arhs?
C - Crush?
HIM lors >< hehehe
D - Dogs names?
dun have one
E - Easiest person to talk to?
whoever who prefers to talk on the phone. i can talk to anyone.
F - Friday or Saturday?
Saturday nite!
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms?
bears~ yellow, green and red ones.
H - Hometown?
S-I-N-G-A-P-O-R-E
I - If You Could Move Would You?
nope. NEVER.
J- Jesus is...strong & almighty?
err... should be?
K - Kids?
can be slienced with a stare... lols... but they are really so so soooo darn cute.
L - Longest Car Ride?
3hours plus, at cambodia to the minning area.
9hrs plus to malaysia KL
M - Milk Flavor?
chocolate LAH.
N - Number Of Siblings?
2 younger sis
O - One Wish?
Get married asap to the CORRECT one. ><
P - Phobia(s)?
xiao qiang-s.
Q - Favorite Quote?
wat the.
R - Reason To Smile?
Them lo... can make me smile like a fool for no reason. and bascially thinkin of all my friends too.
S - Snow cones good or bad?
err. wats that?
T - Time You Woke Up?
6.30AM. sucks.... last MDBS lab anyway...
U - Unknown Fact About Me?
i used to pray for everyone i know before i go to sleep every night even thou im a free thinker. i even thought of everyone's names.
V - Vegetable You Love?
errr.... i dunno wats its called but my grandma loves to cook it ><
W - Worst Habit?
stubborn.
X -Rays You've Had?
yahs... go poly muz take wat!
Y - Yummy foods?
mango ice with condensed milk.
chilli crab.
steamboat.
COKE.
curry chicken(muz be the on my er yi cook one everytime during pai pai)
the beehoon and veggies grandma cook on the first day on chinese new year
Z - Zodiac Sign?
carpricorn.





okies. im being bored again.

diaoz.




How empty can my life be?!



haiz.
everyone is complaining. so nice to have something to complain about mahs. at least ur life is happening.


later got 7hrs break.
i tink im goin hiding in the library.
i need to read. ALOT.
need to cry lah.



what is love?
so easy to say.


haiz.
do you really did loved?

some people claim they fall in love so many times that they've been hurt so much that they dun want to continue loving anymore cuz it juz hurts too damm much.
some people spent their lives waiting for the love to come.
people of the first category had expressed that people of the second cat are inferior to them cuz people of the second cat are so weak and are nothing as compared to themseleves cuz they had never gone through anything heart wretching like their love process.


do you think the waiting process is nothing too?



i cant believe that you're my friend, reading my blog if you're thinking this...

and you are my friend? *snorts*


watever.
people always think they are the correct party.
and since im a human, i guess i would be the same.

but at least i admitted to it.




oh dear.
im such a bloody idiot.

http://i.euniverse.com/funpages/cms_content/6489/a-maze-ing_new_cursor3.swf




LOLs.



Lee Sheng Jie LATER @ TCC!!!

errrs.....


yahs....


date....


lols.



super ex-girlfriend was quite good.... at least i didnt look at my watch to see if it'll finish or nt... so.... yars... darn farnie lors! xtremly FREAKY gf... throws SHARKS sia... lols.....


joel. you... BETTER.... B-E-T-T-E-R.... make sure we go watch click... if not im gonna strangle u arhs....


pics:







i dunno.... does my date wants her indentity to be kept secret? hahahhahahaha =X


i really had a darn fun day today... even thou we went out late.


so darn dearly MISSED!! XD

A is for apple
B-O-R-E-D
C opy cat
D a Ta da da. dada dada Tada. wo hao xiang fang jia ><
E eeeeeeeee
F ang shou!
G igantic
H ips
I am laughing like siao in front of my com now XD
J un jie?
K e ai nu ren~
L ang ren qing ge
M o fa shi
N i na me ai ta!~ wei she me bu ba ta liu xia~
O h my god
P aradise [joel's nick! lols]
Q u shi ba~ >.<
R ang wo zhao gu ni
S ing Kbox
T ango~
U , doin' tat thing u do
V ilian
W atch CLICK.
X ing qing
Y ellow [coldplay's song!!]
Z illions.



okies. im bored again... HAHAHAHA.....


my date lars. put me areoplane... so late haven call me! diaoz. we meet 12pm lors! now 1.56.... i tink she still at home lors. rain....

pui-s!!!!

Ass.
Baby... hahaha... earlier give birth the better it is.
Class... opsy im in now.
Doggies press!
Elegant... which im isnt at all abit.
Flirty --> how some people are behaving.
Grandma whom i love.
Horse flesh more expensive or Cow expensive?
Instict.
Jerk.
Kaoz.
Lim beh.
Nana nanana nanana nanana tong tong tuo diaoz!
Maybe mayday... ><
Oh really?
Pooh BEAR!
Queen.
Roar --> reminded me of elieen... hahahaha... ><
Sinfully
Tempted.
U are so beautiful, to meeeeee~ LOLS.
Vexed?
W-A-I-T-I-N-G~
XD
Y is it finishing so fast~ im still bored.
ZzzZzzZzzZzzzzZZzzz.....




LOLS. yes lar... i have nothin better to do.


im going to watch lee sheng jie on thurs! sumore i have a 7hour break before that! YIPEE~~

*pengs*



u dun need to be terrific, you juz need to have terrific group mates.
u dun need to know alot of people oso, you juz need to know people who know alot of people...


HAHAHAHA....



im so darn BORED.

I juz wanted to add... I...



I...



I....




Dreamt of.....



Him:

Oh my dear... he's so darn freaking cute.... LOLS.... hahahahhaha....

it was blured... but i remember very clearly... and... erms... yar... concert... err... i still remembered tat i called my sis and asked him to talk to her... lols...





i miss them.




and hors... IM BORED... juz now went to work... but no one in the office so no one to open the door for me... thus... a trip wasted thus went home... sumore... no one online...


how am i to...

express my dislike? diaoz.... so it shall be said that there would be no real hate for any of ur family members... yars... neither do i feel much warm feelings for them either...


yes, you can say im sick in the mind or im juz an ungrateful girl.
watever.

it really feels weird... but i tink my ma is tightenin her reins on me.... dunno lehs... suddenly like over protective liddat... usually i tell her i will go out late... she juz go slp and wunt care de... now like.... hmmm.....


NO I DUN HAVE A BOYFRIEND.


lols.


i juz have very HIGH and very ON friends.... hehehehe....



juz now arhs... pei joel n shu hui they all do the WWNK lab... yes lars... in the end didnt see the fireworks. SIANX.... den went to bugis... den eat... STARVING... den... go the tong luo wan cha can ting eat... THE FOOD sucks... esp the french toast... dun TRY IT. DONT. the ice was ok... not muz taste. i didnt try the milk tea...

will upload the photos... when free.





i do admit. i like confident men....
they are so DARN attractive.


but hors...


i dont like... OVER confident men... they act as if they noe every bloody little damm thing and they give u the ''u-are-so-ignorant'' look.


fuck off lah...


wanna act superman~

tat doesnt apply to ME.


i wont WAAAA and worship you as god juz becuz u noe how to check the wiring izzit correct or which line or fastethernet port is up or down.... DIAOZ... I bloody hell oso noe how to check lors.


sorriee.... i noe i damm pissed off...


if u noe, i'll let u do the honours... and tell us wats correct.. but that attutide.... SUCKS....






LETS GO DRINKING ON MY BIRTHDAY... lols...

Im now alone in the lab... haiz... i guess really... sometimes u need time to be alone. Hmmm...


who am I?


who am i to... interfere in your life... even a friend can juz do that much. which isnt alot anyway... a friend. you juz abandon friends for the other half... its always said that people who are not involved are clearer of the situation.. some may argue tis point, since you're not involved, how would you know wat the hell is going on and wat the hell the two parties involved are feeling?


yes.


what the fuck.

i bloody hell dunnoe.


YES LAH.


who the hell am I to comment on your life?



bloody fark... if you're thinking that,




that who the bloody fark are you to comment on mine?



if you treated me like rubbish, do you tink i should smile back at you?


Hmphx. think again lar. i noe you're not brainless.... or is it that... the feelings you call love as made you self centered and selfish... and it took away your logic and your feelings for us, me, such MERE human beings that you call friends when you need us.



sometimes people juz think the world owe them.


COME ON.


does the world really owe you?
ASK URSELF THAT.
are you really so ''such a little poor thing''?
ASK URSELF THAT.
Have you been hurt so that badly?
or you juz let the whole bloody thingy get to you.




yes.


come.


attack me.



as if i minded.



YES.


throw it back into my own smug face and tell me that I'm juz another farkingly pityful person who is so damm self centered and straight and cruel and ugly who has never EVER loved anyone truthfully EVER in my WHOLE LIFE cuz i love myself too whole-heartedly to let that happen.




feel like saying that?



great.





i welcome you.

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

HAPPY
NATIONAL
DAY


we're singapore, singaporeans....





hehehehe.... juz now watch parade dunnoe why sudden damm touched... mayb cuz tink of that time we performed before there... haiz... national stadium... tis is the last time... NDP held there...

have u ever seen the fireworks juz beneath them?


><


an experience u'll never forget ur whole life.




diaoz. who cares all the couples have been out together watchin fireworks yest arhs.... hehehehehe.... yah lors. oni so ke lian single people are left at home ALONE... humphx. lols.

today went to K with sk... okies arhs... no... no ok.... CHINATOWN KBOX SERVICE SUCKS TO THE CORE.... food is DAMM late. ask for bill when ur eating halfway. lets people cut ur queue. damm bloody farked up manager juz open ur door wide open when ur singing half way and ask u to get out juz they need the room. KAOX. no even polite telling of us that it's the last song? WTF.

but hors. i still have to say... hahaha... me and sk's best is still wu ding... LOLS... we duet damm good sia... hehehe... like damm bu yao lian... hehehe...





[简简单单] by 林俊杰
我们都是泡沫轻轻一碰就破
眼泪是爱的火花
昨天就像飞机穿过我的窗口
我什么都没有

我摊开了双手
你予取予求
直到你想自由
痛苦的时候
我不会闪躲
就像树叶甘心为春风吹落

只是简简单单的爱过
我还是我
简简单单的伤过
就不算白活
简简单单的疯过
被梦带走
当故事结束之后
心也喜欢一个人寂寞





all.... can be so simple...
a simple beginning.
and
a simple ending.
><

FAVOURITES
FAVOURITE COLOUR: black, red, white, orange
FAVOURITE FOOD: Mango sago ice with condensed milk. YUMMY. >< FAVOURITE SONG: ci xiong tong ti. Wang chun Feng.
FAVOURITE SPORT: talking. Hehe…
FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK: Saturday.
FAVOURITE ICE CREAM FLAVOUR: chocolate
FAVOURITE CAR MODEL: Hur? Car?
FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: erms… English?
FAVOURITE SNACK: COKE. Yahs… hehehe… I oni need COKE. Lollypops during traveling.

CURRENT STUFFS
CURRENT MOOD: Blank.
CURRENT TASTE: Pineapple and cherries.
CURRENT CLOTHES: white little miss splendid tee shirt and jeans.
CURRENT DESKTOP:
CURRENT TOENAIL COLOUR: BRIGHT pink. Hahaha… seems frivolous but I like.
CURRENT TIME: 11.25PM
CURRENT SURROUNDINGS: My ma is practicing her voice over the phone again. And my sis watching…. YIKES…. Sponge box square pants on TV. [changed to the suite life of zac and cody]
CURRENT ANNOYANCE: Eh? I tink is my ma who’s getting very agitated practicing.
CURRENT THOUGHTS: I bloody WANT TO go sing KBOX 2mr!! But hors… WHO THE HELL is going?!

THE FIRSTS
FIRST BEST FRIEND: MAYBELLINE goh shu qing.
FIRST CRUSH: Forgot. >< really LORS. I tink it was my cousin’s BF that time. So cute HIM! Hehehe… now is my cousin-in-law. LOLS.
FIRST MOVIE: some Jackie chan jumping around movie.
FIRST PIERCING: NONE. Yikes.
FIRST LIE: I told my ma I had tuition but I was having ice-cream downstairs. ><
FIRST MUSIC: Teresa Teng?
FIRST CAR: diaoz.
FIRST REAL DATE: DUN HAV LORS. Am wishing very DAMM hard for it. *cross fingers and start praying*

THE LASTS
LAST DRINK: watermelon + pineapple juice from business school.
LAST CAR RIDE : cab ride from boon keng to Cineplex last fri with shuhui, joel and jit. The ride on IMPULSE.
LAST "MOVIE CRUSH": movie crush? Err… ehs… who arh… err… OH YES. Chen BoLin! ><
LAST PHONE CALLED: Yali.
LAST SONG PLAYED: na jiu zhe yang ba - power station
LAST FOOD ATE: rice with soup with Fried eggs.
LAST THING I DO BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP: log off MSN den turn off my com… hehehe…

HAVE YOU EVERS
HAVE YOU EVER DATED ONE OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS? Nope.
HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN THE LAW? Dun hav…. Bahs?
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ARRESTED? Ehs. Nope.
HAVE YOU EVER SKINNY DIPPED? according to my Ma->YES.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON TV? Yups. Becuz of mayday… becuz of my dear niece charmine…
HAVE YOU EVER KISSED SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW? Har?! Nope… dun have the chance to do something so darn crazy… yet. ><

5 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1) necklace.
2) specs.
3) underwear?! Hehehe…
4) confidence. LOLS.
5) my clothes lors. =X

4 THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1) chat on msn ( TILL NOW: maybelline. Joel. Tese. JinHwee. Samantha. Darren.)
2) tok on phone. (shu hui. Yali. Jit. Li Juan. Maybelline.)
3) BLANK-ed.
4)High-ed.

3 THINGS YOU CAN HEAR RIGHT NOW
1) ci xiong tong ti on my player. The middle part where u jump and get high de lor!!!
2) my mother’s voice.
3) the msn-blinking sound.

2 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT
1) MUSIC.
2) FOOD.

1 THING I DO WHEN I'M BORED
1) dream… or read… or write stooped stuff. ><

5 PEEPS TO DO THIS
1) SAM.
2) JOEL. ><
3) MAYBELLINE.
4) SIEWKIANG.
5) actually... ANYONE WHO HAS A BLOG. lols.

YOU'VE BEEN TAGGED BY me ><












TADA~ Tis happens when you are bored...


some one saves you from boredom!!! THANks YAYA!! hehehehe....


haiyahs.... 2MR cannot go sing KBOX!! sadded... arghs... have to go back sch do WWNK. after work... *prays* we WILL get it done fast.. de... sianx... DAMO- unfinished. arghs. sumore grace... deleted my thumbprint there and removed my timesheet.... dunnoe WTH... anyway...


I WANNA GO SING.
yes, even with a sore throat...

Sorry about the previous post.... it juz came out.... ><

yest arhs... went out with sufen. expo (for the popular fair), den bradell (support jit), den marina square.... we were set out to try the food at the xing wang... lols... it really looked DAMM good LOR... but of cuz the french toast lost out to those we had at crystal jade... and of cuz the ones at HK... hehehe... but was qutie good. i ordered the baked porkchop spagetti, and sufen ordered the fish bake rice... the CHEESE was like... O_O lols.... dont order the guo tie tou... sucks... the milk tea mahs... mmm... better than the ones at zhong huan cha can ting... >< crapped quite alot with sufen... hahaha... toked bout lots of stuff... sufen says: 体贴的男生很可爱. i didnt say WHO kaes... hehehehehe.... amazing how much two women can crap.... hahahahaha....

p。s。 善为诞生日快乐!!!!
爱你哦!~ ><














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做梦，有错吗?


i distinctly remember someone saying this...
Is it a question?
or was it a statement?


做梦，有错吗。



Yest went out with sufen... had a long talk with her... chilled at the 新旺茶餐厅 at MS.

sometimes its juz nice to have someone to talk to. someone who can hear you talk. not juz expect you to hear but yet never ever did pay attention to what your heart had to say.


you hear accusations here?


yes there are.



im tired of hiding. am so very dammit tired.

but what can I do?

some stuff are not meant to be heard or said. things are much better left the way they are.... as derived from the theory of maybelline, yali, sam, zhenying aka-Ed my secondary BEST friends.

最好就是不了了之。


to treat as if nothing has happened before.

爱错，
需要很大的勇气的。


不经让我想起了 [孙悟空] 的歌词:
我从不怕爱错就怕没爱过。



你有那么大的勇气吗?

说起来，人生中你可以爱错几次?
人类，总是害怕受伤害。





我今天早上起来时脑海里浮现了这首歌的旋律:




I love you 无望...

sometimes u really need some LAME stuff in ur life...

induge in LAME-ness once in a while LAHS... hehehehe... ><

I guess.... I'm supposed to blog about yest... hehehe... LOLS.

ok lah.

thurs--->
pyscho was ok... ok lors... the presentation. could have been better of cuz but we did it. so i guess wats most impt is the process lah. lols....
then did the stoopid MDBS... till 10++ till kenna kicked out of the lab. den went eat... den cannot eat... ehs... i blogged bout it liaoz. LOLS.... hehehehe....

fri--->
felt like SHIT in the mornin sia... took the left over menu from yaya and safrina and started debugging... den done liaoz... print... went for tutorial... lab... tutorial... den went back lab see how much they've done... den... met shuhui n joel... and jit... den go dinner...
we really SHOULD NOT act on impluse... lols.... during dinner jit and shuhui was discussing the pub thingy.... designing the logo and saying the theme... yahs wat.... TOY-ING sounds cute... hahahahha... den we debated... erms... decided to watch CLICK in town... after asking maybelline [THANKS lots bao bei~ hehehe...] for the timmings....we decided to go cineplex watch... diaoz! take 23 from sch chiong down to boon keng there.... den realized not enuf time le den take cab... even more diaoz is... we were late for the show... LOLS.... den decided to go PS check out the timing... diaoz! 8.20pm left oni first row, 9.30pm left first 2 rows... diaoz... not worth it rite... sumore we watchin on fri... ARGHS. I WANNA WATCH CLICK LEHS... humphx.... poor joel... hahaha... kenna dragged by us to town in the end juz go there slack...
den we debated to drink coffee or alcohol... diaoz... wat an unhealthy lifestyle. i tink hors... drink too much alcohol is bad for ur throat... dunnoe lehs... last nite we drink that small bottle de... wat arhs... vodka arhs... diaoz.... i tink we looked pretty like some indians we see during weekends at little india there de... hahahhaha... sumore the scene of sitting outside the toliet... DIAOZ. yes i remember. YES its my fault... LOLS.... so according to mr.soft toy's theory, Im basically not DRUNK cuz i can clearly remember wat that happened yest... lols... hahahha... juz red-faced... i still can tink clearly de LORS... hehehe... but that mixed red thingy... yikes... really tasted like medicine... =X i tink medicine oso nicer arhs... =X


today arhs... my throat felt like SHIT sia... pain lehs... or izzit yest nite too high liaoz keep singing... diaoz... hahahah... but really DAMM pain now lors...

conclusion:
alcohol might be heaty for ur body... ><


I even dun tok oso quite pain...




BUT IM ITCHIN FOR A CHATTING SESSION LEHS.


diaoz.


jiali- working.
maybelline- sleeping.
siewkiang- depressing.
nenx- studying.
sufen- MIA.
Tese- buzy with dunnoe wat.




ARGHS.


mmm....



ARGHS....

If you pray hard enough, it will really happen?



Sometimes I really do wonder how true it is... dun pray too hard at time for stuff you know... the possibility... if not... you get an overdose of it....




Today was simply a damm tiring day.

My brain is forcing everything out now. its EMPTY...

wat scares me is.... its forcing the food out oso... imagine... I have no appetite!!! tats the real thing that scares me... i had no urge to be hungry... or even if i was... i get full from drinking half a can of coke... lols... surviving by one meal per day...

i tink im gonna be sick... LOLS... this is the beginning...






[Beautiful] 歌手:梁静茹 专辑:美丽人生

两罐 喝不完的啤酒
生午后屋顶上的girls's talk
脸颊染上微热彩虹
心情该不错
你却一直锁着眉头

从你的口中实况转播
爱惊心动魄
一万个笑容换一场失落

为什么 遗失了beautiful
我心中 你魔法的源头
看你笑 是这样beautiful
迎着风 自由的错过

呐喊在逆风的时候
吞下对王子的诅咒
碎花长裙当作斗蓬长剑在手中
你是潇洒的女英雄

那爱情总是让人聋了瞎了又疯了
错过的太多 结局太心痛

闭上眼 却看见beautiful
你拥有最体贴的朋友
你知道 什么是beautiful
你嘴角 不自觉的牵动

闭上眼 会看见beautiful
你拥有 最体贴的朋友
你知道 什么是beautiful
失落时 温暖的双手






不经意的想起了他的微笑
让我想起了彩虹。
最灿烂的那道彩虹。



世界那一秒仿佛因为他而笑了。

i juz did a super crazy thingy... after conferencing with sk n brown on the pyscho proj and tokin to joel on msn and doing the pyscho script and presentation thingy n thinking about the mdbs menu...

I was telling sk to take a break and have some coke to chill abit, dun so stressed wat... I suggested want or not go SHELL downstairs buy coke. she say ON... den in the end...

we really met downstairs to buy coke....

and....

it was like... 1.30AM in the morning?!

LOLS. crazy women we two... LOLS. nothing better to do sia... LOLS. due to too much stress... the result of living too near LAH... lols.



I want a hug.

but im not sure if I need one.




haiz.
NEED and WANT is different.

you want him doesnt mean u NEED him... right?!?
you can tink and fanatize but if u cannot tahan the after effect, its usually recommanded for you not to THINK at all... but... does this way really work? Do we have to turn to keeping a facade in the end? will it really turn out this way? to have a need to keep a facade?

watever.
i know im putting on a mask at times.


i guess... to put it nicely, people have many different faces, to different groups of friends, to family, to people u noe by sight, to people you've juz met.

to people you can trust, you take off ALL masks and let it all out?

i used to believe in that doubtless.... but hors... really how many of us can do that? especially when after u had put in so much trust yet people juz dissappoint you... you cant blame them cuz they claim they are innocent... which at times to others it mayb juz be another small matter...

so the conclusion is nobody really cares? lols... i dunno...
to have trust in some0ne.
but not that much of trust cuz there's a need to protect yourself from the hurt you MAY suffer juz in case the person betrays you?


Life is CONFUSING.
and contradictory sia...



p.s.
i seriously think guai shou looks like JJ in the news video of the rehersal of them singing in angela's concert. LOLS. >.<

p.s.s.
dear TP STUDENT.
come. MAKE ME BELIEVE YOU. im okay with anything. if you feel that way. tell me why u feel that way.

p.s.s.s
to shuhui ><
HAPPY BDAE GAL!!! love YA loads!!! MUACKS MUACKS!!! XD

i today went to the tour agency and checked on the pricing and all... den came back home... do pysco do until wanna long bia... den in the end lost to the temptation of the RESEARCH THAILAND project.... LOLS....


yest nite. went to celebrate with shuhui's bdae... lols... actually yest is the real celebration lah... we keep going out to play... lols... actually her bdae is oni an excuse to go out. hehehe.... yest lessons til 6... got whu go arh... elieen n her nan ren, joel, shitian, jit, darren, ivan n his gf belinda, and shuhui lah... took bus to town...

watched long hu men @ cine... waa seh... the kungfu is not bad lahs... actually some of the moves were really shuai... and looked very very painful... but the story line is like shit sia... too short, no climax or nothing... like mono-tone liddat... mmm... yah lors. lucky we watched on mon... but its still almost a waste a money... but ok lah... kungfu... hehehehe... diaoz~ we... erms... yahs... made the couples sit together... hehehhe... joel~ i noe u reading rite... hehehehe... YAHS. we made them sit together... diaoz... LOLS...

crapping too much is not good for ur health... hehehehe....

after movies go eat pastamania, den go starbucks buy cake for shuhui.... lols... she like always blur blur... but like actually noe wat is happening... hehehe... mmm... den crap crap... tok rubbish... den shuhui feed us eat cake... >.<

den... decided to walk to suntec... hehehehe... diaoz.. we really damm ENG hors... sumore everyday play till so late.... worse than CLUBBING arhs... hehehehe....





haiz.
我很想了解却不能了解。



p.s.
anyway i had said i would put tis pic here...



ppl.... ur see... izzit they both got the very CORRECT feel? got RIGHT??? tag tag tag please!!! make them believe!!! hehehehe XD

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