Thanks

2010-01-03T13:06:00.001+08:00

1776,

and there are times we run away.

rescapism.

2010-01-02T13:50:00.001+08:00

Soon.

Crashing at a new place (:

2010-01-02T04:06:00.001+08:00

"Let me wrap my arms around you.
Let me take your breath away."

Love Beyond Words...

2010-01-02T00:18:00.001+08:00

"Sometimes, we stare too long at a door that is closing; it’s too late to know the one that’s open."

Sometimes I think I hate you cause you write the pretty yet empty words just like he does but not because you abandoned me like they did.

2010-01-01T14:49:00.002+08:00

for sungmin-ah.
pink furry bunnies and smexy smexy expressions

생일축하해요!

2009-12-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

like always, there are times we could be better..

Goodbye.
2009

2009-12-31T13:00:00.000+08:00

괜잖아요...

2010 would be a better year.

The birthday post - 2009

2009-12-30T12:27:00.000+08:00

The annual birthday post.

21st.

of growing up.
painful. and never ending tries of convincing myself.

found a job. got kicked around some bits. hanging out with married people and drinking at harry's when I was supposed to work.

.
found myself a new group to hang out with. the people from singhell. the random drinking spells and photography urges.

found myself a new fandom. so in love with tight pants and hot skin and fiction and laughter and happiness and seamless choreography. being happy is easy, too easy with them.

found renewed vigor towards the old fandom. I am still amazed, detached yet amazed at the amount of me affected easily. absence perhaps does makes the heart fonder. in a different way.

read like a crazed person. fiction was my best friend ever. the most reliable friend, almost.

decided I had a crush and AG named him crushie and it stuck with him ever since. but no, he has no idea really.

boats, open seas, blue skies, white clouds, stars and firefiles. they are priceless and more.

being apathetic is easy. too easy.

lost some people, no, i can't figure out why some can leave and abandon us, we don't even mean a thing and it's so true to them.

angel!teuk, bitchy!heenim, halfkorean!hannie, smexyvocals!jongwoon, strong!youngwoon, dancer!donghee, smexy!minnie, dancemachine!hyukie, flirty!hae, theHorse!siwonnie, eternalMagnae!wookie, missing!kibumie, soulsucker!kyu ♥ ♥ ♥

Sometimes,
we are in love.

Sometimes,
we are in doubt.

Sometimes,
we are in denial.

but mostly,
I just wanna be happy.
and fucking in love, yes yes and YES.

Happy Birthday to me (:

2009-12-29T01:34:00.001+08:00

And it's the last day.

2009-12-27T14:39:00.002+08:00

Ham. it was not about you. really.

p.s.
I'm really touched you're still reading this space XD

2009-12-27T03:17:00.003+08:00

If it was to declare war or to stake a claim, it's okay. Whomever you want is all yours.

I'm not going to be a fighter anymore. at least. not for people who could hurt me that easily.
Every lingering word is such a smirk.

Don't "rong" me if you already decided to abandon me. really.

I would stand by you, hold your hand, hug you if the warmth was what you needed. I could do more, and much more than my heart is capable of, that is, only if you needed me to do so. It's only the simple matter to speak out.

Since I am always the one abandoned, I suppose I can safely say I saw it coming.

I wished I could wring your heart out and make it bleed just like mine.

2009-12-25T22:06:00.001+08:00

hannie, Yongwoon, heenim and kibummie.

13 = 1

2009-12-25T20:17:00.004+08:00

songbug.

"I've got you under my skin"

Quoting Yinren:
"Girls like HARD things, guys like soft things."

All that skin.... XD

It was caused by this:

Yes I'm insanely infatuated with sukira. hahahas~

2009-12-25T14:50:00.000+08:00

I just wanna take back my words. I hope too much and it'd hurt me in the end.
it'd just fucking hurt damm so damm much and I just know it.

Sometimes I feel like I should hate Christmas cause it'd be forever be associated with you.
and fiction. for making me hope.

ughs.

2009-12-25T11:04:00.002+08:00

Sometimes there are shades of colors mused with light grey and dark blue.
Sometimes I feel that I could do more and more and more and... wells... more.

Sometimes you are important.
you really are, i think, i suppose.
the underlying statement being, perhaps....

not to me anymore.
but to someone else.

So different.

Merry Christmas.

2009-12-25T00:05:00.001+08:00

The usual (:

2009-12-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

Let's hope you are right.

2009-12-22T16:37:00.002+08:00

for kyu and hae... perhaps we're now waiting for siwonnie and wookie?

2009-12-22T09:17:00.001+08:00

Heenim's turned his into black, like kyu's.

let's hope Christmas will be better.

2009-12-21T15:26:00.002+08:00

Hannie.

I am crossing my fingers not to see emo cyworld entries from the prettyboy. If he could had blogged happy thoughts about the 9 pairs of skinny legs, I think 2009 wouldn't end this way.

this is insane.
but I don't care.

I was just telling myself how much you are shining when speaking in our common language. You amaze me with the random sprouts of ballet, ramen and leaderish syndromes.

Don't let us go, please.

2009-12-21T14:27:00.002+08:00

*press repeat button*

:p
♥

2009-12-21T11:00:00.000+08:00

“Even sinners love those who love them.”

-Luke 6:32

I might move.
1755 since the start.

2009-12-20T02:13:00.002+08:00

and hanging around those who can break me. whenever i speak of them, it tears me into millions of tiny pieces.

yet I hold on, cause they mean much more than they would allow. more than what a mere heart could allow.

such a typical soul, handing one's heart over in a silver platter and believing that you'd hold it tight and keep it warm.

most of the times i wonder where does the strength to carry on comes, through the invisible sheets of truth, lies and passing fantasies.

it was everything, and more.
and it hurts like everything and more.

2009-12-19T23:38:00.003+08:00

有时候
我看得到你的身影

淡淡的

2009-12-19T16:33:00.003+08:00

I dreamt of 26th, min, sam, mama, wendy, carlos and everyone else. and lots of crying and hugging and insane drinking.

It is scary.

2009-12-18T19:09:00.005+08:00

I wonder if the germs can sustain itself until Monday. I WANNA GET MC LOR FUCK.

Am at MOF now... waiting for Maybelline and Samantha... it's such a rare occasion that I'm shuper early. Actually could had knocked off at... 3pm? sighhh....

Body is aching and warm... Do you think eating sushi will get it worse?

I attempted to intro ahtan to SJ-M just now... She was slightly impressed that how... ~~ugly~~ unique mimi was... hahahaha~ Kyu keeps saying bak tor yao and hae keeps saying 亲爱的宝贝们... How adorable is that LAH!!! :D

I'm sprouting rubbish as usual... They are not here yet... ughs.

2009-12-18T17:01:00.002+08:00

还有那么多我们爱过的
千言萬語, 化為沉默

2009-12-18T02:08:00.004+08:00

why we love when all is naught and have faith in the most dire situations and feel the need to offer a hug and want to hold your hand even if it bleeds my life and passion away.

And there's always a reason.
it is not that simple. or it's more simple than it really seems.

2009-12-17T12:05:00.002+08:00

- Nanjing SS2

Attack of the colorful skinnies and grabby hands :D

2009-12-15T17:18:00.001+08:00

"and what does your heart call me?"

http://coley-merrin.livejournal.com/357039.html#cutid1

2009-12-14T00:58:00.001+08:00

Maybe it's the weird xmas atmosphere or whatever shit it is.

I have REALLY RANDOM PEOPLE talking to me.

conclusion is;
my heart is quite strong.

2009-12-13T03:52:00.000+08:00

"Like the Ferris Wheel that is featured prominently throughout the anime, Honey & Clover is basically implying that life goes on, up and down, up and down, but it would be better to ride it out with cherished memories made with friends and loved ones. And to treasure those memories forever."

2009-12-10T13:30:00.002+08:00

我梦见你的轻声细语
I wanted to ask you how she looked when she comes... Is she pretty? You've fucked her afterall right?
-

就像他说的
温柔而残暴的

2009-12-10T13:19:00.001+08:00

repeated softly: I would hold yours if you would hold mine.

2009-12-10T04:16:00.000+08:00

4:15am on a work day during the most xiong week of the month - reporting week.

This is insane.
My hormones are fucked up.

2009-12-09T11:52:00.001+08:00

I am confused... I don't know the answer anymore.

2009-12-09T00:49:00.001+08:00

stolen from jungsu...

I would hold yours if you would hold mine...

2009-12-08T01:41:00.001+08:00

*press button to set on repeat mode*

It's reporting week and I think my menses are coming. I need to be happier. Pardon me if I were to feed you rubbish.

2009-12-07T20:02:00.003+08:00

stolen from jungsu...

He is right.

We are all waiting.

2009-12-06T14:55:00.000+08:00

It feels that relationships are measured in dollars, cents and favors.

2009-12-06T13:41:00.002+08:00

It's not much of a secret but, dearest, you'd always be my first favorite.

Thank you for being there when I had to run, or prepared to, or tempted to, or when no one else did. It's much easier to believe in you, and the lies or beautiful words you weave effortlessly.

Amazed and Amazing and Amazingly.

诞生日快乐 (:

2009-12-06T02:07:00.002+08:00

IM FREAKING DOING THE SAME THING!! XD

2009-12-02T23:23:00.004+08:00

I was working and he distracted me with his erection. HAHAHAHAH.

SUNGMINAHHHH. How more obvious can it get?! XD

Girls, don't tell me the pornreading has gotten to my head. *points at picture* he is one MAJOR MAJOR distraction okay. Despite his fugly hair.... MY ATTENTION HAS NOT WANED.

Side note.

This morning I dreamt of Wilson kor, wearing this shirt which neckline (smexy shirt thou) is nearing his belly button, with lotsa facial hair and LOTSA chest hair. eww. major major eew-ness. Wilson kor is not remotely hairy in person. It was so tramatizing that I had to msn him to tell him of the dream.

Back to the main topic.

OMGGGGGG. SUNGMINAHHHHHH.
*covers the head and points repeatedly at THE FREAKING PANTS*

2009-12-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

"I’d like to love someone some day. I think we all do. It would seem so easy, but it’s the most painful thing, to drag someone through the mud with us. Still, we can’t help but want it. I can’t help but want it."
- credits to author.

2009-11-29T20:12:00.002+08:00

I'm such a fail.

the thingy is not going to happen. Suddenly there are some people who are more reliable than the ones who really seems to be.

I am not expecting the onions (tian gege's the only one who definitely would appear but he's at thailand. Ham says the boyfriend is having the exams and yiyan told me NOT to expect her and mama. Joel's not going to appear without all of them, that's for sure.)
neither is sufen.
Maybelline is flying.
it's awkward forcing cousin, yinren, samanatha, tese to sit together.
Amanda has jay and even maybe Wilson kor. which is REALLY weird cause I am pretty sure Joyce and fangmin wouldn't appear since they have each other already.

seriously.

2009-11-29T16:22:00.001+08:00

你的柔情似水
几度让我爱得沉醉
毫无保留不知道后悔
你能不能体会真情可贵
没有余力伤悲
爱情象难收的覆水
长长来路走得太憔悴
你只留下我收拾这一切

不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的吻留着余味
忘了曾经爱过谁
慢慢习惯了寂寞相随

不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的脸梦里相对
爱的潮水已经退
我的真情不再随便给

2009-11-29T05:35:00.001+08:00

Morning, Earthings.

2009-11-27T18:05:00.003+08:00

*major fangirling moment*

SUJU-M's schedule in TAIWAN.

OMFG.
Doesn't it sound FREAKING EXCITING?! XD

1.娱乐百分百粉丝同乐会
2.完全娱乐
3.王牌大明星
4.娱乐@亚洲
5.FUN音乐大来宾
6.日韩音乐疯
7.康熙来了
8.大学生了没
9.我爱黑涩棒棒堂
10.全民最大黨

I can already imagine Xiao S molesting maSiwon. And OMFG. 完全娱乐?!?!? *SPAMS*
And ahken. HE'S TEUKIE IN DRAG U KNOWWWW. hahahahah~ Can almost see the fake meeting the real deal.... XD

2009-11-26T18:59:00.002+08:00

Might not get a chance to blog again tonight.

You know, it feels like you've been replaced.
by them.

You're not.
at least not in my heart.

Talking to cousin + fiction makes me emo.

sometimes I think they are married.
with love. and hope. like humans.
we run, tremble, fall, and harbor hope in most ridiculous situations.

remember the story I told you?
He broke my heart, you know?

just need a hand to hold.
some warmth and real shades of hope and simple faith.
let me know if your hands aren't the ones to hold.

I dreamt of teukie the other day.
vibrant.
clear like in HD mode.
laughing.

laughing (:

2009-11-25T00:18:00.000+08:00

Don't underestimate me.
im not easily surprised.

2009-11-24T13:14:00.001+08:00

I got excited cause i heard the Korean speaking KOREAN. hahaha...

Anhnyoung :)

2009-11-23T18:35:00.001+08:00

Can I watch you on repeat mode?

2009-11-22T23:38:00.002+08:00

I've been reading so much Qmi that I'm so convinced they are married too. hanchul's obviously married in real life but Qmi and SiHan... they're married in AU-s.

Convinced, that's what I am.

Gold rings, babies, books, cookies and piano benches.

In the fictional world, we lead a happier life.

Life has been full of sexual innuendos and I'm now currently labeled as the horny one.
Hormones are actually not as excited nowadays. They prefer sleep and cheesy love declarations and hugs and simple emotions. and tearing.

I almost wanted to jump the online!you but....

Are you reading this space too?

2009-11-20T02:51:00.000+08:00

24 chapters.

of love.

2009-11-19T21:33:00.000+08:00

"Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction."
-- Antoine de Saint-Exupery

2009-11-18T22:34:00.004+08:00

smexy heenim :D

the day passed in a frenzy of tight pants and random unfulfillable desires.

You know,
you're one of my pretty boys too? (:

2009-11-18T13:03:00.003+08:00

~~ughs.~~

I was fucking emo in the morning until this came on the ipod and the world jus topped over.

Soft white or tight dark ~~leather~~...
They make my ~~body~~ heart tingle either way

some new found ~~lust~~ fuss about putting the pretty boys in really ~~tight~~ TIGHT pants.
*~~swallows~~ wipes forehead*

I am looking away the next time kyu smirks.
or when chul stares up from his bangs.
or when the necklace bounce from hyuk's chest.
or when hae flex his fingers which are uncovered by leather.
or when teuk.... ohfuckingsticksouthistoungue. UGHS.

I am DISTURBED.

2009-11-18T00:22:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I am so convinced they are in love that it scares me.
and it scares me too much.

It reminds me that I fell in love with you after hearing your love story.

2009-11-17T02:07:00.001+08:00

I hear your whispers...

Like the last lingering warmth we crave endless...

2009-11-16T01:43:00.002+08:00

sometimes I am amazed at how much you can inspire me.

i wanted so much to ask if you're okay.
i should actually worry more about my heart instead.

2009-11-15T05:11:00.001+08:00

I seriously think this has to become a permanent fixture on my blog.

Isn't anyone SO IN LOVE WITH ~~HEENIM~~ HEESCIA?!

*raise hand eagerly*
OMFG HE IS OMFG.

someone SAVE WOOKIE. HE JUST FUCKING FLIPPED HIS LONG HAIR *SPAMS*
and Siwonnie.... ISNT HIM A DEVOUTCHRISTIAN?! *covers eyes*
Teukie... GREEN SKINNIES DON'T WORK FOR YOU. seriously.
SERIOUSLY.

I know why kyunggie lets chul tops him. cause he is too adorable and we're all in love with him.

I want to take off his shoes... and top... and mess up his hair :(

I like the way he rushes to grab the girl into his arms (:

the epitome of subtle actions

0:09 - I'm so reminded of his boyfriend's "imsotortured" look
0:27 - manythanks to whomever who's keeping kyu in bowties and shirts :)
0:32 - and gloveless hands :D
0:38 - im half convinced that yesungOppa tops... at the sight of his bare chest XD
0:56 - LOL @ SHINDONG.
1:21 - *melts*
1:33 - kyunggie unbuttoning his jacket :O
1:53 - teukie puffy cheeks XD
2:02 - siwonnie's totally offtune singing
2:27 - and min just had to touch himself. every single time.
2:33 - dangling ribbons and hyukie's signature :D
2:37 - TEUKIEEEEEE.
2:48 - I just realized siwonnie was beside hyukjae.
2:49 - sweeping imagineary dust off the shoulders :D
3:00 - GOSH. old man jumps HIGH
3:03 - there's something sexy about hae's half golve... keke~
3:07 - EUNHAEEEE <3
3:11 - kangiin's porno hand action... TWO FINGERS :D
3:13 - subtle. BUT I SAW.
3:51 - thankyews bow (:
4:07 - i think hyukkie won the sissorspaperstone
4:13 - HEY HEY HEY
4:26 - YES yes yes i saw you wookie XD
4:29 - YES yes yes i saw you too sunggie XD
4:34 - OHHH. heenim and his "imsointoSNSDuknow" issues... FYI it's the genie dance!
4:44 - Heenim, you do know it looks porno, sticking out your tongue and all right?
4:53 - i am half convinced that siwonnie's sporting and erection. SOMEONE HELP CONFIRM.
4:59 - im SURE TEUKIE TOPS KANGIN XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

tHE End of emo hormones - CHASED AWAY BY PRETTY KOREAN BOYS.

2009-11-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

"Whatever is broken, can always be mended."
Like me.

2009-11-14T15:56:00.001+08:00

Heartbeats....

The silence isn't what I'm craving for...
It isn't something my heart can take...

The place has too much pain and too little memories.

2009-11-13T16:44:00.002+08:00

shuper clams. need some lollies :(

2009-11-11T13:51:00.003+08:00

He actually looks cute with the insanely expensive jacket. and young. REALLY young :p

2009-11-10T20:53:00.002+08:00

i nicked it... apparently from wookie's cy i think...

pretty cities when they're tearing...

the people whom we think about when it rains,
it's precious right?

it's insane how much it strikes us.

it feels real when facts are unimportant in this crazy world.

2009-11-08T04:03:00.002+08:00

crazy people.

hanchul is currently my favy.

rubbing. and topping. and denial. WAHAHAHA.

*credits to hanchuladay*

sexciting XD

2009-11-08T02:33:00.002+08:00

1. I've come to realize that my hair:
is damm oily randomly.

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
no one really pays attention.

4. I've come to realize that all I really need:
is love

5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
innocence and lotsa simple strong faith

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
people shake their legs within my sight

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
am cuddly.

8. I've come to realize that money:
is not enough

9. I've come to realize that when I get old:
i am already O.L.D.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
~~a fangirl~~ stubbornly myself.

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
you (:

12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was:
during THE concert. during THAT song.

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
is dying soon.

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the mornings:
shuddup. im gg back to sleep.

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
wish i have really exciting dreams or no dreams at all.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
arhmin's phone number which was shows "INVALID NUMBER" when i try to call her.

17. I've come to realize that my life:
is fucked up majorly mostly and i've done a good job being in denial.

18. I've come to realize that my favorite drink is:
full cup ice, half filled with coke.

19. I've come to realize that today I will:
be happy, when it all doesn't matter anymore.

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
not have any exciting dreams. (shall update u all tomorrow)

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
be staying home to nuah if amanda's not calling me.

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
be happy, be loved and to love.

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is:
samantha :p

24. I've come to realize relationships are:
fragile crazy shit.

25. I've come to realize that love:
is faith and blind belief and craziness.

26. I've come to realize my best guy friend(s):
might be from the onions.

27. I've come to realize my best girl friend(s):
are random people who've heard of each other but don't know each person in person.

28. I've come to realize food is:
a wonderful gift at times.

29: I've come to realize that this summer:
is full of rain, crazy weather and ~~mayday~~ suju

30. I've come to realize heartbreak :
makes one feels alive. sadist.

31. I've come to realize that the last person i liked:
is an arsehole.

32.I've come to realize that my sister(s):
has many many boyfriends. at one single time.

33. I've come to realize that crying:
comes after mayday and korean movies.

34. I've come to realize that death:
is beautiful. insanely so.

35. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:
i will be REALLY REALLY elated. MC!!!

36. I've come to realize when I'm bored:
i feel blissful. it means i have time to feel bored.

random meme from fb.

2009-11-06T23:44:00.001+08:00

Am at airport.

i hate you for being indecisive. just bloody make up your mind will you?!
:(

2009-11-06T01:00:00.003+08:00

MY PRETTY BOYS ARE TRENDINGGGGGGGGGGGG!!! XD

4th anniversary since debut (:

*dance around*

HAPPY! ITS FRIDAYY.

2009-11-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

The New Devils Champion says (12:08 AM):
*Ok
*u wanna simi

【純屬虛構。】 says (12:08 AM):
*i wannnnnnnnnn....

The New Devils Champion says (12:08 AM):
*U txt me

【純屬虛構。】 says (12:08 AM):
*tequlia
*:D
*gold

The New Devils Champion says (12:08 AM):
*ok
*txt me
*on the 10 Nov

【純屬虛構。】 says (12:08 AM):
*if u not getting then tell me ah
*i dunno airport got wad brandd

The New Devils Champion says (12:08 AM):
*usually not

The New Devils Champion says (12:09 AM):
*SDM brand

【純屬虛構。】 says (12:09 AM):
*O.o

The New Devils Champion says (12:09 AM):
*super decent man brand

【純屬虛構。】 says (12:09 AM):
*special brand har
*hahahhahaha

The New Devils Champion says (12:09 AM):
*yeah
*drink liao wont drunk
*beri safe
*oni head grow big
*because FAKE
*hahahhahaha

【純屬虛構。】 says (12:10 AM):
*HAHHAHAHA
*:X

Shuper SDM XD

2009-11-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

hae said he's siwonnie's BOYFRIEND.

*points accusing finger* AFFAIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! XD

2009-11-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

Just need a hand to hold...
really tired...

2009-11-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

Seasonal emotions.

Emptiness.

2009-11-01T14:22:00.004+08:00

Friday...

Watched Love of Siam with Cousin

It's not a normal love story.

"As long as you love, you still have hope" -- Mew

The things which we chase when we habour hope,
the flashes which strike us at times it shouldn't had

We have faith,
cause we love

Last thursday....

Watched the blue mansion with cousin

It was about dead people.

and gay porn.
and not understanding your children.
and always insisting doing things your way.

and pineapples and funerals.

It was really good (:

And there was Jennifer's body on Thursday.
as forced by Joel to ogle at her cause he claims there's no other good movies.

I'm seriously not amazed.
Yeah, she's pretty and got a good figure. I'm still convinced partially her hotness in transformers is because of CG... She's just not my type of pretty girl.... Keke....

on the other hand, i thought Amanda Seyfried was pretty amazing.

physo-ly amazing.

Sorry for the random photospam.
Am uploading yesterday's photos thus nothing to do now :p

2009-10-29T10:51:00.002+08:00

-credits to original creator

for teukie, our angel without wings. I just know if I were to rub hard enough on your back, white feathers would appear. and you'd get high. keke.
I am majorly convinced.

2009-10-27T15:11:00.002+08:00

I just read about our cutie pie being burnt to his death, the impudent magnae being mute, the christian hearing voices and seeing black smoke and eternal magnae being suicidal.

But our angel's still holding his fort strong *small smile*

2009-10-26T23:11:00.003+08:00

hanchul ♥

Cuddle for you and me on the 1700th post (:

love you blog!
thankyews for always being here for me....

monday was horrible.
I was sadist cause i was partially happy that my new shoes hurt.
and then it hurt too much for me to feel happy.

kekes.

SLEEPING EARLY.

2009-10-26T09:15:00.002+08:00

When it rains, it turns dark.
and inviting.

the secrets which we attempted to hide.
the pretty faces which we saw writhing in pain.
the broken wrists which we bloodied lay side by side.

I woke up with fleeting thoughts of you,
colorful vibrant and shining.

2009-10-25T22:28:00.003+08:00

I had an untainted weekend of rest.

when i mostly did this:

minus the other guy that is.

keke.
it's disturbing to read that most people are comfortable with the threesomes and other really random pairings.

I saw this and was vastly reminded of sufen. our favys in SJ-M...

Halloween coming this weekend and I've already heard of endless supposedtobe exciting plans ahead. some involving me, some seeking involvement but none concrete.

We all know how it'd end up as, unresolved, or worse, partially resolved tension again.

Ohyah.

Was caught up with hip shaking action this weekend, with both of the MVs I went around spamming people with. The music comes on my media player and the hips goes ahead on their own accord. lols.

I'm inspired to write a little actually, perhaps will start at another location where it wouldn't get scrutinized... The Chinese words are locked up in another account. I get all those random flashes more and more often.

Some time around my life, I'd need to dig them out and sort them according to "resolved" or "needs closure".

I'm already thinking of silk handkerchiefs for you as the random Christmas present, plus a pretty glittering snowflake. How does it sound?

This is the 6th time I open this page and the 1st time i actually wrote and post.
It kinda keeps me sane.

2009-10-25T03:07:00.000+08:00

I desperately wanted to reach over and mess up your hair if I could.

*hugs*

2009-10-24T03:23:00.002+08:00

It was splashed with tints of lemon scented vodka.
Shots and shots of clear liquid.

I was high on being drunk
but you were there this time round.

I was tucked into your arms
but you seem surreal actually.

"why did you leave me here alone?"

I asked the question
but you had no answer for me.

I teared with a silent sob
but you said nothing and held me tighter.

So thus we sat in the wind.

2009-10-23T11:23:00.001+08:00

Fuck.

It actually hurts a little...

"Love is... giving someone the power to break your heart,
but trusting her/him not to."

2009-10-23T01:11:00.004+08:00

There is this insane reason why i ADORE him

*肉色物体经过*

CAUSE.

HE KEEPS TOUCHING HIMSELF.

DEPRIVED ^^,

P.S.
To the pretty boy

Stop blogging emo entries.

2009-10-22T01:20:00.002+08:00

You remind me of silky white polka dots beneath the pink surface.
Of wet fingers and sugary dreams.

Singing with silent words and
pounding with harsh breaths.

denial.

2009-10-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder how your heart is doing...

2009-10-19T21:48:00.002+08:00

还有一些，
我们想要逃亡时候

牵手
我梦见我们牵手

海洋
那年的海洋那么蓝

知足
你告诉我我们要知足

还有一些
我们试着勇敢的时候

2009-10-18T14:22:00.002+08:00

We ate.
We sang.
We laughed.
And laughed real hard XD

The pictures must be damm exciting. keke :D

Dinner at tampopo.
KTV at liang court.
SLAPMEs at clarkequay.

For the birthday boy.
I'm thinking where to hide during my birthday already. keke.

2009-10-17T15:31:00.002+08:00

It is insanely hot outside and the sun is shining like nobody's business.

3pm is too early to start the day.

I need a closure that's why I've done that.
The closure which you owned me.
The closure to that portion of life.

I hate pretending that everything can be erased by time.

May i'll have some strawberry milk before leaving the house.
I need my angels with me.

2009-10-17T03:46:00.000+08:00

It's at times like this when it hurts.

2009-10-15T22:47:00.003+08:00

Im reading about all the stripping and licking and god and pink handcuffs and you are there laughing at tom&jerry pink PJs, childhood games and YOTOUCHMAN.

Be warned. PRST might hit you soon XD

2009-10-15T00:36:00.001+08:00

The dino who danced to GEE?

GO AHEAD AND DROOL

I dreamt about hyukjae and his porn sites.

2009-10-14T12:31:00.001+08:00

COMING THEY ARE COMING.

this is DAMM FREAKY cause this morning i turn on TV and heard him singing....

2009-10-14T01:24:00.003+08:00

The guy who laughs like he's got an asthma attack,
tearing over all the small little things which his dongsaengs does,
writes emo blog entries,
has an insane obsession with white,
sleeps 1 hour per day
and still manages to keep his teeth white

The angel with his hidden wings (:

And he makes me happy (:

p.s. yr. MINE. keke.

사랑해; I love you

2009-10-13T17:56:00.001+08:00

사랑해,
as always.

2009-10-12T22:56:00.002+08:00

Hanchul is meant to be. Toilets and beds and cartoon bedwear...
I cant get the KyunMi pairing thou.
Isnt' it supposed to be kyunMin instead?! With all the bunnies and pink stuffs...
Eunhae is surprising endearing at times thou I always thought he was with teukie. Strawberry milk, Hot Chocolate and Coffee (:
Kihae's quite... I dunno... since the latter's never around nowadays.
Everytime I read about Yewook, all SORTS of weird things appear in my mind, thick water... and kitchens and tables and vibrating to the music.
Kangteuk just doesn't work for me. CAUSE HE IS MINEEEE. keke XD

They say minniee's a bitch who sleeps around with everyone...
Kyu's another one who is NEVER surprised...
Heenim's another one who makes sure everyone goes down with him...
The chinaman and his beijing fried rice appears almost everywhere

nevermind if you don't understand.
It's just the hormones working overtime at fiction which aint G rated.

2009-10-11T23:32:00.002+08:00

Why I Like you

TV를 켜면 들리는 세상 얘기들은 어깨를 처지게 우울하게 해도
TV kimyun deullineun sesang yehgideuleun uhggehleul cheojigeh oo oolhageh haedo
even though when i turn on the TV i hear news of the world that makes my shoulders droop and gloomy

오늘 아침 그대 아주 맑은 목소리는I do I do I do yeah-
ohneul achim geudeh ajoo malgeun moksorineun I do I do I do yeah~
your very clear voice this morning.. i do i do i do yeah~

날 완벽하게, 내가 살아가게, 나를 웃게
nal wanbyukhagae, naega saragagae, nareul ootgae
the one reason that makes me perfect, makes me live,

하는 단 하나의 이유 yeah-
haneun dan hana eh iyoo yeah~
makes me laugh

그대가 있다는 것 yeah-
geudaega itdaneun gut yeah~
is having you, yeah~

그대가 그대가 난 그대가 “사랑해
geudae ga geudae ga nan geudae ga “saranghae saranghae nul saranghae”
you you, when you say “love you love you, i love you”

사랑해 널 사랑해” 라고 말할 때 나를 믿게 돼
lago malhalddae naleul midgae dweh
you make me believe

그대가 그대가 난 그대가 가만히 가만히
geudae ga guedae ga nan geudae ga gamanhi gamanhi nae nooneul bomyuh
you you, when you silently silently look into my eyes and laugh you make me laugh

내 눈을 보며 웃을 때 나도 웃게 돼 니가 좋은 이유
ooseul ddae nado ootgae weh niga joeun iyoo
the reasons why i like you

많고 많은 사람들 나를 몰라줘도 어깨를쫙 펴게 더 자신있게 해줄
manko maneun saramdeul nareul mollajwodo uhggehleul jjwak pyuhgeh duh jashinitgeh haejool
even if many many people don’t acknowledge me, i straighten out my shoulders and be more confident

나의 단 한 사람 사랑하는 내 사람 My U My U My U yeah-
na eh dan han saram saranghaneun neh saram my u my u my u yeah~
my one and only person.. the person that i love.. my you my you my you yeah~

처음보다 좀더, 어제보다 좀더, 오늘은
chuh eumboda jomduh, uhjehboda jomduh,
a bit more than the beginning, a bit more than yesterday..

더 그대를 더 사랑하게 된 이유 girl-
oneuleun duh geudehleul duh saranghageh dwen iyoo girl~
the reason that i’ve come to love you even more today, girl~

우리 둘의 비밀 yeah-
oori dooleh bimil yeah~
our little secret, yeah~

그대가 그대가 난 그대가 “사랑해
geudae ga geudae ga nan geudae ga “saranghae saranghae nul saranghae”
you you, to me, when you say “love you love you, i love you”

사랑해 널 사랑해” 라고 말할 때 나를 믿게 돼
lago malhalddae naleul midgae dweh
you make me believe

그대가 그대가 난 그대가 내옆에 내옆에
geudae ga guedae ga nan geudae ga neh yuppeh neh yuppeh dagawa
you you, to me, when you come beside me beside me and lean on me

다가와 내게 기댈 때 힘을 얻게 돼
neh geh gidel ddeh himeul odggeh dweh
i gain strength

다정한 미소, 섹시한 눈빛, 엉뚱한 얘기 날씨 바뀌듯 때론 짐작도 할 수 없어 yeah-
dajung han miso, seckshihan noonbit, ungddoonghan yehgi nalsshi baggwideut ddehron jimjakdo halsoo ubssuh yeah
your gentle smile, your sexy eyes, your weird words that are sometimes unpredictable like the weather, yeah~

있는 그대로 꾸미지 않는 사랑스러운
itneun geudehro ggoomiji anneun sarangseuruh ooh
just as you are, without having to fix anything,

나의 그대가 너야, 나의 그대가 너야 yeah-
nah eh geudehga nuhya nah eh geudehga nuhya
the person that is so lovable to me is you, that person is you, yeah~

그대가 그대가 난 그대가 “사랑해
geudae ga geudae ga nan geudae ga “saranghae saranghae nul saranghae”
you you, when you say “love you love you, i love you”

사랑해 널 사랑해” 라고 말할 때 나를 믿게 돼
lago malhalddae naleul midgae dweh
you make me believe

그대가 그대가 난 그대가 가만히 가만히
geudae ga guedae ga nan geudae ga gamanhi gamanhi nae nooneul bomyuh
you you, when you silently silently look into my eyes and laugh you make me laugh

내 눈을 보며 웃을 때 나도 웃게 돼 니가 좋은 이유
ooseul ddae nado ootgae weh niga joeun iyoo
the reasons why i like you

그대가 그대가 난 그대가 “사랑해
geudae ga geudae ga nan geudae ga “saranghae saranghae nul saranghae”
you you, to me, when you say “love you love you, i love you”

사랑해 널 사랑해” 라고 말할 때 나를 믿게 돼
lago malhalddae naleul midgae dweh
you make me believe

그대가 그대가 난 그대가 내옆에 내옆에
geudae ga guedae ga nan geudae ga neh yuppeh neh yuppeh dagawa
you you, to me, when you come beside me beside me and lean on me, i gain strength

다가와 내게 기댈 때 힘을 얻게 돼 니가 좋은 이유
neh geh gidel ddeh himeul odggeh dweh
the reasons why i like you

2009-10-11T22:07:00.000+08:00

기다리다 (gidarida)
1. to wait, await

2009-10-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

@1.16.

MELTS.
prst. ughs.

2009-10-11T15:57:00.000+08:00

그 사람 그대라는 걸
That Person is You