erms... like the whole world dissappear from the blogging world... hahahaha... like... no one is blogging lor! except for sk lah... hahahhaa.... like she ten thousand yrs nvr blog now suddenly sch reopen blog so much.... sam arhs.... where are u.... BLOG LEHS!!!! sianx!

have lotsa proj.... OPSY... supposed to hand in next mon 8am and our grp haven even started... AT ALL.... cool rite? and i dun even know them. i oni have one of the guy's number... pengs... mdbs... i know le... and going to start do. 3weeks later submission. erms... and pysco... script needs to be changed, presentation too... seems wrong... not right.... but juz cant say what's wrong... and that freakin guy i really feel like punchin him LOR.. arse... oopg dun even know when is the submission sia!!! pengs....

i think its time to change my mp3 playlist... i tink im goin to load several of the albums into my mp3 bahs? mmm.... no more mayday for me... its enuf.... for now....

i've discovered ptt and had spent like tonnes of time readin up on it... n i've found mr.coba's board... which i've discovered to be much more interested to the 5's.... hahhahaha.... i indeed have nothin better to do. im amaZed at the amount of posts mr.coba has on his own board... hahahaha... certainly alot of rubbish... hahaha... and arhs.... he indeed is quite popular sia... cuz i saw in some voting there... his votes are @ 19.... juz behind zhen yuan chang's 18... and their diff in votes are less than 500 bahs! shocking rite! hahahaha... and sumore he has a board of his own... when he's not even a singer or actor... wa lau... hahahaha.... orz....

i need my kbox... i need some sleep, even thou im not like hua zhe lei who need 15hrs... but i still need 10hrs at least bahs?



yes. i did something to it... found it somewhere... i forgt... but its so darn sweet rite!!! and his brothers also not bad rite... hahahaha:


=X

*runs away*

i saw kangxi and was reminded:

一场游戏一场梦[作曲:王文清]
不要谈什么分离
我不会因为这样而哭泣
那只是昨夜的一场梦而已

不要说愿不愿意
我不会因为这样而在意
那只是昨夜的一场游戏

那只是一场游戏一场梦
虽然你影子还出现我眼里
在我的歌声中早已没有你
那只是一场游戏一场梦
不要把残缺的爱留在这里
在两个人的世界里
不该有你

suddenly thankful for alot of stuff. thank you for having friends who are mature enuf to understand the suituation. imature friends to make u understand the suituation. the bloody band to make u think so much. the disgusting people in your life to make other small little things shine......

and im once grateful that certain fans are more mature and clear-minded... thank god for having so much of such ppl as sg md fans...

all above is caused by reading the superband forum. i really orz the people there... i really do sincerly hope that the population there doesnt represent the singaporeans nowadays... if not we really would fit the bill of being stupid and ignorant.

anyway... HOTELIER!!! GOOD-BYE!!! WoooHooo!!~ next one going to sub damo... hope i'll survive... i need the $$$$$!!!! everybody's leaving... but nvr heard of any new people coming in lehs.... pengs...

我学乖了。


如果我说了，你会相信吗? 就连我自己都不相信了。。。你觉得呢。想恋爱有错吗? 是不是一定要被当成千古罪人吗?

我真的厌烦了!
真是够了!

真佩服陈先生。他的歌词有时真的是太对了。

也许面对这阳光比较容易让自己清醒的面对一切的事实。
在深夜里的我没有那样的勇气。

假装。是件那么容易的事。 可是副作用真的太强了，不是我这种心脏太过虚弱的人可以承受的。

讨厌。事实那么容易就被我猜中了。



我在十四岁遇不到的哥哥，让我在十七岁时遇到了。但也因为长大了所以没那么 复杂。这一切都是命吧 。

Photos, photos.... hahahaha... cant believe its been months since nov05, since mayday got best album production in SGMA, and since we saw ashin... AND since our yanming proposed!


hahaha... sorry but i couldnt help it lah... had a break, 3hrs break in sch so begain searching for all the photos of his wedding... the day after always has news u know... loads of it sumore.

as i was thinking yest, since ashin is late, i hope he wunt wear his too-overly-and-fuggly coat to ym's wedding sia... at least give him some respect and wear something nicer rite? NO WAY... hahahaha... im freaking wrong about him sia... he wore the same old thing, and conclusion? yes... he looks freaking off... OFF... in the whole screen... and no in harmony with the others... erms... yah lor...



was watchin the news yest... darn farnie sia! out of his 6 brothers, 4 of them were the ji shi-s.... hahahaha.... masa, guai shou, shi jie, xiao hou, huang niu and zhang lao shi... all ji shi-s sia! AND... our shan wei DID go!!! hahahahha... sorry ah... me like super high now... *pengs*



shi jie is like freaking cute lor... hahahahhaa... so nan de~ hahahhaha now ym married liaoz the others CAN stop bullying him le~ hehehe... mrs liu looks quite nice in the white gown actually... hahahaha... shijie's expression really darn farnie sia... hahahaha...

life is what? mayb my life oni to have born to have two results, either waiting for marriage [or to said as to be waiting for that someone] or to die... either or bahs? life doesnt have many results... the main one is we die eventually. so what matters more is the process? what we had achieved and all? what am i living for? hahaha... i dunnoe...


Ah... yes...



I've woke up.

totally.

from all my fantasy during the holidays, especially what I shouldn't had been thinkin about.

Yes. it should be hard but... it feels better.

=)

my fever aside, there's something more important to blog now:



hahaha... he looks damm xing fu sia~ and guai shou didnt even shave for his wedding... hahahaha... but, mr.lead singer didnt appear... till the dinner... mmm... is it so diffcult to get a night flight? or is it simply not worth it to scarfice his sleep?

my answer? WATEVER.

they can survive on their own.

anyway, i was down with fever for the past day. and... it really felt like shit lor. i didnt even know wat was happening... and its the first time i felt like dying would be much better... even almost fainted in the middle of the night... ='( but then, counting the number of people who are sick around me (which is quite a handful).... hahaha... i should thank god i got well so soon. everyone like fever so many days but i oni got one day n night of hell...

i guess many people are faking about their lives. mayb im too someone like that.

no that above line has nothing to do with wat i did or where i went or who i was with today. it came from someone's blog. if u muz know who the bloody hell the person is, ask me. and surely is not NOT you de. if its u, HAHAHA, i'll get married tomorrow.

today was ok at first. i tink im seriously ill. not good. feel hot. at first was weiting, beside me kenna. now is me arhs? hahaha... muz b the bad air inside the room.

but still dragged myself to meet these gals. hahaha... even thou i feel like crumpling and dying at bugis and my shoes are killing me, i still dragged my feet to PS to meet them. hahaha... im darn proud at myself. even thou im startin to regret now ah... shld have come home early to rest.

yali, maybelline and sam. it muz have been like, a thousand years since i met may lor~ *rolls eyes* hahaha... had dinner at ahjiseh, which i very surprising had apittide for. finished one bowl of ramen sia... and talked alot. they bought shirts, we took neos... and outside there got the 全球华语流行排行榜造势 thingy. and in the end we saw guang liang. erms. he sang two songs oni lars. hahaha... and saw cruz teng...

不会了。
我在也不会在让自己那么期待下去。因为根本不会有结果。

在等待吗?
也许是吧。我的人生大概永远都会是这样吧。没有方向的等待着。

有人为我一切的感情做了个简单的比喻:

性饥渴。

*pengs*

yest went back sch do proj... luckily some... yah.... im ok with alot of people. but some people i juz cant stand. anyway... hahaha... we finished doing it quite early and in the end me and sk and joshua ended up toking about clubbing.. hahaha... darn farnie. and about ghost stories oso.
we went toapayoh eat the zi char... quite nice. but after that we went the mac there drink stuff and tok tok... some darn bo liaoz sec3 kids [KIDS] sitting beside us and saying quite loudly tat we're too loud and some quite lousy comments lor. puh-lease. if we got one whole crowd there. would your still dare to say that again? diaoz~ somemore one of the gals said very loudly 'OH THEY ARE GONE ALREADY' wat the? studyin at mac and expect no noise? pengs. sk darn angry at them ah.

recently. really had enuf of imature people.

now muz go work... sianx!!! I NEED SLEEP LAHS!!!

sk: thanks for last nite lah. really said alot of... true stuff out... hahahha!! qi dai-ing our outing sia! surely darn FARNIE de!! hahahaha...

it's how amazing how small things tend to make u smile to yourself so much when u feel like dying so much cuz you're lookin at someone too long... hahahaha....

the someone too long is called bei yong jun. u know lah... HOTELIER.... episode 17!!! WOOOHOOO!!! 4 more to go!! subbing i can... ask me translate mite as well ask me go band wall.. hahaha.... sumore 2 translators sitting on both sides of me.

now in the subbing room more and more laughter at times le... hahahha... mayb it's becuz of the sweets bahs... hahhaha... too much sugar makes everyone high.

but of cuz, my high is oso cause by another reason, which i shall not add her. god knows who's reading my blog... hehehehe... but i really the whole day um chio-ing to myself sia! but i swear this has nothing to do with mayday. swear! if not FFH the stage kenna stolen again... hahahahaha =x

guilty, sinful... delicious sinful sumore... more more more more sinful than eating buckets of chocolates... hahahaha... but darn enjoying this feeling. im so darn pervertic! hahahhaha!!! =D

if this is a wonderful dream, i dun mind waking up... but i'd prefer to continue dreaming until it really happened again in reality... HAHAHAHA...

reminded of wat one of my tcher used to say.
to the world you maybe juz one person.
but to one person, you might be the world.
so gan ren rite!

args... hahaha... congrats to joseph zheng yuan chang... cuz the yuan chang CRAZE had hit too many people suddenly! hahahah! like suddenly realized he's so darn freakin SHUAI and cute and tall and mesmerizing... hahahhaha...

i love tis line:
人潮拥挤我能感觉你。

how much people do you pass by every day? mayb the next one is the fated one for you yet we've juz brushed by. am i envious? surely i do. am i waiting? surely i am. but again. i've realzied tat fate loves to play games. by letting you be confused if it's juz a fleeting feeling or you're really falling in the love with the fated one. how sure can we be how wat we're feeling?

shards.

i need someone to hug me... haiz~

args... i have a not very good feeling about something... guilty... and sinful... hahahahahaha....

oh yes. year end im COMFIRM planning a trip to thailand and im oni asking those who really know how to have fun. people like my tp classmates and yali... sam i dun tink u'll be allowed to come anyway.... but... WATEVER. im going thailand!!! wooooohooooo!!!~ joel lor~ make me have motivation to go there... hahahahhaa... go thailand clubbing... hahahah! surely super fun sia!

hahahaha... im like HIGHing like nobody's business.

juz now juz watched ep19.... ARGH.... muz endure how much longer til the ending ah!!! pengs pengs... ming dao is like freaking shuai lor~ hahahah... juz now he juz kissed xiao bei... awwuu.... so sweet~ but.... erqi is more freaking shuai!!! hahahaha... ppl readin my blog ah... ur have to endure tis one more month, on every tues... hahahaha...

你知道人工呼吸和吻的差别吗?

hahahhaha... after having said tis line... ming dao actually KISSED qiao en on their 183concert!!! on the mouth!!! YIKES!!!! but shaowei lousy lah... hahahaha... 2nd nite oso try say the same thing to xiao qiao... but xiao qiao in the end really did kiss him on his lips... and he was totally 100% SHOCKED DIO!!! hahahaha.... darn farnie!!!


hahaahhahaha.... guilty and sinful~ =D

here to blog! look at the time~ hahahaha... last two nites went to have fun with my poly class.

sat nite
met up w jit, leon, darren, shitian... 4guys... pengs... but is shuhui's event... so still went even thou was freakin reluctant to go... was a bunch of nerves... but i dun tink anyone realized that... was at chimes. erms. yah lah... free flow but the bartender too hard to call liaoz. den we juz drink abit abit. erms... me lah... hahah.... but i keep popping [3or4 oni lor~] the tequila pop for darren den he keep drinkin. i got drink tat... the sprite taste quite strong. erms.. ok lah.. got another one w the coke de... coke very diluted. so oso ok... in the end i was the oni one OK. and leon lah. leon abit red. shitian was fine, until he drank the milk. hahaha... darren was totally giddy... and jit insist he's not drunk... hahaha... when he keep lying on the floor and all... and sumore he insisted on going back after we left.. in the end leon and ivan had to run after him... hahahaha... den me and shitian was carrying darren all the way cuz he cant even walk straight lines.. hahaha.. i tink the most fun part was nt the drinking or the music but.. hahaahaha.. seeing them doing the stuff they were after they were drunk. hahaha... freakin farnie.

sun nite.
juz nw ah. went zouk. with joel, shuhui, darren, yinru, shitian, ivan n his gf belinda, jit, leon, elieen, junyong. yahs... 3couples... pengs... ahahhahaa... as wat i've predicted, shitian was the first one to be gone... hahaha! darn accurate. zouk ah... nothing de. inside dance floor there oni gt sell fruit juice... so we went out to the bar there. but at the bar they still check ur id... below 18 cannot drink! so i didnt lor~ but the tequila shot was like... erms... abit heavy. wld like to try... but... yahs... hahahha... shuhui oso dint drink alot. den we went dancin... but oni at the edge of the dance floor lah... hahahha... fun... repeated again... go bar drink, go back dance. shitian i tink he abit fake de lah... i tink he mostly ok le. cuz he can speak with thinking... not w/o thinking... still knows muz find someone to hold... den the last part at the dance floor i tink i oso abit let go le. cuz going to leave liaoz mah... so high abit oso ok... but the dancing felt abit weird.. hahaha...

both nites our thingys was with the world cup... alot of ppl watchin around the match around us... den suddenly u'll hear... GOAL!!! hahahahha.... the first nite got more smoke then now.. cuz nw after i bath when i smell my own hair, i dun smell the smoke. last nite was freakin smoky lor, my hair... even after washin 2 times... but yest nite can drink... so got high abit more.

samantha ah. i tink u'll like it... hahaha... all the groving around and all...

sat nite i was wondering why ppl can tahan all this.
sun nite i know why liaos.

when i turn 18....
let's go CLUBBING!

hahahhahahahah.....

thank you for bearing with me being so naive.

if u like choc and curry, does not mean u can mix this two things up and eat together.

my conclusion.

my photos i have no time to upload. mayb on sun bahs. see wat time i sleep till. my sechdule for 2mr-- work frm 10am til 6pm den go hm bath and go city hall meet darren n shi tian den go chimes find shu hui.

TIRING.

sentosa was fun. the rain gave in to us in the end and there was sun afterall. i realize my hands are darker. hahaha... glad my class and sufen n yali n sam can get along. lucky we survived it all. with naked butts and swaying bridges. the bridge at silso is better than palawan's! really! hahaha... and sumore ah... we after that went ochard garden. waa seh... got 5 couples taking wedding photos lor! FIVE LEHS... hahaha...

My conclusion.
i tink the best time to let your poly friends and secondary friends and outside friends and family members meet is...

your wedding.

im not joking. nites~

juz a short one be4 i sleep.

im feeling nothing except tiredness... but amazing, i feel nothing at work. no even abit sleepy these days. so much that im amazed at myself. when u want to push urself. you can, eventually. your body will try its utmost best to prove you wrong. dun under estimate your body.

my body rocks sia. i dunnoe if i can withstand sentosa 2mr. my body i tink can ah. my mind i tink cannot. go there see sun and sand straight away shut down le...

*pengs*

*climbs up again*

if my sleeping time can give abit to him, i really dont mind scarficing it.

really.

*pengs*

p.s. dunnoe who juz scored a goal. now is 01.49am in the morning and i've juz heard ppl cheering outside. LOUDLY sumore.

*pengs*

tired. but happy.

cuz saw them on tv. even thou it's oni been a month. but still happy. and in the end too happy so nvr pay alot of attention to what's happening... hahaha...

thurs. work
fri. sentosa.
sat. work + go chiong.
sun. go chiong again.

juz now watched some news. erms... haiz... heart pain for him... train until so hard... see his face as if he's gonna faint any moment. 2 days without sleep, and one month with oni 2hrs of sleep everyday.. he muz be some kind of superman sia... for success... you really do have to give up alot. hope he takes good care of his body... cuz he really dont look good. his face is not that kind of whitely pale le... is dark and... u know... haiz... dont even have the strength to smile or tok much... imagine that... when he was rehersaling i tot he was going to faint sia! and concert tis weekend! he better get some sleep sia!!!

This morning I dreamt of somebody... whom i tink i've never dreamt of be4... ever... Werid.

juz now went minds cafe w yali and sam... i tink ah... sam turn dark alot sia.. hehehe... we took some photos... all at sam there. see her blog got or nt lah. and... yah... that guy was there... hehehehe... =X

looking forward to friday. seems tat my life suddenly turn monotone. work. sch. sleep. work. sch. sleep. im not feeling anything. time juz pass and slips away...

tats all.

how many feelings can u experience in a day?

Agitation?
Anger?
Sadness?
Emptiness?
or
Extreme happiness?

我绝对赞成亚斯应该和小贝在一起。


但是我的尔奇未免也太可怜了阿!!!! *sadded*

oh shit. i have endure another week of waiting... fark... today i juz saw the new of xu shao yang acting in it... and it's showing next week oreadi! and sumore he nvr change his clothes de... wear the same clothes all the while...

我可怜的尔奇啊!!!! =(

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我不小心的又想起你了。思念这你那灿烂的笑容。 你的背影。 你衬衫上的味道。 你拨头发时的样子。 想念你的笑声。

心事那没讲出来，有谁人会知。

想你的心， 无法度按捺。

if i were to leave my com on til morning....

I CAN GET TO WATCH 爱情魔法师 before i get to work!!!!

supposely... the d/l is suppposed to finish in 5hrs time... WOA.... i freakinly love the person who invented TV sia... hahahaha...

and nenx ah, tis is for u --> yuan chang
tis sumore is not the most recent photos... but watever. it's still so darn shuai anyway... hahahaha... alot of ppl feel jiang zhi shu's more shuai. but the one who really left a deep impression was kui, from the rose aka 蔷薇之恋. really lor... i like beautiful guys alot... hahahahah.... ok lah.

i dun know why i have a sudden obession for a certain group tis days... muz be aqmfs... hhahahah... wang shao wei is so freakin CUTE lor... esp when he's 娇滴滴! hahahaha.... Orz ah.... ming dao is the opp. darn man... but his small little actions oso very cute! like he likes to put his hand on yan xing xu's legs... or touch 183 here and there... hahahha... so cute~ i tink their image is one quite successful. i dunnoe how to say tis... well... u know lah. juz a kind of feeling. and feelings neednt explainations.

was looking tru uTube for videos... and found mr.fighting.

。英奇名言 。
让你流泪的男人不值得你去爱。
值得的那个绝不会让你流泪。

juz now watched the TGMA again... WOA... wu bai's freaking COOL sia! reallY!! if u had seen his golden coat sia... damm cool... hahahha... but to me. mc hotdog and zhang zhen yue was abit over with all the 'fuck'ing around... diaoz~ afterall it's an national event... u know..... tis type of high behind stage still ok. on the stage so many times... diaoz... makes the perf abit over. and ms patty hou... i dont know. she might be good while reportin news... but my view of her has started to change. unlike chiling.... she... looks good oni while acting shy... diaoz... i dunnoe how to say it while not making her sound like a vase... cuz juz now. the perf was not woa, or waa, or anything that wld interest me. and the so-called-rapping so totally off. and... erms... the mood like abit forced. i dunnoe. mayb those who watched will disagree w me bahs. but i tink... ok oni. sounds like jay chou? alamak... Jay can do better than that.
oh yah. i know y cheer cried liaoz. cuz her bf got the best album producer... WOA.

the c121 show is upload on my acct on uTube =)
and
the hk pics part2 is uploaded on my multipy =)

firstly-- from nenx's blog... WAA COW EH!!! zheng yuan chang's DAMM SHUAI LOR... hahahah... yes. i knew it before... and have juz renewed my feelings for this fact... HE'S DAMM SHUAI!!! it juz be a sin to look so damm shuai... hahahhaha.... erqi n yais from ai qing mo fa shi oso not bad kaes!! wei ying qi n quan yan hao frm mr.fighting oso... hahaha... and ling from zhan shen oso. hahahaha.... was arguing w my cousin. she insists that the most lengendary shld be te F4... hahahah... yah lah... F4... they started all tis... hahahhaha....

TGMA---
best group. pai jing gong zhu.
best band. dong shi zhang yue tuan.
best female. Tanya.
best newbie. lin yu zhong.
best male. wang li hong.

hahahah... yah lah yah lah.... i was damm shocked dio tanya got it... but so great rite! singaporean lehs! and was a surprise... hahaha... not stef sun again. nt that stef sun isnt good. but tis year really is alot of not very zhu liu music was nominated. what's the matter if ppl like stef sun. jolin. jay chou and mayday didnt get in? let others have more chance wat... but really pity... ashin's compositions didnt get reconized by TGMA... but so wat? hahahah... didnt watch frm the start lah. i know cheer got something oso but i dunnoe is wat... or is her boyfriend got ah? dunnoe lehs.. saw her crying alot!

juz now was at my cousin house. 8pm @ channel8... watchin the puwei thingy wat... got ning ning and my cousin. mi hu bing!!! WooOoHhOoOoO!! hahahah... they look damm unnatural on screen. but their luck really darn good sia.

and can go check out my links section... hahaha... updated quite abit. and...

sentosa cfm change to FRIDAY le!!! cuz the cmsk thingy cannot pon... haiz....

ok. i got lotsa stuff to blog bout but our dear blogger abit siao siao tis few days.

fri. exams finish. so went out w my class... really.... ORZ. we went to watch the omen. erms... its really way far from the usual movie i'll watch... we got 9 ppl go watch. the omen... erms... ok lor... usual ang moh scary movie izzit? the devil-ly thingys.... the little boy.... YIKES.... if ur fated to die... den u'll die lah... dun worry. but the seats there at the new cathy is really good! hahaha... next time got chance muz go there watch moive again... den after the movie i brought them to minds'... hahahah.... we muz hav been the HIGHest there... actually when we juz reach, next to us oso got another table quite noisy.... hahaha... den joseph sweared that we muz be louder than them... and we did... HAHAHA.... u know the scv ch52, xu nai ling and cheng cheng got tis show... play w dice de... but we got nothing to use to hit ppl... den they suggested kissing... cheeks, ears, nose, forehead, neck... hahahahah.... den upgrade to muz kiss the person w ur lips wet w mushroom soup... den upgraded to lick tomato sauce... hahahah... be rest assured that we were the darn loudest... hahaha... damm farnie... lick lick lick.... i kenna once is kiss shuhui... dne shuhui kenna is lick me... hahahah... me partner shuhui... den ivan partner joseph... hahahah... den at last is darren parter joel lah... cuz i got THE video as evidence... hahhaha
uTube! Evidence

mayday... yah... still suriving damm well... n there's the FFH.... *rolls eyes* at july... where is the DVD ah!!~ haiz.

holis == no holis... haiz... sianx.... sadded... work + projects... damm lot of projects lor!

and. i finished aqmfs episode 17.... ARGS.... *bangs walls*

等待後面是等待，更满长的等待。然后要紧了牙关，等待更多的等待。

yest i got type my blog... but our dear BLOGGER chose that time to hang... bloody ass.... one whole blog entry GONE.

erms... was blogging bout 爱情魔法师... juz been chasing it... finished episodes in 2 days... actually is one day... watch com screen see til cross eye liaoz... when i shld hav been revising... hahaha... but... yah lah...

yasi and erqi... ARGHS... hahahaha... as compared to the previous dramas... like frm the start u surely have somebody u like in the show den u watch... but me very werid is tat time the rose i oso didnt like anyone in it but i still watched... and it became the one i liked most... aqmfs oso! same same... was no big fan of 183club or shaowei... ming dao i very muck like him in 冒险王 cuz he was so darn MAN... but the 天国的嫁衣 i didnt like alot... and 王子变青蛙 was ok to me.. in frnt very nice but til the end got abit too heavy... til now... i cannot decide between erqi and yasi.. hahaha... cuz two both damm good... *can see alot of ppl rolling their eyes*

when u are biased at a thing from the start... u surely cannot see it clearly de... everything has its pro and con... sometimes we juz chose to focus on its cons oni... and deny all the pros.... isnt it...

i juz finished episode 7....

yasi is.... Yasi is.... DARN SHUAI!!! kao eh.... esp during ep3 part5.... alamak.... so darn shuai... but now er qi i think he's also starting to feel something for xiao bei... afterall... after that confession frm xiao bei... by the cliff...
你的明天还有我!

OMG....

and grandma has found out bout the truth... args...

ADDICTION.

i think i'll cry next episode...

i've juz read ur blog and

NO.

dissappearing will not SOLVE IT.

it'll juz worsen it.

and worsen it alot.
and alot alot alot.

i dun know how to put accoss it but it's not that easy... wounds may seem to get better and healed but it's all fake cuz it'll still be painful and bleeding.

the oni difference is.
u get used to the pain.

am I juz a reject nobody wants?

so I am one right?

maybelline, im not tat free to waste so much effort on organizing an outing to be angry for the whole of the outing. for once... im really thoroughly dissappointed... that im such a person u thought me to be. It's you who thought you weren't important. when we felt u were very important. if so many years of friendship can be erased in one stroke. then maybe... sorry... u believe it really can right? u was the one who told me, if u dun say it out, nobody will know what u are feeling. im juz stating things out. there's no need for cooling down or 'eh, dun be angry lah' cuz im not feeling anger at that moment... the anger was oni when i felt u didnt understand what i was trying to say[or we weren't on the same fequency or stuff].

truthfully, i know the difference between reasons and excuses. but when u realized one reason which turned out to be an excuse... u'll find it hard ever again to believe in any reasons similar to that again. but again humans need to be more forgiving and indulgent in stuff u like... so people forgive and forget... i forgive but usually wunt forget that easily.

but there are times i wonder if i was too over indulgent in myself.. allowing myself to think so naively... that things were juz the way it seemed...

and i've realized this very night that how simple to make someone believe ITs so simple.... the logic... has it becum so simple that people find it hard to believe?

so im a reject nobody wants lah. right?

someone rotten.
someone usless.
someone stupid.
someone naive.
someone who juz knows how to use anger on everything.
and besides anger i have no other emotions.
and besides mayday i have no other topics.
and besides fantiazing im useless at other stuff.

someone who swims around in useless self pity everyday.

great life, isnt it?

p.s. thanks Gill~

激发你的幻想的东西总是那么迷人。

让你越来越想恋爱。



爱情魔法师。

today went pc show w sufen... waa... kingston stuff price really drop ALOT sia... last IT show was $59 for the sd card... now oni $37 for the 1GB card! woa.... and went back the DELL there lo.... hahahah... reconized quite alot of ppl... yah... alot of temp staff... at first see like very little... but after walking the 2nd round and went back see... really alot... cuz as compared the crowd was lesser than last time... so seem as if the temp alot liddat lo.... chatted w some of them... yah... the IRRITATING guy is still there~ u know how... bad reputations will be smelly for years.... hahahaha... wat the hell im toking.... if ur a lousy person... YOU ARE... dun worry bout ur TRUE character going unnoticed by ppl sia~ quite amazed some of them stil reconize them.. hahaha...
bought stuff... erms... thumbdrive... DUN HAV.... but bought speakers... damm cheap there... white color de... erms... sonicgear arhs... walk until leg PAIN sia.... and hor... helped my cousin buy the iPod video... black one... $508!!! but nvm lah... is her company pay~ Watever.
chalet... Yali say cant book dio by NTUC... fark... mmmm.... im tinking go down book... see how... I REALLY WANT CHALET MORE THAN SENTOSA!!! not becuz maybelline say she DON'T WANT to go sentosa... mmm.... maybelline, if u don't want to go, so wat. if we really cant book dio... we're going sentosa anyway.... EVEN IF UR NOT GOING... im sick that im always planning outing locations based on where maybelline is allowed to go, when she's allowed to go... and all... fark... im being reminded everytime that u cant please everybody or fit in everybody's feelings everytime. some people juz make u feel they DON'T put in the effort to meet up or what... and im oso sick of "not i dun want is i really cannot" but the fact is... u really DON'T WANT sometimes... most of the times, that is. im so reminded of the boy who cried wolf. to me, sometimes it's juz sickening to keep givin in and qian jiu-ing to somebody who doesnt apperciate my efforts and others' efforts.
some people are mayb very important to ur life.... mayb the person has participated in some very important events in ur life, or the person may remind u of something very precious or very dear to ur heart... im also reminded by people that dont treat any one else better than u treat urself. it's juz plain NOT worth it.... but, kaoz eh... imagine a world like that... some time u juz cant stop caring but ppl juz hate the way ur caring or they juz think ur a pest to them and they treat it as nothing. great. it might be painful but i dont think i'll ever stop caring... im juz throwing some words around but in the end i'll still care for the person to bits, then very dissappointed and den go complain around then get back the same comments like "u asked for it".... and therefore... the circle continues.

how GREAT life can be.

一身中可以后悔几次?

没买到的那件衣服
没去看的那场演唱会
没勇气说出口的那句话


你们啊

为何留我荒唐的坐在这里。。。

我又想起了他。
橙色的。粉红色的。黑色的。红色的。白色的。
下雨的。阳光的。闪电打雷时的。艳阳高照的。

我又想起他了。



i tink durin june we'll be seeing abit of them... at last... rest very long n no news... hehehe... actually oso dun have rest very long hor? oni like 3 weeks oni... yest nire was watchin the 五月之恋幕后特辑... it was... DArN farnie lo!! hahaha... music can really represent any actions, feeling thoughts... to watch they play around with music.... can see especially the part when chen bo lin was walking around the bookshop that part... his fear, nervousness, all shown in the music, and the small sounds he emitted... all.... togehter with the electric guitart... it's so.... yah... "right"...
mrshin is releasing his book in china, up and running all his promos in china for the whole of june.... den 16june they got some perf thingy.... 25 june yanming getting married... den.... i heard that 22 and 23 july they having final final home... TWO days sumore... where? taiwan lo... still got where? if not y call final FINAL home... Orz.... Orz.... Orz....
speaking of Orz... i tink alot of people should be thanking mrshin for writing 恋爱ing arh.... the taiwan golden melody awards tis year is named ""金曲Orz"" lor!!! and there's a new group called ""i.n.g"". they're a new gal group w 3 girls, ida, nara and gillian... as compared to 7F.... they're like... TONNES better... when i at first heard their grp name... i was like *roll eyes*... but now i tink they're quite ok. songs quite catchy... at least they dance and sing better than the usual groups... ok lah... as compared to s.h.e's singing still far away... but for a new gal group... ok lo... [better than 7F.... yikes~]
i miss 五月蝶.... haiz... one month liaoz rite? time pass so fast... speaking of tat... suddenly reminded that i haven po the remaining photos!! alamak... later got pysco... wwnk make-up... mdbs tut make-up... till 7pm....
yest nite... watched the 选好就结婚... damm touching sia! even thou im not a big fan of quan yi feng... was really touching to see her when she saw and realized that they planned the surprise wedding for her... by the seaside and all... =)

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