I offically announce that...

IM BACK ON MSN! [yea!~] which equals to that my internet is back [finally]

yest was another day. first day was ok. since every year is the same sechdule. grandma hse, soka, grandma house for lunch, dad's side big uncle house, dad's side big gu gu house, den back to grandma house for dinner. den all the cousins, nieces, and noise will be at grandma house. everytime when i see grandma house full of people, i wonder again izzit that my grandma is happy, with all of us there. cuz something very unhappy happened there.

i know where my bad temper and loud voice is inherited from.

mother's side.

u know why? yesterday at dinner at grandma house, my ma and small uncle fought. my "fight" as in the type with pots of plants smashed and lotsa screaming and shouting around. serious stuff ok. sumore me, ning ning, my sis all juz wake up from nap.... and was stationed at the dinning table going to start eat... man... they really got the mood.... poor grandma ans er yi was shhhh-ED by my cousins... but also thanks to my cousins that the thingy ended so fast. haiz~ they say dont wash ur dirty lundary outside... but my ma and uncle oreadi annoounce to the whole world that they are fighting liaox. adults. now u know what my ma is doing? complaining to some dunnow which aunty~ haiz....

lucky i today goin sing k.... not goin out with them.... poor grandma... have to endure them.

first day of CNY everybody say i very pretty.

second day of CNY... the other bunch of people said i was FAT and need to slim down! cowz....

so vast difference....

blog later...

alot of things happened.

thursday. sac... err... no lah. the camp breifing at mjr. dint get to go cuz had cmsk make-up classes for CNY. haiz~ sometimes i really think mrs Jean leong is a nice teacher. esp when she is the tcher who teaches communication skills, so she muz b pretty good lah. she is the 'very ang moh pai' type. but... sometimes she juz.... you know. the ''im the adult. i have more life experiences. this is the only correct way to do this thing.'' communication, doesnt it vary with the person u want to communicate with? isnt that so? if theory by itself is so fixed... that bu shi jiu defeat the purpose... shit... what am i toking bout. sometimes i have to disagree with her. i dont think that guy was wanting to point middle finger at her. it was juz becuz that he touched his nose. cow~ do you think we will know its the german or canadian or whoever's way of pointing finger. sometimes people juz want to entertain others and be the joker mah. isnt it? haiz~ sometime people should remember that... chill and relax. sometimes take the chance to act like ur age. does not mean that if ur old that u muz act as if the whole world's responsibility is upon u to uphold... haiz~ guess alot of stuff and stress come with the society's view of mature. nvm....

camp? i saw who im with liaox. COW COW COW.... at first is with chun yuan and tifa... at least both i know mah. cow~ now change until i with yixian and another girl. not that i dont like yi xian. but we're not close mah! i dont even know his in person, never crossed paths with him. haiz~ nevermind lah.... i will survive.

fri went back mjr ask mr.ong to change the letter for me. cuz my class on the leave of absense is wrong. and wished him happy CNY. saw ms tan. never change alot. hey~ did i mention that i did my contacts liaox? fri wore it for the whole day. i try liaox! can put in cannot take out. in the end how i took it out? cry until drop out... wonder how am i going to survive 2m. after mjr went back tp for 1hr tutorial... den went to town area to meet sam, jiali and yali. at mind cafe. took the same bus as bryant. he still got the face to ask me got go for class or not... sat behind him all the while but yet he never realize.... hehehe.... handled in my LOA... bryant oso goin same place as me. for those interested, mind cafe is opp the paradiz centre, the kbox there. we dropped at the same stop. made my member card at mind's cafe. hey~ that guy's cute! hehehe... cuz when i go, not open yet. i reached was 1.43pm oni. they open at 2pm. but i ask him are they open he juz say nevermind can go in sit down first. haha... very gan gai oni me there. den sam they all came. played the games... lame-o games lah. den... yali went off. cuz she need to go work. den me, sam and jiali continued. sam was saying that me very 'sao' that day. keep smiling... hehehe... dunnoe smilling at her or smilling at that guy... hahahaha.... pai tuo~ i cannot even see the guy how to smile at him? he siting inside the counter leh....

den met my sis go buy skirt. brought her to OP at raffles city. quite nice the skirt. u know? my ma's skirt, my sis's skirt, my dad's shirts all i BUY de! sumore they all never give me $$$ for it... cow... damm broke liaox. me oso haven buy all my clothes. lucky yest bought liaox. bought 2 skirts and 2 tops. better than nothing.

as for the contact lens... haiz~ really painful leh! tiring for the eyes. and u know rite, got the sensation of when u wear a new pair of glasses... got the very giddy feel... haiz~ how to survive 2molo... sumore yeat nite me, yuerong and my cousin belinda and my niece ning ning aka charmine went the river ang bao. little bit thing to see only~ dunnoe how sk and nen goin to plan the path for the sec.one. [YAR~ sec on camp goin bring sec one-s there to walk walk]

now at my grandma house using my cousin's laptop and stealing other people's wireless network... hahaha... but juz now, the 'irritables' came... as in the my big uncles' whole family came. HA. this yr so hao si arh? whole family come? u know wat? last time during the yuan xiao, my grandma ask my big uncle come back to eat tang yuan, his dammit wife said to my grandma that 'hey~ he dont have his own family to go home to unite with ar?!' imagine! cow... nobody teach her izzit? ask her husband to be rude to his own mother... as if my grandma bully her all the while. COW. people around dun understand y i hate them so much. when they comes i never greats them. cow... disrespect my grandma.... juz now u know what the did? when my grandma and er yi and GRANDMA preparing the ingrediants in the kitchen, the whole family cam in, and procceded straight to my grandma's bedroom, as if to claim the room as their whole. and ask the maid, [YAR GOT MAID.] to go outside to pour them poka green tea [HEARBYLY USING ALL THE ICE CUBES WHICH WE ALL DONT HAVE TAKE AND USE CUZ NOT ENOUGHT ICE CUBES LIAOX.] and BRING INSIDE THE BEDROOM TO DRINK. cow~ nobody taught them manners izzit? drink in other people's bedroom?! and sumore, her dammit daughter sit ther face black black like princess wait for other people to go bow at her feet and serve her arh? i dont even want to talk about what happened when they eat... oni think oni feel like KICKING their ass... chinese new year. they are the only big black cloud on my beautiful sky. forgive n forget? bully my grandma.... how can ask me to forgive and forget. my ma and all my cousins juz say nevermind juz let them be. afterall grandma so happy to see her long-time-no-see son come back for wei lu...
to me i juz cannot stomach down this kind of stuff. dunnoe why... but im basically nice to everyone who comes... if they're good of my grandma. hmp!

but still...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR....

hahahaha.... its a joyouse occasion afterall, if spent with all ur loved ones. update again... if i get the chance to find another com =D

i hearby declare that.... my house com gave up on me again! sucks... it hangs itself and then shuts down after one min. stating that there's some kind of error form this file /lass.exe... cow!!! i delted my msn oreadi! or should i reformat again? cow~ my dad reformat w/o tellin me in the end i lost my 15 epsodies of er zhuo zu zhi wen! cow cow cow... and some md stuff oso! and my FH pics and other pics. lucky i oreadi burn out my Fh pics... die la.... did i? muz go back check liaox.

yest missed wan yu again. cuz went shopping... with sk. bought? one skirt for my ma. one jeans skirt for myself. its very short... but me n sk both like it! hahaha.... and one pair of white color heels. $19.90... ok lah. all done at parkway. cute thing was after we bought the shoes, the aunty at the shop ask us wan go lucky draw or not. den she gave me 2 other recipet. den make up our purchase to more than $100 den can draw 2 times mah... hahaha.... but we dint get anything lah~ juz for the fun of it. den went eat... den take shuttle bus go bedok. bedok we oni shop abit oni cuz most of the shops all close liaox.

and... i saw mr.Ashin's new book liaox.

eeewww..... i dont like the 'act cool' mr.Chen. but im goin to buy the book. hey! he writes good lyrics ok! not juz someone with a pretty face [not very pretty as compared to the other idols anyway... hehehehe....] is really got nei han de hor!

later goin make contacts liaox! with yiyan n elyn.... hope it turns out good. =p

what if i juz back off last minute?

hehehe... dont worry. im not planning that... unless i really get sick lah. even if sick i oso will go the camp de... =) thank god at least im with somebody i know. since ms yinren and ms siew kiang will stick to each other like bubble gum and thus leaving me alone. mmm... dont ask me how am i planning to survie the 3days. the above is stating that im goin back for the camp. the Manjusri sec one orientation camp 2006 to be specific. i have no high hopes~ juz hope that we'll get a tee shirt. mmm....

about the thingy which happened yest~ samantha! u know oni u and my tp mates say its cute. hahaha... darren couldnt even reconize me. i was sitting beside shuhui and he juz smiled to shuhui and totally dint reconize me at all. hahahaha.... i think they all abit shocked. i do admit that the look will look better if im wearin contacts... mmm... dunnoe leh~ mayb 2m go and do contacts? since monthly de mah, can try for one month, $15. see how lah~ suddenly feel like Elizabeth wakefield in the sweet valley high series... suddenly have BIG changes. but my ma and sis say every ugly leh! cowz~ i think she juz bu gan yuan that for the first time in my life i never let her cut my hair. she jealous over the whoever person who cut my hair~ keep critizing it like no 2molo~ cowz.

later got both maths class test and FNDB lab test i totally never study! cow. maths think can,... bah.. since like they all oreadi tell me wat go test liaox. juz study those few. for fndb... juz hope that i get the easier paper. and its open book. so~ muz organize my damm messy notes first. 2m still got carc test! cow~ but later im goin shopping after sch. to parkway juz my ma saw a nice shop selling gals clothes there. goin meet sk first~ haiz~ CNY this weekend but yet i oni bought one top! cow cow cow~ time is running out!

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty. At work and school, you do best when you're researching. When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often. In friendship, you are considerate and compromising. Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking. You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

to sam:
thanks for your post. i know what are u tokin about. part of us will not change. cuz we knew each other durin the period of time. whenever when this group of friends get together, we will juz communicate the way we have been comunicating with all the while... but the thingy is sadly that people come to reject the way we are using. things when said hurt others feelings. i of course know somethings are juz said jokingly. if i were to get angry at such minor stuff i oreadi kenna heart attack liaox. but sometimes, be reminded that many little such stuff acculmates into a huge dump... and the bitter feeling gets to me sometimes. i of course dont mind if you dont mean it. but, the point is that was the person sayin that feeling that way too? maybe.... the person really meant what she was showing, feeling, and what her reactions and expressions shown. you can say im juz being sensitive, readin in more than i should. but ask other people, outsiders like sufen... she saw some things also.
besides. i know the price of truth. it kills, it hurts. alot in fact. but to this type of pain, i prefer it to the other type of pain when nobody wishes to face the problem, or that nobody thinks there is a problem with the way of communication.
some stuff. you will reach a point when you cant communicate any longer. you reach the point where you know what will happen and you expect what the other party will react. this was wat with mayday, partly, if not they would not have needed to break apart for 2yrs. for our case, it juz isnt that wei da.... we juz simpily gave up... bah....
i need to break down. need to be straight. even if i know im huritng people along the way. but sometimes lies hurt even more when you realize that they are lies. it hurts even more MORE when you are always know that you are living a lie.
im not juz pin pointing anybody. juz some gan xiang-s i got from my communication skills lessons. people juz have to submit to reality. i dont. i dont want to. a bonus [or you can think it as a bad point oso] that hearing songs like ren sheng hai hai and jue jiang and gong lang makes it more diffcult to let go. even if the road infront is full of struggles.
samantha, i never believed you as someone fake. i know that we do argue alot. but somewhere along the way we understand each other even more. much better than one party juz demands and the other juz gives in. that kind of realtionship will juz stay stagnent forever.
i go home den continue. hehehehe.... now got lesson liaox.

This Is My Life, Rated
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"Terrible people doing terrible things"

so.... finally to the end im juz deemed as a terrible person. now. let me tell you what the freakin *** happened on fri. during THE outing. i asked my group of friends. the group during my sec3 and 4 life. namely, zy. may. yali and sam. u think its juz another gathering? tell you why i planned it... becuz somebody said she wanted to go shopping together for CNY clothes. in the end most of them bought clothes oreadi except me. ok. before you conclude that im juz acting pityful, read on. out of the blue i became incrediably pissed off. of course! juzz imagine facing the com chiong-ing project from 8am to 4pm and recieving such news, of course im not pissed off! [for once i realized yaya was right on giving zen this advice on girls that girls always speak the oppsitite of what they feel] such news as in maybelline has oreadi arranged to meet yali at the mrt. behold. im now hearbyly going to reveal what am i so pissed off of.
if you can damm well oraganize a perfectly good outing, juz let me know and save me all the phone calls bills and sms fees for needing to confirm with each and everyone all the changes and opinions of where you all want to go, want to eat, dont want to do what, cannot decide what. and especially when some people.
[fuck it. i dont care anymore. if nobody bothers to say. COME ON. LET ME DO THE HONOURS SINCE.... since friendship with anybody doesnt matter a great deal]
maybelline and yali is acting as if seeing zhen ying will kill them. even sufen can see that maybelline is acting as if me and sam doest even exsit infront of her... unless we ask her, if not she juz keeps quiet as if she does not want to have anything to do with us. zhenying? haiz~ my dear zhenying, we all know you have a boyfriend and 有又怎样? dont tell me you dint meant anything. cow... im sick n tired of everybody pointing fingers and me and said i have accused them... when you dont even want to tell me. how am i to know what are you thinking in your heart?
to the group of friends:
sam was right ba. my tone was not good. i was loud. but. im always loud. juz wanted to make you all know that im sick of people who juz think getting angry is my habit. what a lame excuse is that. which of you have taken the effort after i burst to ask me what has happened? u juz take it as if "let me to cool down". yar cool my foot. cool oreadi juz treat as if nothing had happened. matter being buried does not mean it will stay buried. it has happened and its a fact. a problem left that is like knots in the heart. you dont untie them, they juz stay untied.
yesterday i have made up my mind to let go, to forget. when i have always thought, 4 yrs of friendship, its not as if you want to forget it will be gone. like a relationship does not mean you want to give up, it will leave you alone for you to give up. im juz sick of giving in, and giving in and giving in and putting in effort and in the end have you people point your fingers at me and make me feel im the loser forever and i cant accomplish what you have allowed others to acomplish so easily. sam asked me why i know so many stuff about maybelline's new friends. you think what? if i dont ask i'll know? you know everytime i ask, everytime i tell her nevermind cuz we're always there and ask her muz believe in herself. everytime after that i ask myself who am i cheating. cuz maybelline's reaction and response always makes me feel as if im the intruder in her life and im the only one giving her all the stress that she hates so much. like she can take all the stress from her parents and now friends but not from me cuz im the only unreasonable person in her life demanding her to do this, believe that.
yep... i juz cheating myself all the while. what is there to believe in?
once i thought that friends were the people who will no matter what happens, how your life transforms from easy n simple to diffcult and complicated, they will be there for you to lie back on and confide. so wrong was i isnt it? cuz the reality of life does not allow people time for friends. something so stupid like friends.

如果有一天
你让我知道
你想飞了
想飞走了
我不会强求
也不会挽留
只因为
那是我所能给你
最后的温柔

becuz after one big circle. i will still continue to keep a small part of hope deep inside somewhere inside my heart. so i beg of you. if you smirk after readin this whole thing. i rather you dont comment.
get out of my life.
turn your back to me.
like you always do.

to nen:
nobody noes another well enuf cuz we change every second, every mili sec... besides. its juz a small matter. i know love is unreasonable, unrationable. im not blaming anyone for feeling what they are feeling. cuz im not in the position and i dont have the right to do so. im juz mere human.
to director lee an:
woa! i agree with the idea of "there are 4 time more people speakin chinese than people speakin english". why muz we surrender to their ideas and thinkings all the time leh?

The heart dies a slow death
yest... watched memoirs of a geisha. even thou i dont like zhang ziyi that much. but the moive was really quite good. esp gong li i think. cuz hatsumomo is really Evil man. but she captured the evil in her... mmm... and ken watanabe... i know why they chosed him to be the chairman liaox. he had to act out the part of the one of the most fantanized man in japan leh! he has THE charm lar... the oriental man kind. not the kiddish kind but very mature kind of man... and nobu was much fatter than.. err... i mean more well bulit than wat i expectecd but still, no ending for him! hahaha... almost made me cry the ending, cuz oreadi expected wat will happen. but still when the chairman told chiyo that he remembered her... WAA!!! ok lah... mayb not that so much exclaimation marks but still, it was darn good. if you dont place ur expectation too high lo. cuz if not will end up like harry potter. mmm...

today:



JAPAN, OSAKA!

p.s. click on the pic pls~

wat happened yest:


hahaha... addiction is not good... really.... believe me lah!

yest day when CNY walking at chinatown. alot of people? ok oni lah. mayb partly cuz was raining. me n my sis walk until the very end... in the end we lost our way. walk until Neil road. dunnoe where the heck we were. but we juz walked along the roads. until we see bright lights lo. den reached outram park MRT. ya know the juz renovated people's park? really its nice. but the food like... $$$ for a hawer centre lo! and sumore oni a few stalls open. all LONG queues! those all long LONG queues are those old stores. if you go there, can go try there the dumplings... mm... yummy... hehehehe...

juz to bore you all be4 continuing... hehehehe....

What mayday does best =)

for sk de lar... hehehehe...



oOooOoo... i know pr hate him. but too bad my sis like leh.

is he wearin boxers with it?! [story to the shirt: given by the other 4 durin his bdae]

projects. oopg next week. i think my TW trip is die liaox... been spending $$$ like nobody's business these few days. cow. think shld b got work tis weekend? dunnoe leh... i juz realized that alot of people around me have stead liaox. isnt it? HEY JIALI... when's your TURN? hahaha... i shall not resort to discussing other people's love life on my blog. yikes yikes... now only thingy i say on my blog... other than my boring life, is mayday. yep. i know im a boring person. but... somethings nan dao juz say in the blog? ok, this's it. was it racism that i saw? i dont know leh. mayb it was juz fed-up-tion with some else's stead ba? not racisim rite? no bah?....... fri goin shopping. later mayb too. I NEED CNY CLOTHES!! hahaha... and shoes, and... food... i gave up dieting liaox. wat the USE leh?! even if i dun eat... also becum fatter... cowx! goin on now: TP open house. sp, nanyang oso.... mmm....

CountDown:
9 days to CNY!

cowz~ i think rarely got people can let me read blog until can '!!!!!!!' infront of the com de. one is mdmd forum. other is miss PR's blog.... after readin, first feeling is....
I wan to go and long bia lah!
cowz.
and pigs.
cant believe i missed m'sia FH. aiya. dont give me thingy bout 'still have chance for more concerts de' come on! every concert, every experience is unique by itself! will not and CANNOT have 2nd chance de! haiz~ let me cheng jing in self-pity for awhile... thanks....
my house com... the other one which is still surviving, cowz, got network, got NIC, got router, can detect network... but, IE cannot open. !!! liddat oso can! weekend, spent on projects and slacking.... went to converse warehouse sales with yali. was a last min decision made on sat after seein wat sufen bought. i spent... cow... think is the first time i spent soooo much $$$$ on stuff without much thinkin. bought: one bag, a pair of shoes [red with white], 3 tops, 2 wallet [one for my sis but she dont wan... mayb give ning ning?], 4 pair of socks [for my sis]... spent bout like $110++? i think the only time i spent this MUCH was durin the bulk purchase... sumore.... CNY new yr clothes haven buy yet! cowz~ and im aiming for a book oso which i saw at kino... cowz!! can money pls drop from the sky?

hehe... like very bad hor? know what? i juz made a post on forum... stating that people like masa, monster, yanming, zhang lao shi, shi jie, xiao hou and huang niu.... ALL smokes. hahaha... but the truth is so mah. wat to do?
but anyway. since nen and sk are both unwilling to post about what happened yest, let me do the honors. we met at ochard mrt to meet nen. cant even decide what to eat. being 3 mature young adults. haiz~ walked around wisma... with 3 hungry stomachs. den... walked and walked but still cant make up mind. den... FINALLY decided on KFC. no seats there... cows. den we sat at the mac side. but none of us wanted to give up. or to say, i dint want to give up. truthfully speaking i dint see any determation in you two. more like interested to sulk and talk? hump~ sk ar. im VERY pissed off yes. mite as well juz admit it. since its the truth no point hiding it. but still..... cows and Pigs... never have i met such UNGENTLEMENLY BEHAVIOR.... cows and pigs..... freaking ass... and never hav i met such people with these 2 friends. you know... we need to have such people to continue to live on earth. it potrays how beautiful how earth can be you know. Arent them priceless? freakin ass... they make our world so much a BETTER PLACE. Freak ur bloody damm ass....
im juz conveying how i had felt that very moment. cows. my anger comes and goes like the tide. but i remember. the emotion will be taken out again to savour when needed. really... also. our main motive is to go watch funka. julian, namely, his team call chroma X... but.. we missed him... becuz of the mac we were eating. guilty ar~ but... ok, im NOT a professional DANCER [cow. anyone who can move to the rythm IS a dancer. juz that we are not professional. cow. what u mean by a dancer? think u very 'dancer' meh? with a silm body, wearin skin tight shirts, can turn a few rounds and include a few moves you can be called a dancer? pls lar~ your attutide oreadi tarnished the name of a 'DANCER' liaox. dont respect urself hw ask ppl to respect you~] but... back to topic. yest funka was good. good as in? seen a few good teams when we started watchin. of cuz, feel is more important than skill, even though skill is quite important too. watever.
my house com is OFFICALLY down. freakin'. and..., tonite... mr.chen juz posted on imayday liaox. AHRZ!~!~! *tears hair in frustration* cows cow COWS!!!

sk. i know that kind of mood. i always slip into that kind of mood de. sometimes its juz not the hunger. it juz becuz your state of mind cannot tahan anything that is again attacking it liaox. so it juz uses anger as a shield. or blankness. erm... mayb not for you? mayb for me its like that ba?

nenx. you know... you are so yinren... hahahahaz~ dunnoe how to say but... really... missed being together with you.

jiali. im not goin to dignify the post with a reply. since... watever~

at last get to update. what good weather today! at last in the whole week wake up to a morning which is not raining like nobody's business... mmm.... handed in dar DCNK project. happy! and goin watch funka later... Happy! and... only not happy is they are oreadi at KL and i cant go. haiz~ but anyway, read fellow forumer's account on what they did at the KTV openin oreadi very HIGH liaox. she said she heard somebody shout 'shi jie ni zai na li!~' hahahaha.... miss our very cute ji shi-s~ pr n ninchan goin... gone liaox. to KL. heard they took the afternoon bus? waa... and jz they all is morning bus. so good! okie lar~ here back in s'pore oso not bad. watever~
yest nite went eat ajisan with sk. den go bugis walk walk. haiz~ been spending alot of $$$$ on food lately. if not on CDs... i dont dare to go see my acct balance... i think i over shot my spending liaox. and im still yearning to buy alot more CDs!! got...
lin zhi xuan's Acoustic Journey
Jay's album, nov choppin
the J stars ai de qi ji part 2 [cz is all chinese new yr songs can play in grandma house durin CNY!]
somemore... i forgot. now currentlt is this few bah~ and need new chothes for CNY. ppl dont get why i want to wear red during CNY. cowz~ once a year make my grandma happy cannot ar? alot of people cannot accept BriGHT RED rite? but juz unfortunately its my favourate color... hahahaha... obious ba? yest nite oso did a good deed [to mayday]... as for what... hehehe... will not b posted here. hope that everyone benifits from music ba!

counting down to:
M'SIA FINAL HOME...
tomolo 14 Jan 206

with fingers crossed that he wont sing mai lai luan~ heheheh....

i think my house com died out oso from me. cuz... today when i opened... i smelt something funny... i think got wire chao tah liaox... burnt out... think so. now i dont dare to go and touch the com at home liaox... dangerous... now at home cannot even switch ON man! sucks.... now im in the make-up lab lesson for OOPG. im in the correct place and correct time but yet its oreadi 2.12pm and the tcher is not here yet. and none of the ppl here in is in my lab. freaky... dont care. sucks. i have... OOPG (next tues lab lesson, individual), DCNK (my part done only, still gt 2other grp members not done, 2mr 6pm), leadership (me gt nothing to write about but is grp proj, been comin sch to for last sat, past tues har raya, this sat muz come again!, next tues hand in) and FNDB (all TOTALLY haven do but muz hand in on next web lab) all projects... all NOT done... all NEED TO BE HANDED IN... soon.... freaky... and my house com died on me... DIED ON ME. cowZ! am i supposed to come back on sunday to do also... sucks.... and... i flunked all my subjects... (except DCNK) FNDB haven got back... but am now pursuading myself not to habour high hopes for it. ass.... it was a surprise... that i flunked... really... becuz it was not i did not study. i admit did not study everything... but i did... haiz~ reminded me of my sec2 science... it was also the same. then after than... i kinda gave up... no diff mah.... mmm....

KL FH tis week... and everyone's GOING!!! hiya!
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really hor.... is this enuf to express what am i feeling? mmm... juz dont let him sing mai lai luan... if not... the middle finger will emerge from my hand... hehehehhe...

for those who hates the rain, please dont b so angry... cuz i kinda like it. its nice weather u know... (when u need not b caught in it and can be on ur bed sleeping). some thing to make ur mood better : ClicK (esp when the part he tok bout Kids... hahaha...)

its really so cold these days man... raining like nobody's business liddat... mmm... blog are meant to be public... and do rem that they are also an online diary... which means all are entitled to their own comments.

we all live in a world too much restrained by others dont we? juz that we dont want to admit it... we live by others' expectations, wat others feel of us... if it was to people who really cared or somebody who put themselves in ur shoes to tink... i can accept. no matter how rude the comment sounds i can accept.

but... why waste time with the other rest lot who dont?

mmm.... im also human. im also struggling with life.
but.
Lfe is meant to be struggling mah~ if not y call life?

i dont know its good or not... to accept certain stuff as it is. but things which i normally argue isnt as important as valued as ur... so... mmmm....

today. sch. projects. fndb not started. dcnk needs to b handed in tir fri. oopg to b checked by lab tutor, handed in next week. leadership to do 2mr (yes even if public holis oso muz go back sch do project!), need to hand in be4 CNY...

oh yar! CNY coming liaox! even i dont like the socializing which goes on when you go pai nian... but its still a VERY joyious occasion! hahahahaha... and sumore it comes with one of my favourite color- Red! anybody wanna go chinatown walk walk? enjoy the festive mood mah! to sqeeze once a yr in the crowd oso fun. =) oh yar~ K-ing anyone? need to go soon leh? anybody free? darn! my msn is still dead... goin reformat my com very very soon... as soon when i got time. before CNY. hope tis weekend can ba!

meanwhile, everybody pls get into HIGH mood cuz now got a warning for your:
im goin GET HIGH! yea!!!~

today.
mornin went to sch do project. in the end oni me and ricky reached early. diaoz~ victor thought was 10am. and clara dint even know we wanted to meet. in the end... err... slack at the com labs. more like gamming lab arh~
solved the white room liaox!
den with zy n my both sis went to TM there. bought earings for... my ma CNY de. and another pair for maybelline. sucks. call her for a thousand times to ask bout her CNY clothes but she dont want listen. cowz. den. walk around in TM. and... go and play the machine u know... put in $1 coins den turn got the ball come out. den the ball inside got toys de... hahaha.... toys R us got mah. we 4ppl squat there and turn. wasted almost $6/7 there. met.... Mrs kong! my sec sch maths tcher. our class ppl used to name her kong ba pao... juz that she dint know. her teachin is really good... juz that she sometimes favour certain students. watever~ she still asked me n zy bout junkai. how i know where he is?! i juz know he at CI... tink he oso nvr go back ar~ cuz she said he abit anti-social de rite... diaoz~ i tot jK was her fav student? mmm... den went to ice lemon tea to buy the earings zy wanted. den... ended up squating there to look for badges. i got one now got John Lennon's imagine on it de... better than zy's. all sex pics. den went to the place outside TIMES there... to continue turn the ball machine. i tink we all today spent a BOMB on that ar! but we all luck quite good. got get wat we wanted. like... i got one fish out of water and the other Chicken little key chain... cute!!! and some bells for my hp strap [bought tis lar~] wat a waste of $$$... hehehehe...
rained like... nobody's business today. sumore is the kind which got rain n sun together de... hate this kind. even though normally i like rain.
den... nite... went wedding dinner... cowz~ save me from boring MCs... the video was good thou. and the food oso. but dint get to sit with yingwoon... CowX! she got me tempted to go KL FH... and HK FH oso... and Japan FH... cowz cowz cow... its the end of yr taiwan trip still on huh? izzit purely countdown or... Final FH included? mmm.... shld i? shld I???? haiz~
oh yar. tonite ym not dancin lar... juz the prince is dancin. he lied to us using ym's nick on imayday.
Funkamania prelims today... Julian got in! good luck to him! read pr's entry... fun hor? haiz~ remind me of the sec1 orientation when we can get very buzy and fun too... tis yr? haiz~ i wonder did yaya and marressa got in... dunnoe leh~ mgs yaya but she never reply... izzit good or not ar! haiz~
shld b in bed sleepin now. cuz im really DEAD tired. c how 2mr. got like... TONNES of projects to do and hand in.
freakin' sianSaTion

oh my~
i have sinned again...
hahaha... too much chocolate browies with vanilla ice-cream... and too much money spent on CDs... cuz i bought another CD again... err... hehe... its called Touch Together. the music of the gay and lesbian in taiwan part 2. aka yong bao... nah... the insides are, yes, done (some not all) by them, but no, not sang by him. i hear the orginal version of ci xiong tong ti... its the 3rd song. and i gave up mid-way... guess i still prefer his voice ba? i dunnoe... mmm... i will pesever and finish the whole CD de! it was a whooping $31.90 leh! cowZ... sumore the uncle's tone was like... "eh u tis kind of xiao nu hai oso know how to listen meh? or juz think that they are shuai ar."
FOR GOODNESS SAKE~
dun want to sell den dun sell lar~ as if music has an age barrier~ you bu shi triwizard~ chey!
wat happened recently?
funkamania's 2molo.
err...
dint meet up with shuhui today cuz rushing off to town to meet jiali.
sat nite gt wedding dinner to attend. Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel. rich people lar~
sch library bk haven return. muz remember.
muz check who can make it back for sec1 orientation nite camp.
check the SAC blog. (yar u dint hear wrongly~ -_-lll SAC oso gt blog de~)
Congrats to Zeus for dang xuan SAC committee. Zeus ar? my junior in library. He looks REALLY like shi tou. no joke. hahaha... he more cute lar. if not y lipeng so infautuated with him? hahaha... long time never go back le. not as if they want to see me. haiz~
everyone is either toking bout chengdu FH... or m'sia FH!!!!!!!
does the amount of !!!!!!!! explain how im feeling? or not enuf ar?
!!!!!

p.s.
i finished the Touch together liaox.i dun believe! i think the tou lou is he sing de... sounds... like him leh!

yep. i changed song again:

温柔 [还你自由]

走在风中今天阳光突然好温柔
天的温柔地的温柔像你抱著我
然后发现你的改变孤单的今后
如果冷 该怎么 渡过

天边风光身边的我都不在你眼中
你的眼中藏著什么我从来都不懂
没有关系你的世界就让你拥有
不打扰 是我的 温柔

不知道 不明了 不想要 为什么 我的心
明明是想靠近 却孤单到黎明
不知道 不明了 不想要 为什么 我的心
那爱情的绮丽 总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

不知 不觉 不情 不愿 又到巷子口
我没有哭 也没有笑 因为这是梦
没有预兆 没有理由有 就让你 自由
如果有就让你自由

OS:
如果有一天
你对我说，
你要走了
我不会强求，
也不会挽留。
只因为这是我所能给你
最后的温柔
你会听见我，
对你说

我给你自由
我给你自由
我给你自由
我给你自由
我给你全部全部全部全部自由

这是我的温柔
还你 你的自由

the best place to heard this song is in your bed, with your blackets covered over you, being warm and cozy, and switching it to a louder volume.

nenx ar~ im pian xin i agree... but some of the songs really does have the whole lot of meaningful lyrics and mind wretchin tunes... this, for one. should have been there when it was live... but try this on the Cd first. =)

did i mention that yest i saw someone wearing the red beijing FH tee at the engin lift? mmm... good luck to all ppl joining funkamania~ and... cheng dou FH....

yep... at last saw a normal desktop liaox. mine at hm has given up on me to go bonkers liaox. nah... it does not feel very well to be in sch. esp when tis mornin i saw 2 werid buses... which drove on the other side of the lane and totally missed the bus stop... dunnoe wat happened.
something happened on 010106... tis:

Credits to iMayday for the photo
yar lar... xing fu rite? i think ms wang [or mrs liu] looks abit like miss china... you know... that time... so sweet!~ hahaha... mayb becuz like we witnessed the whole thingy on TV? hehehe... at least he wunt b kenna bully by the other 4 as much liaox.
for yest basically rotted at hm. den zy came.. went out. supposingly is want to mind cafe but... it was closed... so went walk walk and decided to go delifrance bristo to eat. den... waa... went we called for the bill... the guy walked over. den... gave zy a piece of paper and told her that one of the cooks wants to b friend with her... the paper got the cook's number... woa... i tot such thingys only happened in ou xiang ju... hahahaha.... bout tis ba... den went bugis village to walk... i almost died lar... wa cowz.... the smell of guai shou [yar lah. Cigarettes smoke]... and... i think far east is really nothing as compared to bugis village... really... sumore things are cheaper there... than many other places you see... hmm... funkamania's coming arh! anybody interested go watch? mmm... marressa and julian both joining leh... and both seems to hav problems with their team. now i finally understand y julian said those words that day when i asked him bout it.... haiz~

Dumbledore's dead.

yes im slow i know it.

wat the cow.
opps and sorries.

wat the cowS.

i await the next book. i now know y the craze it all over it liaox. harry potter. its 3.18am in the morning. i spent the whole day trying to finish it. woa. it was good. really. if u never tried harry potter... tell you. its not late. perhaps there's really another world out there which we dont know. and wats true is that... there may be no voldermort here... but there's sure much evil around. that will make up for any voldermort which may exist in the other world...

Yes.
im in a dark mood.
im not totally in the bad mood after watchin the rain. [Rain as in droplets of water from the clouds not tat korean RAIN]
i feel like kicking eveybody's butt.
im feeling very resentful of everything.
im going to wish everybody happy new year again.

watever~ actually... gotta thank them always... never fail to make my mood lighten... juz now i swtiched on my com to blog... but after opening IE i atuomatically typed mdmd forum's add... w/o realizin. oni after the whole page load finish liaox den realize... sorry~ instincts... *grins*
comments comments:
yar.. i know they dont like being like animals... everytime eat got hoards of ppl looking... yar lar~ im feeling guilty... but... was an experience lah~ even though i wasnt that interested in wat they were drinking... hehehehhe... i admit my chinese lt knowlegde wasnt that terrific... if pr dint explain i totally catch no ball of wat he was writing... yar lah. i know it was good... wait til i hear the whole thingy can? more and more poetic he gets huh? yep. my 2006 taipei101 calender is up where all can see liaox. and yest's kua nian was abit... err... and opps.... was good.. really... i think they oreadi trained until kan kai le~ esp these live perfs... ok lah! the atmosphere was great... even if your watchin at hm. bout his new yr greeting... its again his current style... poetic... yikes yikes and yikes.

分不清是?一年 那一年
我?都慢慢的改?又?是?的天
白的? 豪?的
??的都?很?你的眼神
我能看?誓言小看
距?和???了翅膀
就是榱孙w看到信念
所以更要追2006年成都?
大阪? ?州? 香港? 南京?嘿嘿嘿！
也?台北 也要赴?～

平安 ?欣 ? 好年

yar lah... he forgot m'sia... anyway... me started on harry potter and the half-blood prince. at last... cuz my cousin at last finished with it... now at... err... pg456. good but not great... as compared to the last book lar... mayb cuz was not as expected as expected... but anyway... hope to finish it tomolo... cuz by the looks of it zy is not going K with me 2m liaox. but still... ANYBODY FREE TO GO K ARZ? tues sch starts... last time to play... CALL ME LEH!!! i've been rotting too much for the past 2 days liaox.... count down at hm oso... with mayday.... watever~

Happy New Year, happy new 2006~

new year new wishes...

blessings to all, hope all
happy,
happy
and

happy...

thats most important isnt it?

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