holidays feel so darn good... hahahah... everybody who's workin reads this surely will kill me arh... but... getting to sleep to such a late hour.. really is blessed... hahaha...

today zy came my hse. to use my com to change her blog skin. no. we dint tok. much. as for fri's outing, my report here is: junkai is too busy. lili dint reply. liping dint cfm with me. zy no $$ so she wants to go skating instead of goin mind's. yali attachment ends at 4 so she's come after that. i'l be meeting sam bout 2pm. maybelline? needs to work so cant make it.

as to the above. wat do you feel?

i... for the first time juz accepted everything calmly bah... dont want to argue. dont want to ask why. dont want to beg for ppl to come... everything has turned out as expected. so... i juz accept it as the way it is... admited defeat? yah... i admited defeat liaox.

today... i wondered again how much change something can bring to a person. i remember that adults alway say, beware of strangers... but how many of us really did that arh? am i quick to judge? im goin to defend myself by saying.. actually the stuf i can accept is quite a big range... but when comes to things i cant... den i cant lo...

but anyway.. thanks for so trusting me. people always dont know what they have did to make others feel so touched... i really felt very touched at that very moment. i rem seein g write on her blog... xiang feng hen wan... maybe we met each other late... but not too late... at last we met rite? we still hav alot of time ahead of us... to be crazy... to dream... to believe... hahaha... lucky i met all of ur in my life~ thanks =)

hahaha... Green apple spotted at home! in conjunction to the theme of Happy.BIRTH.Day...

a photo a day.. err... makes u thinking all day?

hahaha... ok. i know im juz being lame. cuz... EXAMS ARE OVER! something to be high bout hor? even thou some ppl nt yet lah... hehehe... today spent at ochard with shuhui. went. lido to eat n admire the "view" and went far east to walk walk. bought... mascara... hahaha... for the fun of it... and... did a very pervertic thingy again. i went to kino again to look at the 2 shelves-ful of books! ok! im bein very very bo liaox... and wanted to show shuhui the book mah. goin for holis liaox dunnoe when will meet up agian. cuz... everybody will be MIA-ing for the next month bah? work work n work. den went to teka mall to buy stuff at the seng siong... with zy. cuz tonite me at hm eating steamboat. nice sia! all buy the stuff i wan to eat de... hahaha... but so darn heavy de...
yummy yummy

crabmeat fried with abit of garlic. nice!

as for the mayday-ed event today:


http://dev.im.tv/vlog/personal.asp?memid=238874

as evidence to which why i say they were bi... hahahaha.... n juz now when was watchin the TVBS yu le xin wen. today was ah ya n nie yun's last day to host.... and got videos for them from ppl all arounds, wishes n good lucks to ah ya esp cuz she goin england to study. one was from mayday. YEP! u dint read wrongly. mayday as in, the full five guys, yanming, masa, guai shou, ashin n stone [nt RocK hor~] frm left to right. hahaha... so farnie! at first was ashin telling ah ya nt to go aboard n study... y muz leave lehs? then the others added in to tell her not to go cuz they'll miss her... and... ashin said that ah ya was intelligent n beuatiful enuf liaox no need to aboard... and pass to ym say that time.. hahaha... he said as his neighbour he wished her all the best. the actual whole thingy i 4gt liaox... but i remember that ashin said, 送你一首歌: den he started sinign the chua bing jing xing qu... hahahaha.... so farnie!! how long has we never seen them togehther liaox? 5 together? after m'sia concert? from jan til not... not counting CNY shows which has been prerecorded... so long... hahaha... miss them...

*added on*
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Ashin really was different durin the autograph session (as pic shown above) i understand liaox.... u see his expression n his tone is SO diff when he's alone... like at last laugh from the bottom of his heart.. and when he put his head on guai shou's shoulder... really!!! hahahaha!!!can help but burst into laughter again... and remember shi jie askin them both to kiss, kiss, kiss... hahaha.. shi jie really does has the potential to b a real good host. maybe now the yu le xing wen can ask him to host since ah ya n nie yun's both gone? hahahha....
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to me... i think.. suddenly felt they are more matured liaox. in other words, old liaox lah. but... so what? 三十岁的五月天就不是五月天了吗? i like how ashin answered that time durin jin ye hao bu hao... i went to dig out the old videos i've took durin nov2004's SDHZ autograph session cum mini concert... at Alive concert, at concerts by the bay... i think... the way they speak changed. the way they stand, how they compose themselves... when i heard my voice thru the video.. i realized i hav oso changed liaox... cuz... from a chattering me tokin nonsense non-stop behind the DV... i still tok rubbish now. but i know when to say what... more... and when to shut up more... esp when they are stepping out of the gate. can u imagine? Stone's trolley was stuck TWICE at the gate there lo! twice he came out. both times he kenna stuck... and... heard again: huang niu ni zhen de hao shuai!!! hahahahaha!!! so many fun things again... saw Ashin touchin his nose trying to hide his laughter... hahahaha...

im growing up too =)

how to love youself more? to be able to love urself more you muz learn to love yourselve first. am i selfish? yes im certainly am. i want to be happy. i want to savour all the differnet types of emotions while i can still have the chance to do so. i love myself? i definately do.. and i believe i can continue loving myself more than anything.

im very selfish.

today is the first time i want myself to be so selfish that i forget bout concerin this person. how to be happy? u ask somebody how to love urself? cuz the person seems to love herself very much? u know how it sounds to me? it sounds that... u are accusing the person of being too selfish.

when there's a problem. there's a problem.

saying "its alright" will NOT change anyting de.

i do admit... im someone who dont like the feeling of nt being able to be sure that somebody close to be is not happy. but.

wat the fark. i 4gt wat to write. sam arh! me oso the same!! die liaox!

i said oreadi mah!

they surely is bi...

hahaha... as to the comment again, is refer to pr's blog... hahaha... even thou mugging... take a break now. have added all my md stuff into one playlist.. then now is listenin to some 今夜好不好... was a radio program hosted by them before the army thingy... haha... everybody... has this youth period... when u can high. happy. do all the silly things which ppl will forgive you for... so farnie...

the world u want to change and conquor... will not change that fast... its ok to take a break and leave for a while... isnt it? we need to lose something before we can cherish it more and... hold it closer to heart...

will you wait for me if so?

you will bah? wunt u?

juz now was msn-ing with one of my friends. he.. haiz... even with ppl not very close.. i try to tell everybody that.. believe in urself. its the very least you can do. if even if you dont believe it will happens.. the chances of it happening will be more less than zero lo!

read this: [ http://www.streetvoice.com.tw/taik/ ] its a concert actually... hahaha... but on forum the title was "T.K.ROCK" hahahaha!!! TK rock sumore! his own brand arh? hahahaha.... sorry arh... after camp very sensetive to "TK"... hahahaha....

found another body who listens to mayday oso! i dont know.. juz glad that ppl do hear what they really are singing... cuz. when we were tokin bout their music. sun wu kong there's this line:
我从不怕爱错,就怕没爱没爱过
sun wu kong, all noise and no music n substance? ha. think again.

tokin bout lyrics. the book is lyin beside me now. sianx... hav not read til the end yet. mostly its juz lyrics oni mah! haiz... wasnt that that much which all of us has expected. except for the 序 he wrote himself... thats... so... him... hahaha... u know all the pattern of stuff he write. of wat i better dun say if not ppl who have not read will kill me.. hahaha...

the orginal version of 爱情万岁 :
就让我穿过你的内衣和你的身体
rather than:
就让我穿过你的外衣到你的内衣

his brain.. dunnoe is got wat inside de...

p.s. i juz realized... no mai lai luan lyrics?
got. she chi pin. ji mo xing qiu. wu zhuang. an apple. zuo jian. zong jie gu dan. jiu hao qiu. reomo n juliet. first day. chuang. ai qing de mo yang. ji mo shang ren tang kou. ga chia. du shen. hou niao. dong hai xiao wang zi. ai qing wan sui. ci xiong tong ti. luan shi fu sheng. lian ai i-n-g. forever, forever. peter n mary. sheng huo. jue jiang. nian hua. wen rou. yu mian. wo men (shi shi ke ke). me. sheng dan ye jing hun. qing gong. la la la. zai zhe yi miao. wang zi mian. sun wu kong. chao ren. ren sheng hai hai. gong lang. xian yu. xiao hu shi. John Lennon. zhi zu. yong bao. feng kuang shi jie. er wo zhi dao. yi wai de lu ke. buddha knows. boon sor chia. hua. hui huo ai ren de nai xing. heng xing de heng xin. come back. fan er. ya guan. zai mei bian. ming bai. shi guang ji. chun zhen. cai hong. si lu. yan wei die. beautiful. ting bu dao. good night earthing. rang wo zhao gu ni. sheng ming zhong you yi zong jue dui.

Happy.Birth.Day.

waa.. so many songs ar... yupz... i very bo liaox... but... so many poems lehs... at least... its poems which i understand. =)

finally got it done! tada! [credits to imayday n imageShack]
this was the photo that hei ren said he was delicious enuf to eat... yikes...

actually wanted to post this yest. but really cant tahan so went to slp first... after taking out the qiang wei zhi lian to watch abit first... sorry lah... cannot tahan... after retelling zy the plot gets me so darn high. kui should HAVE BEEN with bai he lo! [in simple normal lang it means that i think that zheng yuan chang should have been togehter with ella SHE instead of that huang zhi wei aka jin] cows... they jing ran can be sister n bro! cows... i was tellin sufen that day that. even now after qiang wei zhi lian... when i see zheng yuan chang on TV... i still will think is kui [han kui, which is the name in dar qiang wei zhi lian] even when i was watchin the er zhuo ju zhi wen... i was like "kui! how can u like this?!" hahaha... even thou inside the EZJZW his name was zhi shu..... hahahaha... i think i'll also fall in love with a person like kui bah? rather than jin... mmm... hahaha... didnt watch QWZL? u'll regret it man! it got the best plot i'v ever seen in all so called idol drama... if u dint watch QWZL... u'll regret man! can cry until like siaox lo!!!

yest toked with zy again. n was now still is quite pissed off with her. OKIES! IM SO DARN FARKING PISSED OFF AT HER LAH! not juz "quite"... i admit! cows!

today.... is such a wonderful day juz...
i got my Happy.BIRTH.Day!!!

and, as usual toked alot.. from amk mac to chomp chomp to the mac there... tokin non-stop... mayday... cameras... mayday... cai kang yong... mayday... mayday... and mayday... hahahaha....

met jingzhen at the bus stop... took 133 there... i gave jingzhen the CDs i burnt for her... den... showed her the CD "Touch Together, the music of gay n lesbians part2" and we were listening on bus... what we have concluded that.. there is a very VERY high possibility that the tou lou inside was sang by him... mayb juz that the lyrics book print wrongly? but.. when we reached amk... i turned and saw spotlite... hahaha... on the same bus! she heard us tokin bout the ashin n tou lou n stuff and concluded that we were mayday fans... hahaha... so darn funny... and today showed that mr.Ashin really is THE rain boy man... we today juz got off the bus. was taking the books out of the box at the road junction to help spotlite lessen the load mah... suddenly it started raining lo! im not exaggerating lo! really! sumore the sun was still up and shinning lo! out of a sudden it started rainin! hahahaha... really is 100% rain boy... den.. we reached amk mac. saw pr. den we help spotlite "set up stall" to let the whole world... nt the whole world sorry... hehehe... is let those ppl who come take book know she is spotlite.

spotlite's zhao pai


den we juz toked at amk mac lo...

was quite fun to see so many diff ppl from the forum in real life. saw the chuang shuo zong de Euphoria.... n other ppl... aiyah... got alot lah. oh yar. saw lee ping oso. our forum leeping lah. nt the pingz at 4G. den we toked alot.. hahaha... and laughed alot. bout his fingers... bout popcorn... bout... how pr was too dao... hahahaha... bout masa... bout... alot of stuff. after all the amk mac..
empty box! books sold!

waitin for bus

mayday!!!

we migrated to chomp chomp at serangoon. and continued there... but with the food lah. super funny when we started the game bout needin to tok with sentences with mayday songs titles n lyrics.. hahaha... wo men, jin duo xia, bie re wo, ok lah, wen rou, sun wu kong... ok... i admit we were abit lame.. hahaha... but who ask out idol oso quite the same lehs... den we migrated to mac again... hahaha....


the most impt thingy today: cash box!

we all. minus ketchphy who went for lesson. hahaha....

got bus 101 at amk interchange lehs!!!
*okies.. i know i high for nthin...*

shall not talk about things which has not been finalized to prevent myself from gettin high. err... i hav asked. her mood was ok... she said she can check out for "us"... DOES IT MEAN IM OK?! to... err... get on with my plan?

AM I?!?

shards... will not think bout it. cows... hav deicded to juz go for agency to look for a very stable n got good pay temp job. i need $$$! why cant juz $$$ fall from the sky... okies... i know... juz god meant for us to earn it ourselves. not to take anyting for granted.

side track:
anybody heard of DJ ozima? i dunnoe is his name spelt like this... but seeing him take off his pants on taiwan LIVE tv really got me intrested in him. hahaha... he did a cover for the very famous "tuo diao"... its called "bounce with me"... as compared to alex du... he considered very tame liaox... hahahaha...

and oh yar.
i dare not go read Happy.BIRTH.Day now... very scared lehs... scared of bein dissappointed... haiz.... oh yar.. the popcorn tree eatin pic is really... SO NICE LO! hahaha... very A meh? he dint even stick out his tongue leh =P

more into exam mood, more geared up to do mirrors on stuff... which = more on forum these days. yar... i do check the forum everytime i get on the net... but dont d/l as hiong as now... mayb cuz partly becuz of him? dunnoe leh.... gets me so into the mood.

today's paper sucked totally... think i'll be back for all the sub papers... choy!~ long time never feel the feeling of do exam paper do until want to vomit and feel very sick. or izzit juz the darn weather?

bought the november's choppin today. at last hor... goin start on it 2mr. and... when down to kino.. especially to see the whole rows of blue books... Gan Dong ING!!! hahaha... browsed abit at the counter... mmm... pics? ok lah... Ashin very shuai? yep.. at some angles oni lah... he not the zheng yuan chang type or neither he is the mu chun tuo zai type... but he looks good recently... today unbuttoned his shirt liaox. At last~ not hot de meh? oh yar... and he looks slimmer [cuz too stressed up on promo?] and... HE SHAVED! muahahahahaha.... *imagine all readers rolling their eyes* hehehehe.... qi dai... next week hope he'l b up on wan yu again... hehehe... hope what shan wei ren fu said will b true bah. and i saw his pic on dunnoe which web he on kang xi leh... with fang wen shan... dunnoe true or not...

that day tokin with jing zhen.... she said 1st April... taiwan... got concert... mayday, and WU BAI lehs!!! cows!!! i wanna go see lehs!!! cows cows cows... think it's the only i can go see... if mr.Ashin says the HK FH is durin may... cows.... ARHZ!!!! %^*&#$%^#$@!@#

oh yar... did i mention that juz now when i saw him on the azio program... dong feng liu xing feng... is hosted by this new gal model host called coco... and... did i mention that i will turn on the evil mouth on people who dont do their homework before they interview others? cows... she even ask Ashin was chun jiao n zhi ming his classmates! Ashin even asked her back [very pai seh-ly] eh? u juz come back from aboard arh? reminded by that time jack neo called mr.Ashin the band leader of mayday....

Ashin, aka chen shin hong, is juz the lead vocalist.
He is NOT the band leader lah!
Guai Shou [aka monster aka wen shang yi] den is lah~

been thinkin so darn much these days... hahaha... and juz now saw him [again] and he said... some stuff again. hahaha... im again back thinking... sometimes its juz like they got xing dian gan ying hor? they always seem to know what we are worried about.... what we are anxious about... and choose the weirdest... ok... maybe not the weridest, but surely will put it in someway to let us know that... hey... believe in us. we're fine... maybe not terrifically great... but we're OK with what we are going now... and we are still strong...

Mayday might break up. But always hearing or seeing them makes me believe that its not in the near future. but even if its' so... im going believe that im gonna live through it.

maybe we're juz dreaming? yups... you may say im a dreamer... but im not the only one. in the past i always used to feel lonely... even when you are in a bunch of friends... there's always moments you suddenly stop n realize you're alone... suddenly... i used to think that i'll be alone. cuz everytime when i read bout them saying, "ask your friends and family along to our concerts! sing with us! high with us!" i had always thought that "HA! impossible... juz see... around me? got who really will go and HIGH with you de?" but... i was wrong... i have friends. alot of friends around me to accompany me. im not... and will not be alone and lonely...

when i see sometimes people around me being depressed... i know... cuz sometimes im in the same mood oso... but when it gets too much over... come on... the world is not grey at all times. at other times... there are so many other colors for you to share your joy with... red, green, orange, blue, yellow, and so many more...

there is still another big world out there which we have not seen.

war.
death.
terror.

and

Love.
Life.
Happiness.

over-HIGHed tonite.

the Peacemaker

you chose BX - your Enneagram type is NINE.

"I am at peace"

Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me

• If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.
  
• I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advatage of this.
  
• Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
  
• Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
  
• Ask me questions to help me get clear.
  
• Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
  
• Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
  
• I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
  
• Let me know you like what I've done or said.
  
• Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a Nine

• being nonjudgmental and accepting
  
• caring for and being concerned about others
  
• being able to relax and have a good time
  
• knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around
  
• my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator
  
• my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now
  
• being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe
  

What's Hard About Being a Nine

• being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
  
• being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
  
• being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
  
• being confused about what I really want
  
• caring too much about what others will think of me
  
• not being listened to or taken seriously

Nines as Children Often

• feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
  
• tune out a lot, especially when others argue
  
• are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves
  

Nines as Parents

• are supportive, kind, and warm
  
• are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective
  
  
  

okies... i was the same type as sam...

The Window Shopper Random Gentle Love Dreamer (RGLDf) Loving, hopeful, open. Likely to carry on an romance from afar. You are The Window Shopper. You take love as opportunities come, which can lead to a high-anxiety, but high-flying romantic life. You're a genuinely sweet person, not saccharine at all, so it's likely that the relationships you have had and will have will be happy ones. You've had a fair amount of love experience for your age, and there'll be much more to come. Your exact opposite: The Stiletto Deliberate Brutal Sex Master Part of why we know this is that, of all female types, you are the most prone to sudden, ferocious crushes. Your results indicate that you're especially capable of obsessing over a guy you just met. Obviously, passion like this makes for an intense existence. It can also make for soul-destroying letdowns. Your ideal match is someone who'll love you back with equal fire, and someone you've grown to love slowly. A self-involved or pessimistic man is especially bad. Though you're drawn to them, avoid artists at all costs. BEWARE: The Hornivore CONSIDER: The Gentleman, The Loverboy, The Boy Next Door Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.

12.26pm
juz now when I was typing the words on the front page. Cuz no music. I put in my tim machine’s CD. Its juz a coincidence. The disc was on my table. Nearest to me. My media player is always on shuffle mode. Who knows? The first music I heard through my headphone was Time Machine. The sounds of turing a music box… you know when did this song first got to me? When I was about to graduate from secondary school. It was in my autograph book, I still remembered.

What a coincidence.

At this time I could not stand it anymore. I need to get SOMEBODY to talk to. Even its talking about the weather. I called somebody. Cuz on MSN I don’t think anyone would want to talk to me. I called. Nobody answered. The phone rang for 26 seconds before I hung up.

Maybe I should go buy 4D tomorrow.

Juz now heard his interview on radio.
Cows.
Im again mesmerized by him.
Hehehehe… sometimes I wonder are we putting too much focus on him and him alone? He’s not the first to leave the other four to do stuff. Masa did movies pei yue before. Monster and stone oso did the music stuff for some movies before. Until HiM. Made such a big WoOoOo-hAHhahahahHhaha when he came out. sometimes i really bu gan yuan... tok bout this another day. have something much more important to say

今天，长大了好多。

想要感受那种一瞬间长大好多的感觉吗 ?

那感觉并不好受。
相信我。

拿他的一句话来说

就好像在跟灵魂作战。。。一样。

来到这世界的人。到底有舍么意义?
始终，
留不下舍么，
也带不走舍么。

她并不知道。坐在她身边的我突然有那么多的感触。

雌雄同体
去唤醒体内的另一个灵魂。

你这几天，有几次是真心的对别人笑了 ?

Who are we, to have the dreams to fight against the world?

what i have juz said... happened but is now in a mess cuz when it happened i was too destressed to record it all down. even though i hate growing up... sometimes i really do hate listening to mayday. as if you are being forced to grow up and understand that very instant.

[时光机]
词/曲。阿信
编曲。周恒毅，五月天

那阳光 碎裂在熟悉场景 好安静
一个人 能背多少的往事 真不轻
谁的笑 谁的温暖的手心 我着迷
伤痕好像都变成了曾经

全剧终 看见满场空座椅 灯亮起
这故事 好像真实又像虚幻的情景
只是那 好不容易被说服的自己
借口又顶不住懊恼的侵袭

好后悔 好伤心 想重来 行不行
再一次 我就不会走向这样的结局
好后悔 好伤心 谁把我 放回去
我愿意 付出所有来换一个时光机
对不起 独自回荡在空气 没人听
最后又是孤单到天明

真的痛 总是来得很轻盈 没声音
从背后 慢慢缓缓抱着我 就像你
你和我 还有很多的地方 还没去
为何留我荒唐的坐在这里

好后悔 好伤心 想重来 行不行
再一次 我就不会走向这样的结局
好后悔 好伤心 谁把我 放回去
我愿意 付出所有来换一个时光机
对不起 独自回荡在空气没人听
最后又是孤单到天明
最后又是孤单到天明

Im back to blog. even thou me no mood to study... suddenly these few days like cant find the time to blog... mmm...

as for my life.
Exams ING.
im in one of my weird moods la.

People change. mmm... yes. who wunt change de. dunnoe leh... mayb everyone's been looking at the very darker side of life recently. i would be ok with it... but it turns out that recently i have turned back on a very cheerful view on life... hehehehe.... thanks to them.

休息是为了走更长远的路?

我不赞成。

为何不说是,

走更长远的路是为了要休息?

还有。

做专辑是为了庆功宴啊!

look on the bright side on life people. alot of stuff are not that heavy as u seem them to be. sometimes we tend to take on too much tasks on ourselves and deem it as our most important reponsibilites... but how much in such times it really is?

maybe you are not tired yet. u think so isnt it?

but i think you are.

take a rest bah! and take the chance also to look around u to check out what have u missed out. i bet u missed alot.

as to them:
yest's campus superstar. dont b mistaken. i dint watch the superstar thingy. i dint watch the super host thingy. i dint watch star idol either. [i oni paid attention to the CF at first cuz my friend was inside] campus superstar. i noticed cuz... hey my junior IS inside k? and sumore we all seniors acutally dint got high hopes on him either. at the 1st few rounds. but when u see him kenna bullied for no reason [or mayb cuz we arent a famous sch] we all stood up for him. anyway he's cute also mah. back to the topic. samuel? at first caught my eye cuz i felt that he looked like qing feng, the lead vocalist for soda green aka su da lu... and the way he smiles i like. and yest. 3 md songs! feng kuang shi jie. lian ai ING. sun wu kong. okies... we shld b happy that md songs got a chance to be aired on national TV [as said by pr] i suddenly realized that actually sun wu kong sounds very nice w/o the vocalist. hehehehe... kala version. ppl who sings K with me knows i hav a werid habit. i like to juz hear the songs on the kala version... w/o the vocalist voice. PAITUO. this happened before FIRST DAY came out okies....
2nd. saw the mayday special one MTV ch... its juz the kao hsiong zhi zu chang yue. suddenly felt long time never see them perf. as in mayday, 5 ppl. and his hands are acutally quite nice. really. when u see the way he holds the mike. i think one of his trademark is that the expression when he sings. i think when u sing, ur actions n expressions do affect the atmosphere. if the vocalist oso not high... u where got mood to high leh?
his promo is ON now... up on all shows n radio... guess will be seeing alot of him these few days... mmmm.... hehehe.... the most lazy one now has to ping ming for his book while others get to rest... its his good fortune orh! to create time n chance for rest for others... hehehehe....

heard darn alot of things recently.
not bout mayday de.
bout my DEAR friends.

HEY U READIN MY BLOG DE.
IF YOU THINK IM TALKING ABOUT YOU.
DONT GUESS.
COME AND ASK ME!
DONT ACT AS IF YOU KNOW EVERYTHING CUZ
IT MITE NOT EVEN BE YOU.

dont think too much.

p.s. forgot to add. can check out the CATWALK webby that i have linked~

CUTE rite?

cuz i really do have nothing better to do.

to put it in a nice way.

[im restless n im not in the mood]

to put it in a ugly way.

[i dont wan to study]

LONG BIA-Z!!!
bangs wall...
bangs wall...
bangs wall...

i hate myself.

juz saw on azio mr.Ashin's interview.

KAO!!! HE'S NOT BI?!

hahahahaha..... he said he liked writing weird songs like ga chia n ci xiong tong ti. i do hav to agree with him. when his book is out. it'll bound to dissappoint ALOT of us.... cuz there'll b the TRUE stories behind his lyrics... mayb is not as exciting as what we hav imagined. we do imagine too much... hahahaha.... watever that is....

so... he's now all full force out on promo... guess will b catching alot of him on TV n radio n stuff these few days....

blog later...

ASHIN IS NOT BI-SEXUAL ARHZ!!!!!
GREAT GREAT GREAT disappointment...

or mayb he really is... he's juz hiding it... hehehehe....

happy.BIRTH.day

when u want to be happy. nothing can make u unhappy.

u know y when i saw this i was bursting out with laughter non-stop in front of the tv to myself?

拜托 !
陈信宏那么懒。。。哪会可能会想要单飞!

哪会有可能 !


记得

如果你想要开心
不管是天要塌了
都阻挡不了你的决心

因为我们都是倔强的孩子

不是吗?

http://public.fotki.com/FantasyYR/v_day/

valentine's day photos up

n oso:
http://blog.yam.com/haruharu/bc45478a.wmv

can open in ur WMA player... lame-o jokes... hehehhehe....

yest.
went to meet my SDIC.... she's quite a nice person i agree. very nice person to tok with. but too bad... im very happy to hav another friend. but to go back n join soka events... i'll not. mayb im juz like zhi shu, who doesnt want my mother to decide my whole life. religion is something which u hav to believe whole heartedly. i dont wan to cuz still sometimes i disagree with things which they say. i juz wan to live my life the way i want it to be. i dont need it to follow any rules u set. who on earth u are to deicde what is correct n what is wrong. they is nothing absolute in life. u cant say that doing this is totally wrong n believing n preaching wat u do and say is totally correct. something i agree totally about religion is that... it teaches people to do good, and to apperciate things n people around u.

i dont rebel blindly.
neither would i follow blindly also.

there is nothing wrong about the beliefs. its the way people practice the beliefs which puts the religion to shame... u dont even do what u preach n u expect people to follow u blindly?

那 ， 我宁愿说

当你问信仰的是舍么

我会说

我信仰的是音乐

haiz~ sumore tok-ED to zy on the phone til 3am tis morning. cows. WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MY STUDY WEEK!? but... we tok til almost... or oreadi fight. sometimes u dont realize... but to people u care about, u tend to set expections of them too high. mayb u juz wan them to be better... but sometimes it hurts both u n the person.

i dont understand.

if i wasnt made for u
then y my heart is telling me otherwise.

作者 coba (做人? 做?也不??)
?? ???...
?? Sun Feb 12 07:36:27 2006


??的各位~
最近好像活?少,?面的??也少...
相?的,人?也下降不少...
又加上?度?低,寒流一?接一??...
相?的,板上也冷的可伶....
但是,想跟各位?... 不要...


---------
忘?我喔...
接下?阿信的???上??~


--
我本人...
就是我本?....
用巨?的角度?看呢...
就是士??~~

check out pls:
http://www.im.tv/VLOG/personal.asp?Memid=222507

or this moment is dedicated to someone from this very moment i will ORZ...

Shi Jie ORZ!!!

back to the unhappy things?
can i juz ask them to get lost? okies?
for now,
the moment
which i will shi jie ORZ.

hehehehehe.....

today went out with sufen. as for my lame-o ma n dad... dont wannna tok bout them. if they so happy den juz let them be. who knows how much they lurve wat they are feeling bah... even thou i sounds quite pervertic. cows. me and sufen walked alot of places today. Ochard... roses everywhere... no im nt sadded. NEXT YEAR... watch out... muahahahaha....

did i mention that my poly class totally rocks?

did i mention that y shi jie is so darn cute?

did i mention that i wanna kill some people, mr.Ashin included?

did i mention that i miss the whole darn camp that much?

did i mention that i missed my sec sch ppl so darn much?

did i mention that i need somebdy to hug once in a while?

did i mention that i found this darn cute webby on shi jie?

did i mention that i emailed somebody to ask her to shut up n nt insult herself anymore?

did i mention that the camp was so *toot* cuz of some people?

did i mention that exams are coming?

did i mention that the reason why i dont plan the future becuz i cant see any future 4 me 2 plan?
did i mention that i hate people being fake and totally NOT themselves?

did i mention that...

i dont know why am i so pissed off?

mmm....

Watever

happy Valentine's day again.

i now finally know the feeling of ku xiao bu de... sucks... first thing on forum today on valentine's day... pour cold water on my mood...

happy.BIRTH.day

inside there how many percent is himself?


HOW MANY?


now he is being compared to Jay Chou cuz he's goin to direct the MV~
if they hear happy.BIRTH.day are they goin to say he's copying mr.Chou? mmm...

wat the COWs...

im so darn easily affected.

COWs....

p.s. im not again mr.Jay Chou. really. his songs are nice. but now...

it is not about him or not.

they are all sinners.
im a sinner too.
if i die surely will go to hell first.
and sumore yest nite after readin maybelline's blog i did something.

cows.

no. im not, NOT regreting. maybelline, if u read this here i'll say the VERY SAME THINGS again.

its juz me.

hi hi...

Happy Valentine's Day.
情人节快乐!!!
以后天天都,
爱情万岁!!!

some of my friends are attached.
some are not.

me?

im still waiting.

你问我 ， 爱情是舍[replacement cuz my com cant type the other one]么

我
还没资格回答

再等吧...

Am I too young?
yes? no?

im old enuf to get married oreadi u know?
to give birth oso.

oh well... i can see u rolling ur eyes and say... physically oni mah... surely mentally is still a kids tokin rubbish... n surely dun noe wat am i tokin myself.

i almost can hear somebody singing very loudly on the empty streets at marina south...



I don wanna close my eyes...
I don wanna miss a thing...



okies bah. let thing go its own way.

today:
msn-ED with starkeeper... okies lah! jing zhen.. n.... why huh? most people when hear i say i cook will like... *eyes wide open* look at me say... REALLY ARH?

=p

yup. i know how to cook. hehhehehehe....

whether mr.Ashin is goin where juz let him be. he is him. nobody can decide for him... i'l juz leave it that way. unless its for some very ass-ED reason lah... if nt i can dan ran jie shou... mmm...

all those who are plannin to be teachers: muz JIA YOU, JIA YOU, JIA YOU!!!

please HELP TO DO!!!

http://kevan.org/johari?name=rongz

love yah!!!

yest:
went to michelle's hse... for steamboat. me, joel, yiyan n darren met for K first. actually oni me and joel. cuz both the other 2 overslp... diaoz~ hehehe... den... we sang and went her hse... so pai seh! we 4gt to bring orange leh! den borrow frm her 1st... hahaha.... 1st time i go friend's house painian. now... d/l the photos frm joel on msn... we really super funny arh! esp when they were playing cards... truthfully speaking... my heart cannot tahan so fast den... but after watchin them play one nite... i get used liaox. wait lah~ wait i got $$$ den play with ur~ hehehehe.... the most gao xiao part was when... darren took ivan's $50 and he dint even notice... darren still hide the $$ in his wallent and take out.... say he huo chu zu le... juz bet $50 one hand... hahaha... that time ivan zhuang sumore... shld have seen his face man! turned GREEN lor!!! hahahaha.... sumore darren WOn.... hahaha... his face turn even greener... hahaha.... we laughing like siao oreadi!!! esp me n jit... we laugh until face red arh... cuz cannot tell him that is his own $$$.... hahaha... in the end ivan lose liaox we ask him to pay darren first... he still say nvm owe first gt $$$ den pay... we laugh even more lo!!! hahahaha.... everybody all know is his $$$ liaox oni he dunnoe arh! in the end we managed to pursuade him to return darren some $$$ first, since he still got the "$50" in his wallet... when he realized that it was his $$$.... HAHHAHAHHAHA.... so darn funny lo! photos up soon... wait i gt time upload 1st~

today:
shards.... ass... 4gt to bring cam out... if not wld have been so darn better... met jing zhen, georgina at chinatown mrt.... so sorry i was late! i woke up late, rushed to grandma hse late... faster pai pai oreadi den rush dw chinatown... but they pushed the time to 1pm. HEY PEOPLE!!! next time go sing PARTY WORLD... kBox dun hav half the songs they hav lo! u know?!?! they got, Hosee, yu mian, tian tian xiang ni, orh pei gong, wei sia mi... COWs.... we shld hav discovered this place so much darn earlier!!!! YOUR HEAR THIS PPL?! anyway... i met them... den we met elieen, aka ketchpy... den we began first... den pr came... den... sing, HIGHed.... okies lar... no more voice liaox. den we went eat eat... noodles... den went coffee bean tok tok... den change to mac... tok alot. until i ask my er yi they all to start first dun wait for me to lo hei.... but... long time never had such a GREAT TIME liaox... hahaha... when u are with ppl u like... juz lyk wad sufen said.... cuz they are ppl who share the same interest as u... so frequency more or less the same... hahahaha.... MAYDAY.....

conclusion of the day:
...
Ashin... surely is bi-sexual!! im sure!!! likes both dan dan n masa!!! and wang li hom!!! hahahaha.... notice hw much exclamation marks !!!! i hav added... can also see pr rolling her eyes liaox....
we are all juz simple ppl... watever they do... mayb i agree more or less will affect us... but oni is c til wat kind of extend.
we are all abit of attention-seeker in our hearts ba... even thou say on the mouth like dont care... but sometimes u'll oso like abit of acknowledge frm the ppl u care... til wat extend u'll give for the acknowledge?

mayb im juz plain selfish... i dont look very far either... im juz me. i hav nothin against the present nor i wait so excitingly for the future... wat will comes, will comes....

and... nothin is as simple as u see it, or as comfusing as u see it... sometimes we read too much into one simple action... but the same time i know that sometimes one little action can tell u more than a thousasnd words hw the person is like...

mmm.... Watever~ nitez~

camp was fantastic! im back!

from all the shouting, screaming, xiao bai-s, laughter, fun, sweat... it was terrific in fact. all the instructors esp... mayb cuz its always the same crowd so we work better together. mmm... izzit?compliants, grumblings, of cuz got. sometimes when u see things which u dont like, wat to do? mmm... when people's another side sudden sneaks out... how many are our true selves? only we selves know? mmm... mayb not. hehehe...

my 1D was great. like wat i debrief them. thank you 1D for being soo.... 1D... cuz they are themselves. we are not Super anything, but when added together, we are OK... more than OK in fact. =) hehehe... im very protective of my class de hor~ dun see me keep shouting at them. i do admit kids sometimes need a firm hand. but since is my class, leave it to me to be the bad person. if anything happens den is my fault.

hahas.... camp.... memorable stuff so much. esp the xiao bai thingy. and... tk's zi lian ING. cows like abit too over le ba? esp when he keeps showing the kids his butt... yikes... hui bu hui tai over le arh? afterall we are... errm... moulding the future of these kids. u know, a OL's words hav a very big effect on this kids. not that we act wei da. esp when the choosing of CCAs and stuff. mmm...

our 1D got... chen wei lian, JJ, 7 flowers, SHE, jay chou... hahaha... all the entertainers in the class. they are really great. next yr? see hw bahs... ppl grow up. ppl change. sometime when u go back to do such work. its juz for the fun of it. the experience. not wan to go back social or wat. not for the $$$ even. okies?

this batch... abit weird. they dunnoe like tk oei-ING but they like the part when he shouts very rudly. and they like repeating after him the very rude part. they LOVE it man... dunnoe y. fan jian?

did i mention that i love our gym alot? hahahas... even thou.. i oni slp for one nite. the 2nd nite too squeezy liaox. so we slept in the canteen. even thou i very much wanted to slp on a bed. but nvm lah! 2 nites oni. but. its better to be woken up by xiao bai than being woken up by the cold in the mornin and the pots and pans clashing in the malay stall. we were slpin in frnt of the malay stall leh! imagine... hahaha... sk super arh... can slp so welll... i cannot...

about the xiao bai thingy... ur got heard of a ringtone which is by the la bi xiao xin? it goes:

la bi xiao xin:
xiao bai...
ni zai na li arh...
xiao bai...
XiaoBai...
Ni Zai Na Li ARH...
XIAO BAI....

which continues louder and louder... it so damm hilirous okies? hahaha... and shld hav seen tk's expression when wj, yixian, desmond n sk where all playing the thingy on their HPs juz to disturb him... hahaha... i think he almost lia gong liaox! hahahaha...

thankies to fenglin, yi xiang, and all other ppl in the camp for such a wonderful camp... awaiting our outing... =)

2mr... k-ing with c121. den... go michelle hse for steamboat. den... think they goin slack... watch DVD.... gamble abit... mmmm....
sun is... K-ing with yijun, pr, jingzhen n georgina! YEAS! mayday mayday!!!! wOOhOOwOoHoO!!!!!

orh yar... saw on one of my 1D kids msn nick...

你寂寞吗?

sorry~ 1D internal joke... =)

Pics UP

juz ended call with zy. ok lar she. now is the high time for people to fall sick mah... everyone's down with flu or cold or fever. my cousin-in-law adam, yali, zy...

nothing much. juz wanted to blog abit be4 goin to the damm camp... shit. im beganing to regret it. cowz. so much gou xin dou jia. so much confusing matters. none involving me. hahahaha...

had CNY photos uploaded:
http://thanks.multiply.com/photos
can go check it out.

and:

credits to sam ar. her camera.

and:

he held his new book autograpgh session today... mmm... i dont dare to po on pr's blog. pr, if u see this, den is fate lo....
the previous post bout all things needing to come to an end was refering to them actually. i dont know. feelings change? i dont know. everytime u feel something it would b different, cuz its a unique feeling created, at the special time and surroundings. im oso afraid of a day when they realized that they have reached again another pin jin, but not like the last time they choose to go on hiatus n take a 2yr break. wat if they took a break forever? but i know they wont... cuz one or two or all of them might get itchy hands and do a record or song sometime when they are 65yrs old? i dont regret being late. at least i did met them. did be touched. to get into a new place is not easy, and sumore is with a motive. to say they want to spread their music further... is only part excuse. im not saying anywhere on earth is not worth spreading music to. but... ya... bread is more important than dreams sometimes. sometimes we juz hav to bow to reality. if not who will support their wifes and kids? us, being mere us... cannot help them directly by giving them $$$...
nice and beautiful lyrics? he got a gift. he should use it. beneath the love songs and lyrics about loving, there are still some stuff which spurs us on, to be more brave in life. isnt it? juz that we dont realize.

we always dont realize alot of things dont we?

but still, i'll feel like wacking him if he does not shave properly. hehehe... abit out of topic. but have to come out with this... cuz i forgot wat to write liaox.

Gone to camp!

went back mjr for camp briefing today. again. 9am. as usual. slacked for almost 1hr be4 it started. cow. lucky i took my own sweet time to take bus. like wat sk said its juz not worth it take cab cheong there.

usual camp stuff lo. ice breaking games, tent ptiching, the tripod was fun thou. the turst fall... i see will shiver liaox... that time during tp ALP [adventure learning program] got do be. but was better cuz we need not catch with bare hands, is everyone grab a handle of the canvas den the faller fall on the canvas. paituo~ even me myself oso afriad like siaox how to ask the sec1s to do arh... *shiver* i think tk really today bei wo men tu de hen can... when he demo with micheal the game tp shuffle [tp? shld b tis tp ba?] is a game where the kids stand on a bench or chairs lined together. den have to move around without feet touching the floor. which means they have to touch each other lah. see tk demo-ing with micheal looks as if micheal is hugging a very big chested woman... but they really hug very tight leh!

this time ar... the camp really pityfully small... so little people! dunnoe how to handle. really hope the kids are guai enuf! 5 classes quite alot leh! not a small amount lor... even though all leaders... cow. leaders are juz nice names there hanging around. no use at all. some people juz want to have fun. but i think we this bunch quite good lah. think all afraid that the camp will b destroyed by us... haiz~

cheong-Ed back to tp for CDS exam. ok lor. still can how?

slacked at home. den went to the safe at harbour front to buy the vaccum which is on offer... as requested by my dad... cow! in the end still kenna scolded by my ma for no reason!

hey hey hey!!! juz watched the news for FH japan osaka... chao ji CUTE!!! never hear them speak jap be4! hahaha.... the way ashin says his name. ok lah. i dun understand jap but can still catch abit. he said he is the vocal for mayday and his name is... Ashin... when he say his name so wen rou can feel my goosebumps all coming out liaox. and see guai shou's dad... woa... big lawyer woa... i think he is really proud of him now liaox bah? esp on the stage in a foreign country and yet there are still so many people supporting him below... mmm... and hear stone's english! woa.. his english and chinese can fight ar... mere languague cannot stop him from speaking so rou ma... hahaha...

took alot of photos recently. but cannot upload cuz com cannot read the files. haiz~ now my camera got alots of rubbish photos... hahaha... from final home, to my bdae, to cny, and still got the videos at the airport. and... got the recordings we did crouching at the door at expo... i really miss expo! miss the nice weather there...

i've read.

i know that all good things come to an end soon. nothing will last forever. band cannot support u the whole life. when reality kicks in, its time to wake up.

for ur info we have been quite awake. we have been since all the while. or izzit that we are juz living a dream? a dream which we have made up by ourselves? mmm....

people seperate and grow up. we leave the group of friends someday, somehow, some leave when they grow up. some leave after they get married or has a GF or BF. some juz simly fades off becuz they find that the feeling is not there.

to the end, will it be juz those who refuse to let go, and holds on damm tight for the sake of holding on, remains? u may say it would then totally defeat the purpose liaox. but how?

there are things u have to face it, sooner or later.

for now,
i prefer later.

im back.

ok. good that we act like normal mordern young adults. not an insult. not a compliment either. haiz~ i dont know wat lah. i know im hard to get along with. getting things straight is juz one matter... is it if i was more womenly so in order to attract guys? to act weak and always cannot decide on wat's next? heyllo~ girls arent all like that. sometimes guys are worse than us. hump~

4G has nice people. believe me.

nitez.

photos up for tues when me, sufen, sam went to mind cafe... credits to sam

<http://juzsam.multiply.com/photos/album/14>

and some other photos for CNY:









when i say renfu is very pretty, im correct mah. he is very pretty... hahahaha....

back to school... school was ok. carc lab test was terrific... but seeing elyn cry becoz of she never did finish the lab test was... haiz~ reminded me of maybelline.... y give urself so much stress leh?

pon-ed fndb lab juz for the camp briefing... in the end nothing much de mah... chey~ ok lah. the usual bunch of people.

den went mind cafe [again] with sk to see the cute guy. hahaha... not really lah. at 1st is want to go river ang bao de... in the end she dun wan... den went mind. yupz~ samantha ar! sk's cute guy is not ours that one, is the other guy who teach us play the nose game and the red shoes game one... hehehe....

when is them going to be on wan yu arhz?!?!

cowx.... juz recieved email that camp meeting again on fri afternoon.... i fri nite goin meet ex-4G for dinner leh!~ haiz.... buzy week....

Chinese new year.... wish everybody:

找到心里的王子，公主

can turn from 暧昧不清 to 互爱得恋人.

平平安安

万事都如意

no war please!

most importantly:

HUAT ARH!

my wishes came too late... now suffering from goin-to-go-back-sch sydrome. somemore i cant make it for the camp meeting again... sadded... WHY MUZ HAVE SO MANY LATE LESSONS?!?!

today went K-ing with sufen... high-ED of cuz... n kenna scolded by my cousin that me come out and enjoy myself dun have to the boring-aunty's house pei her... hahaha....

met sam at mind. yar lar... the "cute" guy was there. so what. big deal. fate will announce itself de lah. im not that kan cheong... and not that desparate.

影响最深刻
借问众神 明
绿色的甘蔗汁

dinner at grandma house. at last got one day with steamboat which is not "colourful". the last few days all add prawns, meat, hai sheng, all the werid stuff in... today oni got tofu, mushroom and pork... let stomach rest for today lah. been eating steamboat every lunch and dinner since chu xi leh!~ the chilli is really damm good sia~ hot and sour enuf... eat oreadi will very HIGH de.... hahaha...

my SCV came back liaox. so tis few days watchin like siao. esp wan yu. but haven see mayday yet leh! wanna see mr.Ashin fufiling his wish of make 作词，作曲，做菜 his 专长... hahaha.... and... was browsing tru the channels and saw tvbs showing the jungiery stars thingy on chinese new year... even though i hate his hair style but i admit that his shirt is quite good. even my grandma reconizes him orh! really.... and he really knows how to 枪镜头... when evreybody was crowding in front of the camera, he own self stand behind on the background and pose something weird... hahaha.... but anyway, main point is want to say saw stef sun on the MTV gei dou concert... and she was singing first day... u know when she pass the mike out to the audience to sing... really is !!!!! hahaha....

oh yar... my sis showed my grandma mayday's photo... the one on the time machine... hahaha.... guessed who she liked?

one mis-leading clue for you... my grandma likes big eyes and nice features so in 56 she chose meng zhe.... hahaha....

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