我的心碎能说给谁听??

理由说了太多听起来都会像是借口。

老了。累了。倦了。变了。

你早已离去， 我还在坚定。

雨，降落在大地。
我安静倾听。
却无法领悟你为何放弃。

HAHAHA.... SO HAPPY TODAY!!!
I GOT IT
I GOT IT
I GOT IT!!!
Sorry I abit siao liaoz... kekeke.... hahaha....
hahahahah!!!
*fireworks shooting everywhere again*


diff frm ah deng's... is another version one... hehehe... and this one oso damm cool:


anyway... to some people's outright lie... yah... since he wants to protect his image... WAT TO DO.... watever~ im looking more forward to ym's wedding... hehehehe... and the FH dvd... Who cares wat happens to china nosy reporters who are kenna cheated... =p hahahah.... yanming oso going GET MARRIED!!... kaes.. i offically abit siao liaoz~
cuz exams coming mah... sianx!

friendship? HA. so fragile, so fakey... i wonder... how true can a friend be? i know everybody has their own temper... some boundards which cant be crossed... but thinking back.. are really such things that important? sometimes its juz within tat second everything seemed juz tat wrong and ur temper burst out... but after... people always act as if nothing happened... den everyone will go back acting as if everything was juz like before when actual fact it totally isnt and forever ur prejudged against him/her/it/them.

how much will ur concern to a friend go?
or
how much will u give up for a friend?
or
how much will it take for u to have a bad impression of the person?
or
how much does it take for u to give up on one?

as yurong always says...
wat will happen, will happen.
if ppl want to pick faults with u, even if ur an angel him/her/it/them can find faults with u.

what a GREAT world this is sia~

http://0rz.net/b904X --> check tis out sia... hehehe...

i guess i've been thinking too much recently... watever that people thinks, what they decide to do, what they choose to believe in, how they react... it's NONE of my business... i know if im not welcomed or wat.... so...

yah.

that's it.

next week's the term tests... 4 papers... hope... everything goes well...

weekend.
sat-- went to the food fair and MPH book fair @ expo... nothing much... juz the usual stuff, usual food... long time nvr go expo liaoz~
sun-- ning ning n cousin bel and cousin sandy WON the contest!! u know the new pu wei thingy which... sumthing like amazing race that kind.. they go join and... yah... WON... hahahah... alot of money sia... over 1thousand bucks lo! easy money... kekeke... their group is called mi hu bing.... yah lah... copy the mi lu bing one... hahaha... and they also wear army clothes... their eps will be shown on ch8 on 10June.... rem to watch arh... hahaha... so darn cute.. and my cousin crystal's new maid came... everybody like scaring them with diff tales of maids around... some are good... but mostly are real darn lousy... hahaha... like my 3rd aunt... when her kids were still young she got hire maid... in the end the maid brought another indian into the house to do that THINGY sia! even more WOA is that the maid told her husband that she every long nvr make love liaoz... WAT THE?!~ *OMG* and I actually got some vague impression of my last maid... hired cuz tat time my youngest sis was oni a baby... y she kenna sent back is cuz... she hit me. cuz i rem that we were in this playgroung... den i tried to carry my youngest sis who was oni a baby... then she hit me... the process i couldnt quite rem... but recently really hear alot of werid stories bout maids lor... watever~ hope that my cousin's house rules and web cams will help her...

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im gonna faint right now... sick from the loss of too much blood...

fark~

yest actually met up w cousins... cuz cousin bel(ning's mother) had 50% coupon for esprit... hahah... i ended up buying juz towels and blusher... diaoz~ but the towel's freakin cool... i like the color... =) kids clothes are so darn $$$ lor...

today... feel totally like dying... slept at 3am+ cuz of java... den today 6...7am woke up... forced myself to wake up go sch for APEL... even thou me and gill [we met on the bus... he oso late~ hahaha] were late for like... 15mins, our tcher still thanked us for coming.. hahaha... cool tcher rite? we got the coolest AOCP ever... haha... crapped alot over there... u know our class oni meets once a week mahs... den at sch CHIONG java lo... in the end oni searchItem and addItem no error oni... others all so many ERRORS... fark...

den went to work. finished eps 5 and 6, started on 7.... good... the small room is getting more and more squezy sia..

tok to my... erm.... tis guy i knew frm dell... waa cow sia he damm eng de lor... volunteer to go back help even thou he quit~ Orz... ppl. IT fair next week at suntec... im GOING... not to work lah... go walk walk... need to buy speakers, headphone... camera mayb? see how lo... since im savin up for thailand... sianx....

I NEED SLEEP.
I LOVE SATURDAYS.

oh yah... juz now after work go find my sandy cousin... [bel's younger sis... rachel's mother, crystal's elder sis...] cuz she went gown fitting... [http://www.z-wedding.com/] for her wedding in dec..
I WANNA GET MARRIED SIA!!!
all the gowns are like... freaking PRINCESS... hahaha... im crazy from the LACK OF SLEEP...

是应该解放的时候了。
荷尔蒙开始在身体里蠕动。

一切的激情只会发生在一瞬间。

=p

people out there... ur better go buy more tonics for me... especially those which can replenish blood tat kind. cuz i really need alot of that man... not becuz i lose too much bloody of the monthly thingy... cuz i've vomited almost a POOL-ful of blood.... because of JAVA!!!

*vomits again*

给我自由，给我自由!!

i've got a FREAKing 6hours break today... cuz sk wanted to pon pysco... so dint go... tis morning got 8am-10am lesson... den later 4pm got lesson again... so im back home... actually wanna do the java cuz 2mr need hand in... then ended up go and hang out clothes for my ma... haiz...

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ARHZ!!!!!!

*vomits blood again*

im grinning to ashin's wats problem again... hahaha... strictly speakin, he didnt even say the "the".... he's so freakin cute with his english sia... hahahah.... i siaos liaoz~
da vinci code? sufen ask me go watch. jiali ask me go watch. sam ask me go watch. haiz.... sorry peeps... someone else have booked me liaos. he call... EXAMS.... haha... since when did i turn out to be like this~ exams...
it's so so DARN SO... not me...
somehow... oh yah... yanming is getting married RIGHT??? on JUNE 25... haha... ashin is so darn distracting... everybody so darn worried bout him thingy den forget bout our yanming getting married. kekeke... i dunnoe y i suddenly bring up this matter.
superband... last nite revival round, lucify got in. erms... i tink jade was better last nite... dunno lehs... at least they improved alot sia... esp the lead... and i like the way they present the song. but anyway... no matter who gets in... hope tat all teams which have NOT BEEN IMPROVING can GET OUT... esp those who dont even deserve to be IN. fark~!

hahaha... mayday is really DARN PRICELESS sia!! cuz i juz d/l the sound clips frm forum... frm SFH... hahahha... ok lars... actually ashin's eng oso not as bad as what we tot lars.... hahahaha... exp for the burSTday... hahaha.... actually his eng is not... erms... not bad... HAHAHAAHA....

i really miss them alot sia~ cant believe im missing them so much.

SUPER SIA!!! CHECK TIS OUT!!

http://www.wretch.cc/album/show.php?i=ikicks&b=5&f=1116968783&p=9

hahahaha...

and tis one. the person whom xiao ming said masa very like tat one, wonfu's new lead singer

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/mamiqqq

added:

http://blog.mediacorptv.com/mblog/index.php?blogId=30

tell yah lah~ ishi's really freakin cute... hahahaa! =X

all the lab sessions have been great, truthfully speaking... but my tutorial sessions really SUCKS... cuz i dun hav any idea wat the tcher is tokin about~ shards....

juz now met up w yali, sam and zhenying... waa... long time sia, since we met up... photos... will b at sam's blog. i oso got some. and we got take neo-prints. and i gave them the present i bought for them... the 'THE DOG'... everytime all is they all go overseas... now my turn at last.. hahaha... hope ur liked it. =) still got maybelline's haven give. and jiali they all one. hahaha...

was lame-ing around.... next time if we opened a apparel shop... that shop will be called 精神分 裂... aka Schizophrenia... sounds nice rite? hahaha... the shop plan wld be, divided into 5 sections. zy, sam, yali, me and maybelline... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA..... i tink the shop in the end come out will be more like opened by a bunch of mad people... cuz the clothes' style wld surely be a VAST diff sia~ hahaha...

may god bless all the devils? mmm....

今天我又很无聊的做了件事。

反五月天?

你去yahoo 搜'反五月天'，还真的会找到一些家族是为了这个目的而存在的家族!我还以为56有很多。原来五月天也有啊。进去读了一些他们写的东西。说真的，还蛮没创意的。骂来骂就只有那几样，假摇滚，老团体，丑男人，之类的东西。结果让我看到了一个，

阿信那个死胖子!

我的天阿! 那个人应该是五迷吧 ?! 我还以为只有我们觉得他胖。。。 =X 不是每个人都以为陈阿信蛮突出的吗? 原来我都搞错了。哈哈哈。。。

但是读了他们的留言后，真的觉得世界怎么会有那么不理智的人啊~好像搞到全部的歌迷都超不理智的。因为骂的很没根据也非常不理智。无论是五迷在骂56迷还是56迷在骂五迷。真有够无聊的。

在你还没了解之前你根本没资格那么批评人家。

你觉得自己很棒吗? 又有什么资格那么决定谁的对错?

anyway... i have to declare here now... i LOVE MY CLASS sia!!! C121 ROCKS!!! woooHooo!!~ i have the best class in the world and we have the best AOCP EVER. hahhaha....

there's a difference between being tired and being lazy. which one am i? yah lah... lazy oni rite? these few days. i've been like.. push myself til very late. even thou like tired but dun wan go sleep. actually eyes wanna close liaoz but still force myself to write something... or go type blog.

sleep? im getting less and less of it but yet im forcing myself to get up more and more early than usual... n amazing im very fast into the "awake" mood nowadays...

life? continues. tat wat i told gill on msn... time waits for no one.

sianx. forcing myself to kaypoh-ing around every nite.

worked today. pon-ed lec. erms. yah. hotelier. yah... erms...

Ok. i admit.

i allow myself to get blank de.

anyway. the hair dresser at wan yu today really sucked sia... i can do hair better than him lo, if its juz take a few clips and anyhow pin on the hair liddat.. he can go back doin guy's hair. mayb it'll b better. i gave up watchin wan yu till the end liaoz.

3rd week since hk liaoz.

planning thailand durin oct. anyone interested? not that IM RICH kaes... i work like siao and the $$$ all dunnoe dissappear where liaox.

stuff to blog about.
1. yah... this blogskin supposed to have PUCTURE... but i dun hav put... juz wanted it plain lah... white white not nice arhs... u find it too plain? GREAT!!.... cuz... i juz want it plain.
2. 五月十五?, may15... wat a nice date... 4yrs ago. but now, four yrs later... everybody's gone...
3. the 6th global chinese music awards tis yr in singapore!!! WOOHOO!! hahaha... i went surfing around the pages den found out tat last yr mayday actually did DID DID win, the most popular grp thingy... and ashin did win the best pian qu for yan wei die... and i very bo liao-ED go and look at the results for 1st part, top 15, taiwan oni got 5, mayday, jolin, tao zi, pin guan n 56... so... tor long tor long... hahaha... i kee xiao oreadis.
oh yah... MAA singapore winner is taufik lehs! WOA sia! i tink stef sun can retire frm the award liaoz~ cuz she take watever best singaporean artist oso... u know... not surprising.
4. yali came tp find me today... yuan lai... we both got very WAA timetables.. ORZ
5. and... WAT THE BLOODY HELL!?!!!!! THEY ARE STILL IN SIA!!!! THEY MUZ BE BLOODY DAMM FARKING RICH RICH RICH RICH RICH.... NO TALENTS NO LOOKS NO X-FACTOR.... more importantly.... DUN EVEN KNOW HOW TO SING... ONLY KNOW HOW TO SCREAM AND SCREAM... KAOZ EHS.... WANNA DO TAT GO KTV LAH.
*looks at heaven*
天理何在?!

这是我的二次看见他哭。

I don't ever wish to see it again... it really did break my heart. first time I saw was becuz he was talking bout his grandma... juz now... was the second time...

It totally breaked my heart.

It did.

我真是个倔强的小孩。

说不听的。

不小心看到了他们。是高雄场的知足常乐。是借问众神明。对的，没错。

对啦。

玛莎没在弹Bass,好用力的唱着和音。
谚明也坐到了前面来唱着和音。
怪兽看起来好像五天没睡了。
石头入神到好用力的飙着吉他。
阿信好像是穿着麦来乱的那件衣服是吗?

好五月天。

对不起，我又High了。

我也知道。世界不会因此停止转动。时间不会因此而停止流走。

那又怎样?

ok. im juz trying out my lousy chinese... haiz~ mentally and physically tired. erms... happy belate bdae to yali first, dunnoe if she can see tis... sorry for makin her pei me to listen to such... erms... thing on her birthday. and... today me n sufen went to sing K... erms... as per usual... erms... nt like usual. beside the HUGE K-ing session i had on 1may, i like so donkey yrs dint go K liaoz~ mayday? erms... hw can b no mayday lehs? hahaha... but i avoided them quite well... actually i oni sang like, 5? actually... it was ai qing de mo yang. haha... even thou they looked like... erms... super geeky in the MV... but has brought the urge of digging all the 1st album mv come out and watch... watch the MAYDAY in 1999... see hw much they hav changed... erms... I SHALL STOP HERE. I DONT WANNA CONTINUE ANYMORE BOUT.... them...
anyway, my sec friends... WHERE ARE ALL OF YOUR!!! haiz~ sufen n yali i got meet up. may... erms... she more like... erms.... May, i know u lah... sam... she nvr tok to me so... yah lah. as zy... haiz... MAPLE ing ing ing ing ing ing.... so freakin bei can... *bangs wall*

ok.

erms.

yah.

haiz.

YIKES. i gave up at the 3rd post. SO... i thought that calling "baby" is abit too over liaoz~ YIKES MAN...

小亲亲?!?

*rolls eyes until eyes cramp*.... i really is.... erms.... ORZ.... to think i made up my mind and prepared my heart for it... yet i cant tahan.... *runs to puke* if u still dun understand wat im toking about.. juz tat i went to read THE foum... more gao xiao is... i know there are some ppl there who writes really good stuff... like... erms.... 1% out of the whole bunch... YIKES. i really ORZ him for being able to tahan so much of this kind of things... ppl are more concered about if he read about them tellin him 亲亲 and yet the bunch of another perverted fans back here are so damm worried about... and wasting so many brain cells on bout wat he was trying to say... or wat their music tryin to do to us... WAA. everyone's BRAIN really work DIFFERENTLY.

im juz tokin rubbish to cover what im feeling. haha. wat a funny and idiot and stupid and...

i want to sleep.

good night.

this is pricless sia~:

王仁甫分析?
yurong的成分：
跟王仁甫?生性行?：37.27%
屁股像王仁甫：33.28%
你的桌面是王仁甫?照：22.05%
你的好朋友像王仁甫：4.49%
你舔王仁甫胯下：2.00%
你像王仁甫：0.89%

HAHAHAHAHA!!!..... ORZ

?喊:我?五月天
Yurong的成分：
和?莎??斯的成份:：39.17%
?阿信死不肯??的成份:：34.17%
代替冠佑成?鼓神的成份:：22.05%
?成怪?徒弟的成份:：4.49%
??莎自??你MSN的成份:：0.12%

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HAHAHA.... i shall go home and try this in chinese again. MUAUAHAHAHA....

i have a bad feeling.
about something.
BIG.

好想说，
这是什?烂五月啊?!

在2006年的5月的的10天。
陈信宏竟然输了。
败给了一个人。
他叫
张阿为。

而且是惨败。

我哭了。

那个看了陈先生的报导，看了温团长的留言，听了那么多事，经历了什?风雨，都只是红了眼眶却还没流下眼泪的我。竟然在五月的的十天让我。。。忍不住了。

空白了。
停了。

连心碎的声音都听不见。因为灵魂被吓得偷跑了。

被枪指着要你马上长大的感觉。
过瘾吗?
我没那么变态想尝试。

是人类就绝对不会知足
会知足就不是人类

我
不反对也不认同
因为我没有资格

朋友都叫我别想那么多。如果有那么容易的话，也许我今天喜欢的就不是五月天了。
就算不在一起，他写出来的词还是一样的好。
光读是感觉不出分别的。

我也不知道我是在这里解释给谁读

算了。

我是憨人!!

he really looks damm tired. ok. at least, to me... am i dissappointed? erm... err.... erms.... yes? no? i dont know? alot of question marks...

it's NOT very a BIG deal right? whether what he does or not since... we have so many albums liaoz~ and... their music to acc us... at least they met and and done that, formed a band, made some music which touched so many... this the most one can do in a lifetime... before continue on our own journey...

[ignore that juz im juz trying to pursuade myself...]

the road of life is long and winding... tought with rough winds and weather... dont hold on tight enuf and you'll b blown far far away and u'll get hurt.... deeply... if you lost something you believe hard enuf in.

humans, humans.

lying to myself all the time can make me so darn happy. even thou it's all damm fake and i know it deep down yet im still living in this pack of lies... one said not to hold on too tightly cuz the one getting hurt wld oni be urself. i once said that to another but no one ever said that to me before.

by the way... thanks maybelline. for wat you told me yest nite. at last... got someone saying the same things back in my face... but i still refuse to wake up. i dont believe that the more pain it gets, the harder i fall, the more i'll learnt... cuz... i'll always forget.... and keep on forgetiing... and forget... and complain and complain and complain for dunnoe what the hell about... and keep talking rubbish till when i really want to say something everybody juz treats it as rubbish... like the little boy who called wolf... in the end no wolf oso becum got wolf... got wolf also like no wolf...

i keep saying if i dont hold on i got nothing to hold on liaoz~ but everyone's telling me what's the point of holding on? u get nothing in the end. NOTHING... but y the fark im still holdin on damm tight. HA.

我不能了解。
也不想了解。

p.s. SHIT... izzit juz me or wat? like... erms... everyone sinking into depression.... ='(

休息是为了走更长远的路
还是
走更长远的路是为了要休息?

现在的快乐是因为是来弥补受过的伤害
还是
受伤是为了享受过后的甜蜜?

我是憨人。
我承?我是就?了。分不清是非???分不清白天夜晚。突然想到了有人??的?一句:

空?的灵魂?漂泊的肉?。

我的心碎能????。

我???下地?吧~

如果那么简单就能忘了，如果我说了后悔，如果，如果。。。但一切已经太迟了。发生了就再也挽回不了。或许是我太天真了。好吧，就让我继续搞自闭。反正我都已经习惯了。

没尝试过都会感到好奇。特别珍惜。对啦。一切都是废话。

因为是我。所以都是废话。

last week tis time i was in hk.

ALAMAK!!! time is passing TOO TOO TOO FAST!!!

today... finally had the chance to sleep until natural wake up... was damm SONG lors!

mayday wasnt nomiated for the TGM awards tis yr... ok lah... hope sodagreen or wonfu will win!!! =) better than nothing rite~ erms... and saw the news w them VS emil chau... erms... they juz look plain, super super tired... or was it juz me? i tink it was juz me lars. ok....

for hk. ate alot (no need to say for sure). went alot of places (yah but no disney land. dun even hav enuf time to shop arhs! dun even say mayday...we dint even go chase them. on purpose.)

[cut off for a while, while needin to explain to maybelline wat is THE DOG collection... i found this:

super CUTE!!!! =x]

hahahaha.... at hk i bought... erms... no shoes, no ear rings.
1 NORMAL sling bag
7 tee shirts
one pants [gv mummy de]
THE DOG handphone keychains [gv sam they all de]
1 bottle dan zu qi shui [w DOREAMON on it]
biscuits from macau.
1 reddish jacket frm macau.
2 belts.
pens, chop, stickers, sweets [frm sogo].
winne the pooh marshmellow [frm watsons]
lao puo ping [@ airport for grandma]

was doin final unpacking today... erms... the dan zu qi shui was the most WAA of all... hahaha... wrapped it w towel and carry all the way frm hk... i muz hav been damm bo liaoz~ mei ban fa.... w limited budget... cant buy lots also... hk really is pradise for shopping... got chance muz go there... and the food... waa... the standard is REALLY THERE... no matter where u go, the food wunt b too awful de... all very nice... all the milk tea... hahahaha.... and curry yu dan... porridge at midnite, STEAMBOAT was the most... WAAAAAAAA of all man! hahaha.... but missed the feeling of CNY when at grandma hse, everyone all sit dw together and eat...

macau tower


habour plaza metropolis


my impression of hk:


juz found out that the ?你自由，?你自由!! thingy came frm FIND NO HOME... hahaha.... Orz, Orz... hahahaha.... i need to go get my beauty sleep liaoz! =) more photos comin up soon...

people who say they dare not dream cuz reality is too real tend to dream much much more than they show they wld be... i dream alot. about alot of people. when someone becums more important in your life, ur expectation of them tends to get higher... expects them to know and understand n tolerate more... want them to understand n know n tolerate more... even till it's abit too very much absurd...

ok

bout hk. erms... concert? cuz i juz read pr's post on hk fh... erms... found quite alot of pics. actually, the memory of the whole concert wasnt very clear... i juz know very very high... alot of details juz melted away with the seconds and rain... i juz know i was very high, gave it all i could... cuz... last time.. there wunt be a second HK FH @ 1MAY2006... so... maidou was super cute... hahaha.... the way mayday hu dong between each other is realy cool. like between songs, solos, singing, the way they look at each other... monster look at stone, ashin look at ym... masa look down... each of them when they look at the audience... like capture everyone's mu guang at them totally... =p
i tink the solo parts are really nt as much as SG FH... juz i rem the whole sg fh i was constantly WAA ing over their solos... hehehehe... but oso damm cool larhs. MASA.... hahahha.... they very bu gei him face lehs... when he solo til crazy they playin behind w the drums... but super high... keep jumping n jumpin... the rate of me jumpin was twice or thrice higher than SG FH... and i did alot of stuff which i dint do at SG FH... cuz at that time i tot was the oni concert i'll go to... so i wanted to see everything clearly... and cry enuf... kekeke.... be touched enough. but there's a 2nd chance called HK FH.... where i did wat i could nt at the singapore one. =p
mayday is an addiction... i RAISE UP HAND and agree... that im addicted to it. juz now i juz went and watch the FH preview VCD.... haiz~ be touched again n again... no matter how they are in real life, the music they do never fails to give hope and pass messages... so what about the reallity? leave it alone for a while lars...
when everyone was very very vigrously singing along to the ashin's zhi zu, i turned around and looked at the crowd behind... of cuz tis pic nt i take de lars. credits to whoever who took it. ashin took a photo of everyone under bright lights... the dark one wunt lose out much either... =)

ZHOU HUA JIAN!!!

Mai Dou!!

stone and monster

my fav set of clothes for FH!! the white and gold series.


qi zhen VS ashin [when she was singin the ji ta shou, super cool when monster n stone leaned into her mike and sang, WO AI NI!~]


yanming! but.... behind got shijie!! =D

erms... and hor~ juz wanna say something mayday related. i juz saw the news on ym... erm... when he was shanghai he go and hav dinner w another lady that thingy. u know hor.... PAITUO.... he wunt do that lars! [ok, it's juz stating the obvious...] u know hor~ that day i saw him holding wang xing zhi's bag lo~ SO sweet~ kekeke.... i siao liaoz~ =x

im BACK.

and im freakin tired.
and i forget to take the key frm ah deng. so now my luguage is locked and I CANT OPEN IT.
and hk was so exciting.
and we were stalked.
and we saw them... erm.... yah... kekeke....
and the special guests were darn cute!!
and i need to go sch at 8am later [fark~]
and i haven take a bath yet
and hk's food was like WOA
and....

i dunnoe wat to say liaos.

gong lang. sun wu kong. ren sheng hai hai. zong jie gu dan. boon sor chia. ci xiong tong ti. ai qing wan sui. hosee. wan ai di qiu ren. lian ai ing. heng xin de heng xing. qing gong. yong bao. jue jiang. wen rou. yao gun ben shi. xing tiong bo bak lang. kio wa teh yi mia. yan wei die. du shen. xiao hu shi. ga chia.

woa. im amazed... got so many?

i juz read monster's mgs on... erm... Imayday.... shit... i feel like CRYING! kick him~


每 一 次 的 焦 ? ? ?
每 一 次 的 ? 心 演 奏
每 一 次 的 用 力 歌 唱
每 一 次 的 尖 叫 ? 喊
每 一 次 的 ? 容 哭 泣

pms strikes... and is caused by him. =p

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