:: Memorable Songs of 2005 ::

1. 麦来乱。五月天
2. 好不好。五月天
3. 别惹我。五月天
4. 乱世浮生。五月天
5. 雌雄同体。五月天
6. 约翰蓝侬。五月天
7. 雨眠。五月天
8. 拥抱。五月天
9. 牙关。五月天
10. 赌神。五月天
11. 闯。五月天
12. 永远的永远 [你要去那 里 LIVE]。五月天
13. 明白 [你要去那里 LIVE]。五月天
14. IM IN LOVE [你要去那里 LIVE] 。GLAY FEAT 五月天
15. 舞女。五月天VERSION
16. 终结孤单LIVE。五月天
17. 温柔 [还你自由] 。五月天
18. 武装 [灵魂REMIX] 。五月天
19. 相信 [北京 FH]。五月天
20. 轧车 [FINAL HOME LIVE] 。五月天
21. 晚安，地球人 [SFH LIVE 版] 。五月天
22. 倔强[SFH LIVE 版]。五月天
23. 我爱夏天。[SFH LIVE 版]
24. TOGETHER WITH YOU。士杰
25. 痛哭的人。伍佰/阿亮/谚明
26. 爱我别走。张震岳
27. 恶作剧。王蓝茵
28. 四面楚歌。周董
29. 夜曲。周董
30. 瓦解。周董
31. 倒带。周董
32. WAITING FOR YOU。胡颜滨
33. 频率。苏打绿
34. 南海姑娘。梁静茹
35. DREAM。原卫觉醒
36. 挪威的森林。伍佰
37. 泪桥。伍佰
38. 独立。蜜雪微棋
39. 零。柯有伦
40. WAKE UP。柯有伦
41. 末日之恋。张智成
42. COME TOGETHER。THE BEATLES
43. IMAGINE 。JOHN LENNON
44. 破晓。南拳妈妈
45. 坐在巷口的那对男女。自然卷
46. SELF。陈奇珍
47. 天灰。SHE
48. 爱让一 切都对了。吴宗宪
49. 我们。ENERGY
50. 出嫁。林志玄


麦来乱无缘的人，麦搁来乱去爱别人。
亲爱你甘有听阮讲，亲爱到底是好不好。
我没钱没成就但是我有梦，我很狂我很疯我为自己活。
没有原因为什么一定要有原因，有人到了七十岁还问原因。
与其让你了解我，我宁愿我是一个谜，一个解不开的难题。
能不能暂时把你的勇气给我，在梦想快消失的时候。
又搁是落雨的暗眠。
让我享受这感觉我是孤傲的蔷薇，让我品尝这滋味纷乱世界的不了解。
等待后面是等待，更沉默的等待。然后咬紧了牙关，等待更多的等待。
一个上帝怎么能抵挡一万种的贪欲。
把我的灵魂装进纸箱寄送到天堂。
不管按怎笑按怎哭按怎眠梦，永远的永远我是彼个人。
我矛盾的心，不愿反复的猜，希望你能明白。
心情好心情坏怎么开始怎么办，你有的不爽让我来分担。
你的眼中藏著什么我从来都不懂。没有关系你的世界就让你拥有，不打扰是我的温柔。
深呼吸，深呼吸。生存都需要冷静。
那幸福太容易，让我不敢相信。
多害怕，在未来，人类对一切习惯。
当我和世界不一样，那就让我不一样。
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤。
这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明。
我不知道我有没有勇气，拆下他们的面具。
跳动的世界里找你的频率，静止也不休息，抓住你的呼吸。
你说真心总是可以从头，真爱总是可以长久，为何你的眼神还有孤独时的落寞。
宁愿，孤独，懒的再去想谁。
为你活下来，决定疯狂的爱，没有遗憾。
闭上眼睛，忍住泪，别哭泣。
You may say Im a dreamer, But Im not the only one.

Maybe it was the lyrics.
Maybe it was the tune.
Maybe it was the surroundings.

But im sure it was a feeling.

Thank you to all the musicians who bothered to put so much effort into the music…


:: Many stuff I learned in 2005 ::
1] People are not as simple as what they seem to be
2] Do not hate anyone. Its not worth your time and energy to do so
3] John Lennon died of gunshots… by a fan.
4] Take and give
5] Lean from your mistakes… and really LEARN, not juz talk talk and leave it there to rot
6] Life is full of your own choices and you are the one who decided which path to take eventually, or should I say in another way is that, the decisions you make pave the way you are going to take in the future.
7] Mayday REALLY can 呼风唤雨… trust me. From the masa typhoon to the rain be4 SFH… really… Coincidences don’t happen that often de lo~
8] There are many people who care about you. Take more time to notice them!
9] Smoking is really a DARN bad habit
10] Friend is someone who bothers to put in the effort to point out your faults and mistakes even if it does risk the friendship.
11] The power of Tech Crew…
12] I know that im half adult liaoz. Muz b more mature. Come on! Don’t lose ur chun zhen leh! Somethings… ur so called ’adult n mature’ thinking way will juz worsen the situation and your life. Its not a sin to live on the wild side once a while de lar!

13] Practicability wins out to fashion. Esp when ur studying in a poly
14] My whole family is of the same temper, juz that my ma refuses to face the truth oni nia~
15] Hokkien songs really does sound quite good. Namely techno hokkien songs… hahaha… can bring out the ‘High’-ness in people.
16] I rather to use my heart to think at certain times rather than using ur mind…
17] Pro-Creation is Important for survival.
18] Time, is not a barrier to friendship. Your mental self are.
19] Without them I may not be as depressed as I may be now. Without them I may not die, but im sure I’ll not be as happy as Im now.
20] CAnt see does not mean problem does not exist.



:: Quotes ::
1. 每个人都是寂寞的个体。
2. 感觉是不需 要理由，时间，原因，对或错来发生和解释的。
3. 即然月亮和星星都?在.?然?心是一定的
4. SO 感人!
5. if u treasure then u will make sure u stay around long enuf to see us get old and die naturally, not us see u leave the world so young.
6. 我哭了。因为我是个幸福的憨人。
7. Wats Teh Problems?
8. 我的的故事，不会就这样结束。。。
9. 在这一 秒，快乐最重要
10. 千万个理由也抵不过一个感觉



Today is the last day of 2005.
I don’t know what to say.
Time has certainly lived up to its name.
It really passed very fast.
But what can we do?

Happy new year.
Happy 2006.

p.s. Yanming’s getting engaged tomorrow.

Have you ever?

Seen fingers flying over the guitar? Should see it… live’s luan shi fu sheng. My 2nd best present. In line with jiali’s viva love and sk, nenx’s Time machine. First? No first…

Their perf

Ok lah~ I admit… live does not mean perfect surroundings, equipment, voices… aiya~ mr.chen is human leh… what expected of him to perform 100% well ar… the feeling is more impt. I like the interaction in ga chia… once again. =) and I saw him crouching behind the speakers singing the he yin again… hahahahaha…. Yep… mr.Chen did not shave properly again. Somebody give him a razor can or not? Hehe… this I cannot stand… esp when you are fair… it shows… a lot ok?! i…caught ym arraigning his hair. Again. And… when they close in on shi tou’s fingers when he was solo-ing… guess wat I noticed?

His wedding ring! Muahahahax…..

Today: had lunch with tese at ajiseh. Moive with jiali. Mind café playing games with sam n jiali.

Movie: qing tian da sheng
Again I say its NOT a lame moive. it being a comedy does not mean it is lame. [this is to sam… cuz im really pissed off at that… sorry but no sorry~] but I admit the tang seng is not the usual kind you can see around… farnie ar! Esp when sun wukong they all was made to dance with him… and wukong was padding his teacher… as to the monk falling in love… I think tang seng was rite about one. His love is for all beings. Since he loves all. What more is one girl? But… when he fought to die for her… when all the heavenly beings… they shld b ashamed at how they were all behaving… Love is not to meant to be thought with mind and felt with reasons… its meant to be felt and thought with the heart. Its supposed to be not ideal. Not spotless. Not perfect. Not… bound by rules and reasons and responsibility. You lie to all. But you cant lie to yourself.
By the way… chen bo lin is cute… =P

As for the café… is it juz be or they are all acting VERY weirdly? Watever~

Thankies: Julian. Maybelline. Miang Jie. Rachel. Zhen Ying. Li Peng. Samantha. Tese. Jiali. ShuHui. Mui Jie. Sufen. Clara. Pei Rong. Yali. Nenx. Sk. Mayday. Nenx’s anata.

No I missed nobody. I remember… please do take that in mind.

i juz recieved a VERY good birthday present...

I HEARD...
Jue Jiang...
on nenx's anata's blog...

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
God Bless you all.

Be4 I start... juz nw, went shopping with miang sis n both my sis... den went settlers' cafe.. had damm lots of fun... alot of things which are troubling you mah... juz dont think about it and hav fun... allow urself to hav fun... i hav concluded that part of my WeRid MoOd is becuz of turning 17... and all... suddenly was struck by the words in er wo zhi dao... in your youth, the person which u fell in love with... was really that guy or yourself? youth is the period of so dammit uncertainies... something which i dont like alot but still have to survive... hope i can. thankies [miang jie, rach, yuerong n xinrong, samantha, lipeng, jiali, zhenying, tese, clara, julian]

YES LaR... itS my Birthday... hehehehe.... so muz endure me and read finish~

:: Memorable MayDay-ED Events of 2005 ::

15Jan Alive Concert

Close enuf or not?

08April NKF perf

will forever rem ninchan's ''Huang niu ni hao SHUAI!'' the apperance of THE cow

05May 050505 Forum dinner


4June Got my FH disc from Lovefool


6Aug Concerts By the Bay [announcement of SFH date]


26Aug Just My Pride


9Oct FH/Just My Pride SG promo

He really is a nice guy... i muz say that trip he really ver feng guang... hahahaha.... wunt lose to his bro [tat cow] de hor!

4Nov Ashin SHA [Singapore Hit Awards] [Best Band. Best Composing Artiste. Best Album Production]

no need to explain much... but his voice really sucked tat nite.. i still want to see his expresion when they got BeST AlbuM ProDucTioN leH!!!

5Nov BeiJing FH

He REALLY DID IT MAN! he really did... he cried... she cried... i too... =)

11Nov TaiPei 101 Highest concert

do ya noe its really FreaKing TALL there?

10Dec FH [Singapore Final Home]

some memories will be precious forever... esp when it was the 1st... more to COME!

Credits n many thanks to whoever it mite concern cuz most i forgot where i found it liaox... sorry~

Known so many people from all this thingys. Harlo~ we are not that simple and idol crazy. My conclusion is, 我们都是倔强的小孩。Becuz deep in our hearts there is something we believe in and will not ever give up. Our common similarity is that when we get too tired there’ll be mayday’s music to comfort and give strength. Beware as we all人不可冒像~ If you think its all brainless… I pity you. Coz you don’t even have anything to believe and hold faith in. like what I say… don’t always live in the typical image of Rockers. As to the world rockers are always supposed to be angry of the world and believes that the whole world owes them a living. Come on! We’re living in the 21st century leh! Nobody owes u anything. 摇滚 is supposed to tell the whole world of love and peace. Actually all music does that. Juz some idotic people make the wrong use of it. Hump~ 我知道我只不过是个渺小的憨人。世界不会因为我说的一些话而有所改变。既然不会改变就让我说啦!
Sometimes I really don’t like feeling so 矛盾… but so very saddening is that they are like that. Some times I prefer to listen to the CDs… undisturbed. The feeling of loneliness and emptiness. but I muz admit… some songs I cant stand… there’s always tis period I either refuse to listen finish or totally dun listen songs… even if they are always in my mp3. 倔强，憨人，人生海海，麦来乱… sudden I’ve forgot… cuz… sometimes, sometimes… cuz when I don’t like the feeling which comes with is lah~ but… the time will comes when I get the urge to go and DIG out and listen… hahaha… but on the other hand, certain songs muz be listened with a lot of people, in a screaming crowd, in a xtremely HIGH crowd. I don’t know what im toking now.
Another thing, seeing them in person actually makes not much difference to me. But the feeling is good when u Q-ed for so many times… mayb to them ur juz the 1025th person they hav to shake hand with, or the 2503th CD they hav to sign. But… if u never had been there… u know to a person it may juz b the first time, the only time, a so anticipated experience… they make it memorable for u… don’t expect much but at least they smile and say thank you. To each n every… even as much as I abit dun like the term groupie [like say we chase and like cuz we’re juz plain brainless] but… at least now I can accept called a groupie… if ur a groupie u’ll know too. =)I have gotten the bad habit of explaining myself becuz of Mayday… sometime even if u misunderstood I don’t care… but… To this certain thing… sorry I cannot help…
And… I have met so many nice people during my encounters with mayday… so very nice people… so nice to have friends all around whom even if you are not ever close initially but… music and a same interest really helps so lots… when you start, you cant stop. We may come from different parts of the world, have different lifestyles, face different problems… but we all believe in the same thingy. We listen to the same 5 people. And we come together when needed… hehehehehe… tis, you’ll never understand unless you join in us and share the same motivation we all have. Yea, you know who you are… muacks n hugs till we meet again next time… meanwhile, all of us have our own PMS to deal with *Grins* [Peirong, yijun, jolleen, zuoen, ninchan, ruojin, jingzhen... bah bah bah... hehehehe... and of cuz the thingy which have been giving me mental strength... Ta Da! mdmd forum! *super lame-o i know*]

slowly bit by bit lar... not everything together u'l Faint. even if i know ur all dont read... oni like 2 or 3 will... but anyway, these are my tots... juz let me have some place to record down...

went Zoo today...

with nen, sk, and nen's anata. ok lar~ i admit that he's a nice person. hehehe.... but anyway, met at ang mo kio mrt. took bus138. there... decided to go for the park hopper thingy. both zoo n nite safari tixs. plus nite safari tram= $36... super duper diaoz~ have been spending WAY too much money liaox. den... Zoo... hahaha... actually juz wanted to fulfil the wish of walking the whole zoo. cuz bu gan yuan that last time oni walk abit with rachel they all. treetops, otter, white tiger, pigs, hippo, baboon, elephants, polar bear, rhino, aniaml show. durin the animal was raining at first abit... den ok liaox. the seal... err... or was it sea lion... is there a diff anyway? but... perf was terrific. even we abit no high lar... hehehe... den... kfc at children's world. was rain-ING all the time lo.. mornin still big BIG sun.. super diaox. slacked at the children'w world til the rain stopped.

den... continued. lions, tigers... super diaoz. we keep hearing about animals matting and all... yar i know. pro-creation is VERY important. and more impt if u use safety precautions n rem to try finish all the flavours. nah... im not skeptical of life.. juz that i dont feel anything from life. anyway.. there are really alot of wild peacocks around in the zoo... at sentosa oso ar~ took many many pictures. laughed, joked n lame-ed. i was quite surprised... that i endured so long of my headache... since morning... haiz~ Zoo is some place really meant to be with children. many children. it may b tiring but its easier to get HIGH. puh-lease. how long since u went to the zoo liaox. den... 5+ came out n took bus to chua chu kang... lot1. bought bugs repellent. drinks. yougurt. fries. saw the hou niao OST at there... xing tong!!! cannot buy le arz!~ anyway... nenx's anata sinned by helping us buy liquior... muahahaha... sorry~ juz gt the urge...went back to night safari... still raining... diaoz. went in and had to wait for the rain to stop. took the tram. saw... the usual stuff... i like the black. cools and calms people down and makes u think. we are all the type: 越夜越美丽... and the show: dammits Snakes... koax~ makes people scream too MUCH. pls rem to SIT AT THE 3RD ROW of the creatures of the nite show if u get to go there... dun flinch when u hear screaming ar... hehehehehe.... today i saw: one blur gal. one blur guy. one... thinking too much.. who seems like happily fakey happy... i saw... one cute girl, many cutey animals, and... one cute couple... diaoz~ =) if u'r in love, i congratulate u lah~ the most impt thingy is to be happy. to make changes and scarfices is impt but the most imptly still is to be urself... if the urself is wat the other party likes most... isnt it if nt y he/she fell in love with u meh? watever... happy jiu ke yi le... i cannot and hav no right to comment... all will be happy for all. muacks... no more energy to write liaox~ im more devoted to my blog than more devoted to TV [except wanyu lah] and dun hav anata to be devoted to... lucky or unlucky...
been there done that lah~
anyway,

GAME [Kenna peirong 点名]
is to... name 8 things u look for in ur anata:

[1]Muz be a MAN [super diaoz i know]
[2]know when to think with mind n when follow ur heart
[3]Juz need to hav the ablilty to 养我
[4]健 康
[5]Dont SMOKE [totally cannot. socially or not. wat the ass. smoking IS juz smoking] or gamble [abit can] heavily....
[6]Muz be able to drink [den wedding dun need b afraid liaox. =)]
[7]Can tok to... cuz dun expect him to know 100% wat im thinkin cuz at times i oso dunnoe wat im thinkin
[8]Passionate... hehehe...
tis is the only wad i can think of now liaox~
passin the game on to the next 5ppl: Maybelline, Samantha, Jiali [tot u very sianx?], ZhenYing, SK [juz wants to know oni. muahahaha....]

to jiali: hope ur ok frm ur fever le ar~ n thankies for the viva love
to pr: i dun think many ppl gt read my blog so i oni named 5... i dun think many ppl know Fantasy is yurong ba? hehehehe....
to sk n nenx: thankies for the time machine...
to sk, nenx, and nen's anata: thanks for today =D

Give me the Busan International Rock Fest 2001... and i tell you still they sound best live, during 2001. i think that time they music which came out wld me most near to our life now. cuz we are facing too many seperations now.... and things which are coming and changing non-stop til u cant catch ur breath. yep! stone n him now turing rounds in the kio wa teh ek mia... now is feng kuang shi jie. YAR! he's goin the thingy which oni me n zuo en was doin SFH when others was high-ing... clappin hands to dar beat. the peak of youth was at people life ocean wild.

[疯狂世界]词/曲[阿信]

如果说了后悔
是不是一切就能倒退
回忆多么美
活着多么狼狈
为什么这个世界
总要叫人尝伤悲
我不能了解 也不想了解

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦 那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你 发现了我
也别将我挽回

想了你一整夜
再也想不起你的脸
你是一种感觉
写在夏夜晚风里面

青春是挽不回的水
转眼消失在指间
用力的浪费
再用力的后悔

treasure youth as it is now... save ur complains for later when you have no more chance of repeating the silly things u are still entitled to do now...

party-ed at my cousin house... drank... abit... scream-ed... cuz gt md on TV. angry-ed... cuz of my bo biao mother who likes to do and complain alot... Jingle-ed... cuz juz wanted to add to the noise made by all the kids... Eat-ed... curry, noddles, cake, choc fondue, salad... take-ed... photos and videos of everybody which im still struggling to put up... bless-ed.. everyone who was there and said merry chirstmas... cheer-ed... cuz my cousin was on tv for the ch5 yest nite chirstmas show cuz she was in the choir... i think tats bout it.
wore my red FH tee the beijing one out to ps carefour... saw junting on the way. chatted... nothing much. oh yar... i think ning cant make it for the sentosa liaox~ haiz... was juz sumthing i promised ning... my niece lar~ promised her i'l bring her out be4 her sch starts... next yr pri.1 liaox mah... diffcult life for little kids mah... shiver once thinkin of was she needs to face there... hahaha.... if u dont know im very protective of my nieces de.... they ery cute ok! hahaha... i think they both kenna ua all this aunties spoiled...
add on to yest nite:
yest... after jiali left to chase her turkey... me, nen, sk went to sk hse mah... in the end.... sk dint went to her ah mah's hse... we toked lor... rubbished alot around. and.... from md, to masa's chirstmas mgs on imayday, to my ji shi-s pics, anata-s and oral sex... hahahahaha.... frogive me cuz i sinned too much last nite tokin bout rubbish topics... but it was worth it lah~ so long never tok liaox... sorry ar... long post again... oh yar... ljuan askin me to sing K... waa cow eh~ my voice now... half GONE liaox cannot even speak clearly loh! suer diaoz~ merry chirstmas everyone!
if you haven buy my bdae gift yet... GO AND BUY NOW.. muahahaha... i dont care if i hav sinned tis yr... i dont care... I WANT MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!! hahaha... i know liaox. when im 18 cannot ask for bdae present liaox... now still gt chance faster ask le... hahahaha....

Oh yar...
He Screamed:
We Are MayDay
I Love You
Bye Bye
to all at busan... for someone who says unusually productions instead of unusual productions, you shld b really touched to hear tis... hehehe... ok im bein evil here....

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!

[圣诞夜惊魂]
Theme Song For Xmas~

气氛突然就变得有点冷 我真笨
说起话像雪人
制造浪漫变成耍冷
朋友都说我长的很诚恳 又天真
傻笑傻到出神
说完再见突然你就惦起脚跟

你的吻 我的惊魂
故事就突然发生
你笑着 我说怎么可能
原来世上真的有圣诞老人

日子过的闷闷闷闷闷闷闷 七个闷
一周七天都闷
爱情快来解救灵魂
感谢有你让平淡的世界 加了分
你的一个眼神
我的心中千军万马勇敢狂奔

你的吻 我的惊魂
故事就突然发生
你笑着 我说怎么可能
原来世上真的有圣诞老人

会把爱的奇迹给勇敢的人

today.... met up jiali to visma. bought. viva love, people life ocean wild, the mv+karaoke VCD, zhi zu VCD. bought damm lots stuff! all chirstmas present to myself! except that the viva love was wad jiali gave me for my birthday present. HAPPIE! den... even though i shao sia oreadi but still went k-ing in the end. sang... high-ed... esp when there's another person to help u sing ci xiong tong ti... can TOTALLY high... like wad i did on sFH. the yong yuan bu shuo zai jian. me, nen n sk sang... den got many memories with it. and... erm... xiang xin. yar yar~ i teared again. mei ban fa~ wen rou... den go this cafe tok tok n eat dinner. mostly toked bout md stuff to nen. cuz sk n jiali all heard be4 liaox. yup~ im a md groupie lah. bo bian. but... md is really a good topic when u dunnoe wat to tok. hahaha... esp with me tis kind once start cannot stop de. yar i know. unless u can come up with something u7 can talk non-stop n get everybody engrossed listenin... yar i know the evil look u gave me lar~ yurong's unstoppable when it comes to md. den... went tis fashion. den jiali went hm to capture her turkey be4 it flies away. went sk hse. den... tok tok~ at last for so long went up msn hav a look. like oreadi thousand yrs never been on msn liaox. den saw ninchan n... she gave me this:





Guo Xi is so darn cute... =)

to yest nite, magic of love:
religion is a very powerful thingy. it is destructive, but it oso brings alot of love and hope to people... and they are more happy becuz they believed, and know others, so many others are oso benifiting from wat they believes oso... if you tink its naive... i think your the one who's naive.

but anyway... shld not sin tonite...
Merry ChirsTmas Everybody!!!

Shit~ my voice is really in the pits now. juz nw... went k-ing with sherry n sufen. den came my hse slack. den went max pavalion. yup i saw the uncle frm the tech crew. no, i did not see ian. the show call magic of love. was organized by sherry's church, FCBC. actually i've seen it be4 lah. at the 2nd concerts by the bay. be4 machi's perf. so... ok lor~ its quite good actually lah. juz tat i was too buzy admiring the celling. and surroundings. so much diff frm FH mah~ yupz. saw the FH poster on the wall oso. PROUD~ den finish den came hm lo. still got wat. sianx. later goin k-ing with the ex-G3 members. anyway... dun expect too much frm me. i oreadi lost my voice. merry chirstmas eve ar~ i dun think im coutdown-ing. since everybody all so sianx. diaoz~

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冠佑给大家的公开信

谢谢大家的关心。。。
北京演唱会上我鼓起勇气向行芝求婚
而她也答应了
这是我最幸福的事。。。
我流泪 是因为我是一个最幸福的憨人
想起从与她相识开始这段过程中
我们遇到许多障碍 有笑也有泪
终于 可以受到双方家人的认可
与朋友们的祝福是我们最大的喜悦
现在让我勇敢的说

虽然我不是一个浪漫的人
但是我绝对是可以给她一辈子幸福的人
虽然我不是一个完美的人
但是我会为了她努力追求一个完美的未来

现在我也即将与行芝与2006年元月1日订婚
感谢家人与朋友的爱护
也谢谢歌迷和各界媒体朋友的关心
这是给我们最大的幸福

谢谢! 我会幸福的^____^


yep~ muz b xing fu orh! very xing fu! the words in red... cuz i oso am a gong lang. and i oso teared when he proposed... never fail to let little things touch you easily. it's not a sign of weakness... it makes you more human.
juz now when i was watchin tv. i saw the lead singer of this quite long ago rock band called dong fang kuai che. sorry but they really no my era. but anyway, this guy said his business was more profitable than singing. den cai kang yong asked him tat time dong fang kuai che oso very popular mah rite? but as compared to now shld oso wld b earn less than mayday rite? i was tellin my ma, as if md earned alot. oni on the outside oni~ all the $$$ in the end all goes back the same way. liddat cannot ar! den wife how? hehehe.... sometimes my ma really does surprise me with her tots on md. she said they will not de lar. since they are there playing, not want to earn their living totally on the thingy. watever watever~
today last paper. went shopping with shuhui at ochard. window shopping. bought nothing but was like damm tempted. but in the end still decided to spent $$$ on the CDs as chirstmas gift for myself. goin to buy CD loh! so happie~ the skirt can wait. my dad's CNY shirt can oso wait. muahahaha... since be4 and after chirtmas all got sale de mah~
for sk: ur welcome. later paper muz jiayou dont work n worry too much.
for zy: watever that happens... i know tat everyting finally will come to an end. but afterall the suituation im not clear so not really in the position to help or comment... juz... take good care of urself. i'm here anytime~

yep... i've been alive tis few days. juz tat never post. did i ever mention? since now my msn is dead~ the only way to check if im online is to go mdmd forum. if im there, that means im online.
events comin up:
1.Zoo next tues w li,sk,nen. others? i dun think anyone's comin
2.sentosa next wed with class. but shuhui's nt goin... sianx~
3.K-ing. 2mr with sufen. sat w jiali. mon w lijuan. will i ever get sick of k-ing? no ba? hehehe...
4.Countdown [supposingly if enuf ppl go] to chirstmas
5.magic show at Expo. Max palivion. 2mr w sherry n sufen.
to speak the truth... im abit dreadin to go back that place... very terrified~ cuz the memories will hit you especially hard there... mmm.... they are at cheng dou. if im not wrong. as to who i think will get married next? i think is gs... even though i want to get married first. muahahaha... hehez~ today's last paper. later goin for movies w shuhui n mayb dar class. c hw lo. and... i oreadi start typing my end of yr report. hahhaha... watch out for it. its goin to b a very long post.
Ah Ken ROCKED last nite on kang yong dang jia~ hahaha... he's cute!

changed my blogskin.
i lurve RED arh....
color of ROCK.
cuz i have nothing better to do mah. isnt it? retyped n edited some of my profile.
everybody's goin abroad.
bon voyage to sam... tonite. and maybelline tis thurs.
guai shou is goin to be on the TIME's cover for the people of the year~
time to globalize ar!

有一些无声的话语，
只有寻梦的人才听得见。
=陈升=

在演唱会上要说话是很苦恼的事，不是因为没有话说。
是因为我觉得你们都懂。
=阿信=

我不在乎你唱的多好。
我只在乎你快不快乐。
=陈升 to 奶茶=

不知月将下
不惜柴米茶
不怨不悔不听话
不识青春无王法

no lah~ i dont hav the thing for poetry... read it somewhere~ dont know wat it means but it feels.... weird.
juz werid...
ppl... remember to treasure life ar~

had my oopg paper. sucked. dun ask. zoo next tues. 27dec. YES... is to CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY. bring a present along. if not you'll die a terrible death. muahahaha~ im glad sk patched up. and. i'll not be glad if the endin is not good [choy~] but anyway~ did i rem to say this?

love all of ya loads...

oh yar.
yanming getting married on the 01-01-06
好幸福 ORH~ =)

tis is my 105th post
present to myself on tis special occasion: best memorable outfit of SFH

da ta! the oni outfit which my mind had the OS ''woa~ he really does look great in that. esp when he was piao-ing his bass'' [imagining pr rolling her eyes~ hehehehe....]

anyway... today worked. again. was kenna waken up halfway during my nap. dunnoe who the mamy poko girl there keep gettin sick. diaoz~ anyway. when i was taking mrt there, saw ppl wearin sports outfit. den dawned on me today got karen's class n thought of julian. den... turn behind and saw him. diaoz~ anyway... he seemed very depressed lo. bout his team n all... mmm... in life there are much things which will turn out the way least expected. dont put ur hopes too high... but always it wouldnt hurt to believe ba? i know... mmm... when you meet too many nice people, your perspective of them, and your expectations of them would b higher... and... for most of the time you'll b diaasppointed lo. cuz... people hav their flaws and all. things appear perfect but in actual fact they're not. rem that lah~
and... talked on the phone with tese. yup... i want to get married soon la~ is it really that BIG a surprise to hear it? cuz both sk n tese's reaction were the same... mmm.... i juz yearn for love. people... dont complain if you have things to be worried about. and dont juz say im juz an idiot who dont know wats goin on and like juz shuo feng liang hua. i know wats its like to b worried and to have things and problems hoverin around waitin you to solve them. a carefree life does not really seems to b as simple as it is. look frm another perspective lah~ at least yours is much more exciting than mine.

i almost needed it.

我需要你的体温

i almost did.

虽然此刻我一点也不觉得寒冷

as i stood in the dark alley behide the shelves...

我感到巨大的饥饿
虽然无聊满满的撑涨我的灵魂

i closed my eyes and tried to conjure up his image.

相恋不能再倾国倾城
倾倒你心里越来越冷坚固的灵魂

tis' hard to imagine the warmth...

此刻你也就别再等

but the excitment was there.

不能再等 不能再等 让热情变冷

even if it was juz imagination.

就让我 吻你 吻你 吻你 直到天明
就让我 穿过你的外衣 然后你的内衣
就让我 吻你 吻你 吻你 直到天明
就让我 刺探你 最深深 深处你的秘密
就让我 吻你 吻你 吻你 直到天明
就让我穿 过你的外衣 然后你的内衣
就让我 吻你 吻你 吻你 直到天明
别再等待 不曾降临 的真理
黎明之前 只要和你 尽情嬉戏

mmm...

我不在乎 你的姓名 你的明天 你的过去 你是男是女
我是如此 的清醒 不打算离去 也不打算 真的爱你

like wad i said. the first memory of him used to get me horny.
muah.ha.ha.ha.
i must repeat again.

imagination is such a darn good thing.

when you dont hav it.you'l hunger and yearn for it more.
the touch.
the feeling.
the warmth.
the closeness.
the imtimitacy.

你也许避我唯恐不及你也许把我当作异形

but i juz love it.

相恋不能再倾国倾城
倾倒你心里越来越冷坚固的灵魂
此刻你也就别再等 不能再等 不能再等 让热情变冷...

ok~ tis is after influence of many mnay ppl. come on! 2006 has not come to an end yet! there's still 2 more weeks k? super diaoz~ i refuse to post on my 2005. yet.
anyway. another bout of influence from ppl's blog:
last week tis time. tis very time. i gurantee you i knew excatly wat i was goin tis very moment.
i was tearing.
notice i dint use the term crying?
i was, tearing so damm hard. 10mins later last week tis nite i was still. and 20 mins later last week tis nite... i was staring blanking at the stage. i still rem it clearly. as if i'll b transported there tis very moment if i closed my eyes again.
i dont think i'l dare to sleep later. mmm....
worked today at suntec mamy poko. sometimes. children are so very cute. becuz of the adults stadning by their side. mmm...
i want to get married soon.
anyone avalible?

pls go and watch er zuo ju zhi wen, ep11, the 51:11 th minute. cuz~ i found back the same feeling i got when i first saw him. with the lyrics. and music. and the floor. yikes~ humans... get your male and female hormones MOVING!

edited. 1.51am.
i almost hate myself for doin this~

this is my 100th post.

when enuf becomes not enuf. you hav to lie to urself many that its enuf.
i dun need a time machine.
or.
yes i do.
to travel to the future.
and regret that i have traveled there.
to find a even more dissappointing sight.
sometimes. you juz need the slap across the face to make u wake up.
life wunt wait for u.
ever.
so many stuff.
so many words.
so many things.
so many unsaid.

他说过。。。
我she me [pardon me for pinyin cuz cannot type tis 2words]都不用说，
因为我相信你都会知道。

陈信宏。不要骗人了啊~

我不知道不明了。放手，也许是最好的结果。但他一定不是。 我会大声的对你说。

如果有一天。
你跟我说，你要离开我了。
我，
不是强求，也，
不会挽留。
只因为，那是我所能给你的，
最后的温柔。

他说的。
我在加。

我，
是个很犯贱的人。
虽然知道很痛，
却还是。。。。
你，在笑我嘛?
难道。。。
你不是也和我相同。。。

im reminded of one person. we know him as one, but he is know to others by another name. he sucked. okie... as in 'sucked' sucks. dont scream out how painful you are living in... cuz you chose to be IN that suituation. nobody forced you to. if you want to 'wait'... and not hav any actions. juz shut up about the pain. its juz a free gift which comes along. paiTuo~ imature adults. watever watever.
to zy: thanks for the talk we had juz now. hoped tat it helped you. i dunnoe whether it did or not... hoped that it did... ok? thanks so much for hearin me out.
to sk: thanks oso. at least some small things you do, may seem little and unsignificant to you but it would really go a long n accect ppl deeply. at least i dint felt that extra anymore. thanks.
to nen: live. believe. and survive. hope you can do it. i believe in you.
to maybelline, sam n crowd: i dont know what kind of feelings i shld use to face yali 2m. TMD. WTFreaking ass...
to mayday: thank you.
to my mdmd forum: thank you.
to my mdmd friends: thank you.
i suddenly feel very blessed to have lived 16yrs, full of sufferings, sadness and... happiness cuz i met n survived n experienced everyone of you.
thank you so much everybody~

tis is funny. but im not in the farnie mood now. alot of things. when said. may cause people to kill each other. humans are juz lame creatures.
esp when there are stupid racist people around. come on! wat kind of generation izzit oreadi? and u still are supportive of racisim? you must be sick. what muz be done to get tis fact into your mind?

i have a confession to make.
from part of the posts i made on forum and... what i thought about.
COME ON AND READ THIS.
i admit i did alot of crazy stuff. i admit i behaved like an idol crazy person.
and. AND [READ THIS] i INSIST that my mentalty is not like an idol crazy here. smirk at this? read again. you know how crazy i can become. if when i saw them in person i was HALF THAT CRAZY. hahaha...mayday wont even have survived the trip to the airport. i mean it. MAYDAY. again as what i said. it juz another 5 men who happens to be so fortunate to have the ablilty to make music that touched everybody's hearts. I know they did not touch some of you. if they managed to do it to everyone in the world. they would really, i would really treat them as GODS. but they dint. isnt it? if they did affect everyone on earth, then there wont be wars and pain and bombing, juz love and peace around the world. death would still be around but at least the average lifespan of everyone will be much much longer. at least. some things if said out liaozstill what... i dun intend for that the whole world should understand. if u mis-understood...usually i'll juz let it be. juz felt that tis should b corrected. if you juz think im juz another LITTLE girl who thinks Ashin is so DAMM shuai~ den 4get it... and sumore if you read liaoz not guilty... go and do some soul searching.. i'l b surprised you gt face to come face me ar... Friend. hump~
anyway Jiali:
i speaking in a quite pissed off tone. i dont know what you are thinkin. i dont know and nobody HELL WILL KNOW unless you dammit say it out. did you go read carefully between lines of what i wrote ever? or you are juz like yali who juz sees MAYDAY or any thing you ASSUME which links to them and ignore the whole PACKET totally? i thought you understood at first. den i realized you did not. i realized you did not bother to understand. i juz left it that way juz i knew you juz prefered it rotting it that way. i dint force. i dint say. i shut up as what you expected. dont expect me to do anything more. as compared to you... i tell you what i think. YOU, my dear dear jiali, look calm and composed and... dead... cuz you juz live the life you prefer and want to... DEMANDS we follow your way to live and DEMANDS we tell you 'hey! your way of life is so damm good!' I dont know why im tellin you all this stuff but.....somebody ought to tell you this. ALL. not that im being nosiy. you want to hear the dammit truth? even if forces us to break the 'friendship' we had...its worth it. to scarfice friendship to make you see the truth. its becuz NOBODY CARED ENUF TO TELL. life is full of your own choices. make it and not regret. THIS IS for jiali, nen, ,maybelline, teck kiang... firstly. and secondly, everyone who take the time and bothers to read and after read liaoz will think abit and ponder over life. but if ur juz another... treatin it as some useless rantings... yurong is so very dissappointed with all of ur~

im happy. depression have not struck yet. cuz this time i let it go quietly. mayb from the very moment they stepped onto our grounds, or even maybe much early from the zhi zu promo, i started preparing mentally for this period of time. the whole FH i jz let myself go, and let loose juz i dint want any regrets for my 1st md concert. to think i cried... nah.. is 'teared' for 5 times is really a feat liaox. chuang. yong bao. xiang xin. gong lang. jue jiang. i felt it. i know many others too. felt the glimse of pure happiness in everyone's eyes. and also in theirs. im very proud of SG fans. the feeling is coming but yet im trying to stop it. trying so hard to snuff out all the possible sparks which may start a big fire. nevermind. let me continue high first. my posts of cuz very long lar~ muz type finish so many memories!
FH ar... memorable juz it was the singapore stop. 8th in the FH world tour. passed: taiwan, LA, san jose, shang hai, beijing. coming up: guang zhou, m'sia, hong kong, japan, final FH taiwan. wo bu xi han. to go to other countries to watch FH. im satisfied with s'pore one. even though i know quite abit of people bu shuang bout this time's perf. come on lar~ afterall its uniquely singapore. how do you definate no good? isnt feeling the most important factor afterall mah? haiz~ even somebody like me who siao siao go listen whole rehersal liaox n know all the songs sequences like can be so very high and touched... why cant you be? foreign FH... it for other people. when they come here, the main focus is US. singapore. sorry but i really very ai guo now. anyway... i was browsing tru the locals newspaper scans i saw the unusually productions... [kkk... sorry is unusual production. kenna affect by Ashin] and i saw the uncle Boss there gam bei with md leh! woa... he really quite BIG in position hor? diaoz~ hahaha... this time FH know le damm lot more forum people. like turn here turn there all are forum people. imagine like so many rows at A2 are all forum people! nice suprise. ngeez, spotlite, so many. woa... really is WOA. hahaha.... samantha ar... ur wunt know de. mayb people juz think im too trusting of people. juz know not long oso can high. like on sat's rehersal. so many of uz juz sit together. juz chat around and high around. even if we juz met oso can hav something to talk about. and yar.... i want to turn into a true blue md fan... hahaha... hahaha.... almost. cuz the whole of FH i never did once screamed that guai shou was very shuai juz becuz he was near. paituo. the only time md is shuai is when they re with their instruments. juz imagine the amount of concentration. Ashin is being nomiated as the prince is juz becuz he fits more into the normal view of 'good looking guys'... to survive in china market.. it does not hurt to have a bit of good looks ba? afterall.... the true world may be abit cruel. facts mah~ most of the time they'r juz plain cute. my defination of CUTE: actions, words, expressions which are... cute jiu shi yi zhong gan jue lar! diaoz~ rem that i once told julian about this... i like ke ai de ren. cute which comes from within, not juz the type u see on the surface but yet cant reach to the heart. look around you n u mite juz discover a certain degree of cute-ness in everyone. Everyone, providing that you look carefully enuf. die la~ its a long post again.

i forgot my P.S.
dear god... never in my life did i ever, Ever see naked men so happy de~ and Never in my life so expecting people to come outdoors and smoke. die la die la... yupz. im still not showin any symptoms of the post mayday sydrome... but there was abit signs of it tis morning. im still holding on to the 'HIGH-InG' sydrome of FH... wish me good luck~

i now keep pai huai-ING between forum, blogs, TV... diaoz~ SAW FH news! muahahahaha.... Freaking HIGH. kaoz. so many funny things. so many high things. so many to remember.
Airport- JiShis arrived early. bout 10.30? juz as i reached T2 goin to take skytrain. diaoz. the first thing i reached T1 was CHIONG ar~ but still... dun hav mr. huang shi jie. frm afar saw Him so O-bi-vious. mr. huang niu. wearin pink. and sumore so tall. ok lah~ leeping, yijun, ninchan they all there liaox. got see be4 tech crew so many people send de mah? diaoz~ xiao hou, finally saw him. with the LOVE angmoh. hahahha~ he really eng quite good leh! converse so long with him oso no prob. next time mr.chen hav problems w his eng can look for him instead of masa liaox. ji mao was like... ok lor~ heard tat he was sick. den... jennifer dint dare to do anything to him. but in the end still took 2/3/4/5 photos with him? diaoz~ ninchan ar... take so many photos until huang niu said to her 'you are Stil taking photos ar?' [in chinese and sumthing similar] den we all burst out laughing... muahahahaha... diaoz~ pengz~ we took grp photo with huang niu, xiao hou, the LOVE angmoh, jimao... super diaoz. hav yet to see the photos... all with ninchan. many muacks to ninchan cuz we all using her cam.. hahahahaha... i... took photo with huang niu. cuz partly kenna dragged in by yijun. diaoz~ sumore she dint dare to tap him. i juz walked over and patted him on the shoulder. diaoz. and asked him lar. okie lor~ huang niu seems to be the NEW attraction. nvm. i still prefer mr.huang shi jie. the JiShi-s were like dang jian pai for md be4 they arrive lor. sumore they pai huai there very long. and... oso they had ALOT of luguagge. diaoz. den... i did the same thingy to jimao. patted him and ask him can take photo or not. with yijun. diaoz. he hor! still gave those abit irritated sound. mayb he's sick. but really very sorry i dun hav any much good feelings for him and i dun think he's very shuai or cool... make me see him pref ba. den mayb i'll change my idea of him. the most high was GUO XI! i took photo with him! he is so DARN cute with his weird expressions. sumore he was oso SICk but he dint act as if we irritated him. diaoz~ huang niu i think till the end was abit lar. cuz... everybody wanted to take phot with him. i stopped him quite a few times... muahahahha... and i rem the angmoh, huang niu n xiao hou was outside smoking. diaoz. i was talkin to ruojin, ninchan's friend... was zu zhou-ing them to die early becuz of smoking. muahahahaha... and oso partly cursing the other 2 md who oso smokes. muahahaha... and i still added ppl around them will oso die early [meanin Ashin] EviL. anyway... md came. and went. Ashin was the 1st to pass me, diaoz! he at last niao me le lor! for the past few days. hump~ dun niao bu jiu suan le~ wo you bu shi.... ok... *shuts mouth* den was gou gou n stone. hehehe... i smiled at gou gou and she smiled back. with my bye-s. and i said 'sheng ri kuai le' very loudly. i dun think anybody said that to shi tou today~ diaoz~ den was masa. ym n ms.wang like zoom pass and hide behide masa liddat. den i realized still got one missing! hahha... my OS in the heart was 'hai you duo yi ge! muz b outiside smoking!' diaoz~ bei wo cai zhong. he was kenna dragged to take photo~ but guaishou quite high, keep waving/saying good bye-s to us. my OS 'WHERE THE HELL IS SHI JIE AR!!!!! SHI JIE!! I WANT SHI JIE! HOW CAN LIDDAT!' den me saw... die la... i 4gt her name... they keep calling her ah peh. diaoz. she oso same as me... 'SHI JIE LEH?' but hor... she told me later that one of the staff told them he left early tis mornin 10am. COWZ COWZ COWZ. he and zhang lao shi go honeymoon izzit?~?~ diaoz~
juz copy my post frm forum... lazy to retype
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Dec 10th, 2005, 1:00pm ?IM BACK! FINAL HOME was really... GREAT. hahaha... partly was cuz it was my 1st md concert. unable to explain the whole thingy rite here now... im still smiling over Ashin's eng... and wat they did to stone, the "wo ai xia tian" where they all sang 'xing jia bo mei' and... luan shi fu sheng, ci xiong tong ti, ga chia![hey Hey HeY HEY!!!~], gong lang! [yar they sang GONG LANG]..... when they were singing '晚安地球人' tis was what flashed pass my mind...地球有救了。 因为有五个 ， 还有那么多， 你和我， 都是相信着音乐的憨人。 。 。 hehehehehe..... SUPER HIGH!im so darn proud to be a MAYDAY fan tonite.
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Dec 10th, 2005, 1:11pm ?no... it abit diff. you wanna hear about what they sang or what they DID not? hehehe.... but... THEY JING RAN REALLY DID NOT SING MAI LAI LUAN! NOT EVEN HAV PLAY THE INRO... sucks... but still... muz zhi zu lar~
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Dec 10th, 2005, 1:23pm ?they played the remix version... but Ashin did sing at the end la~ duo xiang yao, zhao dao ni!~ hahaha... anymore? oni qing gong ar? YUPZ I TOTALLY AGREE THAT FH WAS A SUCESS! but mayb cuz after infuence of it being my first concert. no matter where i prefer mine here, at singapore where we belong... hahahaha... wat tokin me... too high liaoz!
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Dec 10th, 2005, 1:50pm ?openin video: yanming dressed up as superman to tell us muz switch off hps, cannot throw lightsticks at them, and muz throw away all the rubbish later.during sun wu kong, they changed the 'fang shou ' to 'shuang jie gun [kuai shi yong jing gu pang!~]'the video which showed stone n monster in their hotel room trying to chang finish their clothes in 2mins time. [ni shou de liao mah?]before rubbish truck they intro-ed the ji shis one by one, monster's- huang niu [who oreadi has a GF], masa's- ji mao [who oso has a GF], stone's- shi jie [whom he thanked and said tat he couldnt live without], finally yanming's- xiao hou [who does not hav a GF, but has a BOYfriend instead.]oso for rubbish truck. supposely the infrnt supposed to hav one part which u'll hear yanming solo. den the crowd was shouting yanming n Ashin was lookin at yanming but he suddenly tured and shouted guai shou's name... hahahahaha... den we chated and made guai shou sing the solo part. during the ga chia 'hey hey hey part' he changed to 'un oh~ ok lah~'guo xi sang 'wo ai xia tian' and chaged the lyrics to 'xin jia bo mei'anymore anymore?
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Dec 10th, 2005, 1:58pm ?hahahaha... the farnie part was he drank red wine using the tea cup! diaoz~ super diaoz.... me and my friend was like shouting 'jiu gui!'oh yar... and during rubish truck masa DID sang 'baby' in the RnB version rite? when they walked to the right side. or was it juz me? did anyone hear hun? cuz... durin rehersal he sang: 'Oh you are my boon sor chia~' in very very RnB version. Was sooooo very funny lor!~i now trying to type down as many things i can rem... if nt once sleep all gone liaoz~i think huang niu does hav a GF... frm the actual truth of what i heard... nt sure... ask ninchan!
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Dec 11th, 2005 at 07:04am ?i dint take photos until the end... waa... i think tis is the first concert or the FIRST time i teared so much watchin concert or any other perf man! 1st mayday concert really is diff ar... hehehehe... juz now the channel U news who got watch ar? or was anybody on the TV? hahahaha... RED RED RED man! yest u see all the taxi Q and ppl walkin to the mrt all RED. actually the sound system sounds abit better from outside the stadium... like what icestarearl said... after the first fews songs i was almost Deaf... got the ringin sound in my ears liaox... and like couldnt hear properly. actually is oni after the whole concert when u go outdoors den u realize even more hw loud it was
07:16am ? hahahaha... spotlite i almost the same as you. when the whole thingy ended the first thing i said clearly to my friend was: 'why is my voice still here?'mayday was TERRIFIC! okie... i ren bu zhu say again... everybody was VERy shuai k? masa, when he was piao-ing his bass. monster, stone when they were piao-ing their guitars. yanming, when he was piao-ing his drums [the FENG KUANG SHI JIE part!] and even Ashin when he was screaming.. err.. singing and piao-ing all his high notes. hehehehe...
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to me it was enuf. the memory. will post again soon. need to realease PENT UP AND LEFT OVER ENGERY!

就 让 我 有 着 么 一 次 。
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晚 安 地 球 人 --
地球有救了。
因为有五个 ， 还有那么多
相信着音乐的憨人。 。 。
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我很骄傲，因为我和大家都是倔强的憨人。无论是我的明天，要去那里，我知道快乐伤心我自己决定 。

wat for the chinese? actually i wanted to write alot more but forgot. i cried. totally. even xiang xin i cried like a total mess... chuang, jue jiang, ya guan i oso... despite oreadi hearin at the rehersal again n again liaox. as to wad the concert? i now oni rem the 'wo ai xia tian~' and luan shi fu sheng n ga chia n ci xiong tong ti which the WHOLE song i was jumpin away. the guy beside me was JY. i think i knocked into him afew times ar... hehehehe... so sorry~ proud... i stood for the whole thingy. i suvived on one bottle of water and... i saw the unusual production guy and Ian, who was doin traffic control, again. muahahahaha....... FinaL HoME. thank you so much. one can release n release but not yet store anyting else anymore inside. today juz proved itself... dint know there was so much pressure stored inside me. i tink was my 16yrs of fat, and sheer will power which kept me jumping from one song to another. the normal would hav fallen dead or wat similar liaoz. i saw them praying oso... before hand. wad i really peifu mr.chen is that... he really IS a rain boy. dint mention i jumped until my back was screaming... and now my whole body is still is... and my ears hav juz cleared. but it was damm worth it, the $117... even if wasnt like so damm close. even if i dint see Ashin's Face, even if i dint scream the whole thingy. even if i dint shout encore and started sing 'dang wo men hun zai yi qi'. even he ignores wad i said yest nite bout singin mai lai luan. Life is all made up of ur choices. you chose ur own path, wad it brings n all. muz zhi zu... and... if u ever feel like giving up on mayday or anyone else, even though i really dont wan it to happen... but did you hear me sing loudly?
我给你自由。 。 。 。
我给你 全部 全部 全部 全部 自 由 ~
只 因 为
我 不会强求 ， 也不会挽留 ....
i'll juz let you go.
actually in the mornin i was so damm afraid i would let go... but mayb i shld give it a try.
continue 2m.

da la ta da ta~ muahahaha... i slept at 4 and woke up at 9.30... really... when ur mood is good, no matter hw tired u are, ur still b happy. muaks... love all of ya~ waitin, waitin, waitin~

release u all... i will not post bout md in tis blog liaox. if ur capable to find the other... good luck. today? tiring day... but still... thanks everybody... to endure my high-Ness. and...
to live to breathe to believe.
i believe.
p.s. thanks peirong for the ride.

today.
reach expo bout 1.30pm... slack slack slack... they were there oreadi. diaoz.... frm far away could see shijie [shirtless] hanging around...doin TAT thingy of cuz... diaoz~ but still... slacked. den pr started with her sweater... mmm... wad happen ar? oh YAR. heard luan shi fu sheng's he yin. it was like DAMM SHIOK LO... diaoz~ den... they tok rubbish lar... quite high ar they all. actually dint hear much of shijie. was more of zhang lao shi n ppl. Ashin, masa, mons. songs we hear [or we tot we heard]: wu nu, luan shi fu sheng, du sheng, ya guan, L-O-V-E [n stops here cuz nobody support Ashin shout.. muahahahaha], xiao hu shi, du sheng, heng xin de heng xin, jue jiang?, err... tis was the more remorable de. and... sam came. audrey n amelia came. den we high together... muahahaha.... when i go fetch sam, found out tat the dorr behid was open. shiok! but felt abit gulity. but anyway... sneeked in... yuan lai... this the pattern of the stage ar... there was tis guy, wearing the RED FH shirt, beijing one... like mouthed something to us. bi dint gt lar... paituo~ he oso the same leh~ sumore still sit there like wad. we nvr even sit. we juz peek oni. den... WE SAW NAKED MEN. ok lar... half naked. to me now, whether its him or not i dun care liaoz. cuz take as was he lor... i liddat jiu ke yi le~ he and zhang lao shi. farnie was the others, even guai shou lor, was wearin a shirt. mayb we saw wrongly? who knows ar... ubut anyway... more people came... i was like for more than 1/2 the time was askin 'ni men ye shi lai tan ban de hun?'.... hehehhe... weiting oso came. den... they sang ya guan when we were peeking... hahaha... we asked one of dar security guard we saw whether we can come in de or nt. he was like... actually cannot de but he juz take tat he nrv see us lo. gt one time they came out for break la. do TAT THINGY LO. diaoz~
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i muz confess... the oni motive had i to go there was really to LISTEN the rehersal. not to go see them or wat. juz to listen.
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cowz. it was like... rehersal was more high than anything. hahahaha... den... ok lo. never take photo. but around 8pm they went tru their whole rehersal. sings which theyDINT sing [xin tiong bo bak lang, hua, i love u bo bang, ok lah, shen dan ye jing hun, an apple, john lennon, jin duo xia, tou lou... AND MAI LAI LUAN.] when he sang xian yu the starting... i was like burst out laughin... cuz alot of people will be very dissappointed lo! really... but was like wad i guessed. so singaporean~ mix ar... hehehhe.... and... ya chia he dint sing the "hey hey hey hey" part!~ diaoz. oh yar! very high oso-- wo ai xia tian, guo xi's voice was like... hahahaha, hear le jiu will very high de. and they dint know wat to sing -- gao xiong mei, or zhang hua mei or... singapore mei? muahahahaha.... i was very damm high the whole day lo. run here n there. take of shoes and run, dance to the music of xiao hu shi, scream at the intro of mai lai luan [which they dint sing], jump, JuMp, and JUMP.... muahahahahaha...rem til they were getting uo the bus... guai shou told us muz early go hm. hehehe... when mr.chen walked by they were like 'faster tell him ar!' den i was 'tell him wat? y NEVER sing MAI LAI LUAN' den i juz shouted to him 'muz sing mai LaI LuAN AR~!~' he like very bu shue and juz went up the bus. ok lo~ still can how? diaoz~shi jie and his bro mr. huang niu are REALLY damm good jokers...diaozthey very hapy i dunnoe ymr.chen's voice was like... DAMM good today lo~oh ya... they sang 1st day... in mr.chen's pitch.thanks to everyone whom i spent my day with... mayday? i prefer lookin at shijie thou... md seems real... much too real and not surreal. when u come close with any of them. u'l juz realize they're juz another few guys... nothing special, oni that they can do really quite good music, do lyrics n tunes, have been to more countries and know more ppl oni mah... they are, afterall, human beings.but still....
LIVE MUSIC ROCKS LIKE HEAVEN....
muaks.

16hrs more
FINAL HOME
TO LIVE
TO BREATHE
TO BELIEVE

today? [1] i realized my sis was more of ang moh pai. even she claims, *notice its 'claims'* that she likes mayday... mmm... ok lar~ i cannot influence wat she thinks. i do admit im more cheena. [2] to tese, im really ok liaoz. at tis point of time juz believe that mayday REALLY can cure most of the things. most. [3] hope tat peirong n jingzhen they all wld b able to see wyt there for the supper.. hehehez... and hope ninchan wld b able to c her dear huang niu n jeniffer can see her ji mao. [5] to maybelline: its really ok tat we go out nxt time. most importantly is tat u muz b happy. with wat u hav even though its hard but still muz try. afterall being zhi zu liaox is not tat tong ku anymore. [6] to jiali: if u really need to tok juz call or wat. dun need like gei gei drop so very obvious 'hints' to other people cuz juz face the fact that nen or sk wunt bother to do anything de. its so damm obvious. and i DO admit that i feel very sick n sad of u not thinkin of gettin me to tok. watever~
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SPECIAL REPORT. Peirong really saw them there~ diaoz~ hahahahaha.....
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today? ok lar.... had carc case study. i tink i was really quite lucky cuz i got the easier paper. diaoz~ and fndb lec i finally attended. and it was not VERY good lo! wat she teach oso lab tcher will. and she like damm chiong-ing the whole way, couldnt understand most of wad she was sayin. diaoz~ and sumore she like very bu shue us liddat. the whole thingy like keep suan-ing us and askin us to keep quiet. a typical version of xiao li chang dao. okie. its my own perception. and... was really cool. muahahahaha... after when i was still complainin to shuhui n crowd whether shld i pon and go jie dar ji shi-s flight. i decided to go. den while me n marressa where waiting, we decided we both dint want to stay there. so we pon-ed together. muahahahahaha....evil. but very shuang. met darren at the busstop n he pei me go interchage there cuz he wanted to top-up. and i was telling him bout dar ji shi-s and stuff. and i ADMIT LAR. i am so damm PROUD of being a mayday fan. muahahahaha.... YAR LAR!!! I LIKE MAYDAY CANNOT IZZIT AR? and... i really went to fetch the tech crew... muahahaha... i muz b goin crazy liaox. we ARE really the most... weird, unique, speical group of ppl ever man! who fetchs the TECH CREW OSO AR? and more kua zhang is, some ppl, like ninchan oni really go fetch tech crew... hahahah... prefers them more to mayday. we really orh~ saw... huang niu, i mao, zhou lao shi, and people lar. heard tat gt xiao hou... but really sorry i really dint c him... hahahaha.... gt one is when huang niu was walkin infrnt pass us and peirong sudden said [very loudly sumore] 'who's tat hun?' hahahaha.... ninchan almost bao xue guan ar... of juz is her very shuai huang niu... moooooo~ hahahahahaha.... im getting abit siaox liaoz. and... i saw gougou [stone's wife] up close for the 1st time. she really does look like a very nice person lo. really. as for miss wang xing zhi [the lady yanming who proposed to] i really hav nothing to say. juz tat i was not very near her and was seeing frm a distance. it's unfair tat to pass nasty comments bout dar person sumore... hehehehe... u gt wad i mean lar. hehehehe... since yanming like can le lo! who cares... if tat's his happiness... mmm... rem last time when he came s'pore he was still a guy... no becum MAN liaox. muahahahaha... die la. the bad habit which i learnt frm masa again. den... slacked. when to expo to check out max pavalion. okie lar. quite... BIG? mmm... but we stayed at the backstage area for quite a time leh.
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special report agian. Ashin is NOT there for supper... think... IS he sick? AGAIN? mmm....
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cuz juz... jennifer n ninchan wanted to c whether the TECH CREW was comin or not. hahaha... i think the unusual people where abit amazed by us. want to see tech crew instead of mayday. hahahaha.... but.. no fate la. dint c. went back airport. slack. yijun came. leeping n jingzhen they all came oso. ok lor~ wait wait... den more n more high juz we were tokin quite alot of rubbish. den... tadadata~ finally the moment-- masa was 1st. den the gals at our left were like goin to 'turn on the radars n voices' but were kenna 'ssssshhhhhhhhnnnnnn' but alot of us... hahaha... den... zhang lao shi. there was tis nice airport lady who took out their luaguge [cuz i think too big liaox if not very din teh] first n masa n zhang lao shi totally dint know. blur like wat waiting at the other end. mmm... den... yanming. shi jie. izzit me or was shijie was the ONLY one which most of us really got 'abit louder voices come our: ShI JiEeeEeee~~~' hahaha... lastly monster, stone and mr chen. mr chen was wearin tis cap... instead of his usual towel... one word: yikeS. anway... guaishou was the most OBvious. RED tee leh. sumoe when the other were like... black, white. masa? took off his black jacket n really looked like a innocent [frm my there at least look like~] secondary student in uniform. came out. OK. shijie is reallt cute. EXCEPT WHEN THE FACT THAT HE IS SMOKING. smokin is TOTALLY NOT CUTE. NOT COOL EITHER. esp when people like guaishou, yanming or zhang lao shi does it. paituo. highlight? when i helped pr who helped wanga, vin n musicanata pass their present. i juz like... holding tis rolled up drawin block n juz poked him with it with a "NAH" [no, "tis's for u" or watever]. sumore he still very high and answered 'HEY!~' SUPER DIAOZ. shijie? oso makin all those weird n funny noises... diaoz. cuz i was behind him most of the time. muhahahahaha~ why i concluded masa's mood very good? i suddenly remered, juz of most of the time, many people where like blockin their way. the usual him wld had said some more scartisitc. but he? today? said very sweetly... [really quite la... at least he said very nicely] to ask us to b careful. duh~ k? Ashin? he juz siam, siam, siam..... then dissappered liaox. im really typin LOTS of rubbish. juz let me be can? so nan de i rem so many details. im goin to slp liaox. doin project leh!~

freaked ass... my blog ran away again! die la die la... muz retype. cowz~ anway... partly juz let byegones be byegones~ diaoz. simply speaking, I NOW QUITE HIGH... hahahha... all becuz of peirong... muahahahaha... even if everyody dun think very good idea to keep quiet, im ok de lar~ at least i asked liaox. better than nothing. and, its much less malu than askin Ashin to sing wu nu... hahahaha... at least not all forum ppl know who im. not that malu. anyway... everybody all xing fu i know. ALL VERY XING FU. like tat enuf liaox. most imptly in life is muz be happy mah~ today elyn, one of my poly friend, who is 18 lar, said something i very ying xiang sheng ke. she said~ as if as compared to her, im very matured in my thinking liaoz cuz like alot of things i oreadi kan kai liaox. as compared to me like she'll think more, and care more bout things and more fang bu xia. wad i wanna say... too fang de kai is oso not a good thing. really... cuz nothing else really matters liaoz~ if wanna die... oso can let go every easy. like some may say, i surely got stuff which i cant let go, like mayday which i like so much... mayday? least worried bout them. cuz i know they are well, and will be, afterall there are so many wonderful people who believes in them. alot of things, are actually not that important. like goin to send them off.. but... i do admit im juz being stubborn. juz holding on even MORE strong to my beliefs cuz some PEOPLE mock them, as if they hav the right to. kaoz.
anyway... STILL VERY HIGH! 15 MORE HOURS CAN SEE MAYDAY LIAOZ~
to everyone:
splash ur page with the color of ROCK
2 MORE DAYS TO FINAL HOME! TO LIVE, TO BREATHE, TO BELIEVE. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....

i apologize if i confused anybody with my last post. ask me to explain? so sorry... yesterday's post was a result of pent-up emotions and lack of sleep, plus the stress of the dammit java assignment. i would b very unable to explain. if u dont understand... den nevermind. wait to one day i zhong yu ming bai wad im writing, i promise u'll b the first one to know.
anyway, Mr Chen shin Hong, happy birthday~

if u say i am i sinner
to be still able to be happy in such drastic mess of a world.
then.
let me continue to sin.
i really prefer it that way.
how do you dipict it into such a way... i cannot control. and will not control. yes. i do admit that im feeling guilty around here. when everybody is in depression mood. hahaz. my depression week was 2weeks be4 liaox. PASSED LIAOX. but still. pls everybody do come to the terms that this is life. which means u need to come face to face to rediculous problems which may attempt to make you feel like dying and... people change. yes. VERY fast. very swiftly. but its coming back to the point that nothing juz happens overnite. in an effort to comfort you i'll say... pls think again. you are not THAT powerful to be able to change a person's life so dramtically. in my pov its juz that you'r juz the "lucky" person who juz was so suay beside the person when s/he choose to fall. i usually dont mention names. cuz i never know who's reading my blog. but something i really dun like now- AI MEI. not yang cheng lin's ai mei... is the real ai mei. diaoz. if one is tui bian ING. you cant change it. we dun hav the strength or power to do so. things will juz sort out by its own. whether to get together back or not is much not our business. not mine at least. even care n support has its limits. it can oni help to one point. like wad he said in his blog. its all between them liaox.
watever.
farking ass... i havent do finish my oopg assignment and its due 2m morning. kaoz~ and i have DCNK and CARC test tis thurs! kaoz~ but stilll..... MAYDAY'S COMING ON THE 8TH!!!!~~~~~ this is enuf. im satisfied with this liaox. qi dai yue da, shi wang yue da. come to face with this ba! fated... it will happen some way or other.
to sk: got read properly?
to nen: got read properly
to both: think im tokin shit ar? den.... juz... nvm~
to maybelline: i know i know~ take care u too k?
to yali: PAITUO. as if im THAT petty like you. still say u dont want to see me? like as if i owed u liddat~ say it straight to MY FACE. not behide me. and sumore its not juz me zhen dui you and say ur temper and attutide is not good. its a KNOWN secret.
to peirong: i really think ur nice person. izzit juz me or that md fan-c very easily kan kai ar? hai~

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pls go vote for my 2 nieces they're REALLY VERY VERY CUTE..... hahahaha.... menality of all aunties. rem they'r rachel n charmine hor~
today... is dec4, the 3th time we're together again. hahaha... 02,03,05... 3years liaox. tis very day im with the same pple. okie. fate mah~ both kiangs, nen... hahaha... die lar. i juz realized that aKiang's shen fen being bao guang in my blog eh! hahaha... since now everybody juz know him as TK. hahaha... we... went to sang K. i think... akiang really is ang moh pai. K-ing is really not suitable for him. he more suitable to be singin live band ar. hehehe... lookin forward to him perf durin jan. hahaha... today ar. not really like warm-up ar. juz go for play play.
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F**king ARSE! quan yi feng juz got the 10th!!! KAO!~~~~ not kym arHZ!!! might as well rather the last one DONT GIVE. koaz... sorry ar~ pardon me for tis while.
sorry tis post will be very long cuz im watchin dar hong xin da jiang. the superstars sang FIRST DAY!~ sumore they used dar minus one version with Ashin's voice... muahahahahaha~
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den... we sang. 1st song was jin duo xia. i like the MV. =D SO-mayday. actually juz cut sippnets frm other MVs like jue jiang, hor mm hor, feng kuang shi jie, etc. den... i rem luan shi fu sheng. KaoZ~ i think tat song i was like... interrupted bout FIVE OR SIX times? becuz of a very guy who 1st time go K-ing. diaoz~ i think he is juz zhen dui me oni. =p really mah! nen n sk's songs never get interrupted~ diaoz~ and they really quite cold at md's songs ar. hahaha... the song whick make me n nen high unexpectally was... dong jie... and na niu hai dui wo shuo [somebody was cryin like no 2molo~] AND. aKiang jing ran said mai lai luan sounded like gei tai song! kaoz~ nevermind... ur all bu hui xin shang. sumore unbelievble that i watched the MV until CRY rite. diaoz~ and... xiang xin! told nen bout the part bout yanming proposed~ hahaha... n.... *tee*bomb, i dont wanna miss a thing... one nite in beijing. diaox. upload when free. chao ji gao xiao. den... we went dar x-zone there cuz they went arcarde. guitars n drums again. aKiang ar, if ur readin tis, dun b pissed off liaox k? not worth it lar~ budden... after that we left sk there. sk pei her norman mah. me, nen, kiang take mrt. take here take there lar. so funny ar! tink.. akiang's born with it lar. *nen oso nods head... muahahahaha.....* born with the talent to bond with people? and oso to make people laugh ar. camp is juz different with/o him. haha.... found dar grp pic liaox:

people dont change much. juz that myab u juz seen a different way they use with people. with different people frm diff parts of ur life, u use diff methods, ways, etc. friendship, thou i know more stable and long, but i still wish for love. ya know ar nen? sumhow its juz different. they got their good points n bad points. even thou i ling wu liaoz, but does not mean i muz will not qi dai and muz b zhi zu. diaoz. i want to GET MARRIED VERY SOON K? but juz wanna say... really missed u all. all nen, kiang, sk... maybelline, tese, yali, sam, zy, sherry, sec sch, pri sch, work. diaoz~ the list getting longer liaox.
MOST IMPORTANTLY.
Mayday, monster, ashin, stone, ming, masa, Ji shi-s, mdmd people, yijun, peirong, jolleen, leeping... diaoz... EVERYONE!!! FINAL HOME'S NEXT WEEK!!!!~~~ hahhahahaha very HIGH-ING. red, is the color of rock.

happy birthday aKiang! =D

forgot to add tat MAYDAY is FINALLY on one of s'pore's mag... dar last "U" mag be4 their revamp. i know most of ur wunt buy de lar. but stilll.... let me high. and, one note to add: if my ma nags juz ONE more time about me being stupid cuz i dint ask to take photo with Ashin tat day... im goin to strangle her... or do something similar. Cowz~ take photo with mayday really THAT important meh? take le you bu hui dou zhang yi kuai rou. sumore... if its unwilling den i rather dont. freaked ass... itsnt THAT important k? get that straight.

im positng.... for the sake of posting? erm... juz needed sumwhere to release all the pent-up emotions... but yet now when im facing the screen i totally dunt know how to turn all those feelings ino words. everyting juz stucks there... mmm...
anyway. my msn is DOWN. due to the freaking anti-virus thingy in my com. now half of my applications are down. ass... lucky my IE still surviving... one more week to SFH. i think im more excited at the though of seeing shijie~ diaoz.... time juz passes too fast. next week's oopg 1st assignment is goin to b due n i totally havent started at all. and.... 2m im working. gala apples @ great world. sunday... think goin K-ing with both kiangs n nen. as for chicken little~ my class gave me dar areoplane... so mayb goin watch with sufen... or... whoever is free ba... never called anybody. may n batch~ yest went to find sufen at expo [Again] and... we both went to dar max pa-veil-lee-on to look look... but gave up halfway juz need to walk too long inside. hahahahaha...... wish me luck for dar warm up of final home~ ONE MORE WEEK!

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