Wednesday, December 30, 2009
The annual birthday post.
21st.
of growing up.
painful. and never ending tries of convincing myself.
found a job. got kicked around some bits. hanging out with married people and drinking at harry's when I was supposed to work.
.
found myself a new group to hang out with. the people from singhell. the random drinking spells and photography urges.
found myself a new fandom. so in love with tight pants and hot skin and fiction and laughter and happiness and seamless choreography. being happy is easy, too easy with them.
found renewed vigor towards the old fandom. I am still amazed, detached yet amazed at the amount of me affected easily. absence perhaps does makes the heart fonder. in a different way.
read like a crazed person. fiction was my best friend ever. the most reliable friend, almost.
decided I had a crush and AG named him crushie and it stuck with him ever since. but no, he has no idea really.
boats, open seas, blue skies, white clouds, stars and firefiles. they are priceless and more.
being apathetic is easy. too easy.
lost some people, no, i can't figure out why some can leave and abandon us, we don't even mean a thing and it's so true to them.
angel!teuk, bitchy!heenim, halfkorean!hannie, smexyvocals!jongwoon, strong!youngwoon, dancer!donghee, smexy!minnie, dancemachine!hyukie, flirty!hae, theHorse!siwonnie, eternalMagnae!wookie, missing!kibumie, soulsucker!kyu ♥ ♥ ♥
Sometimes,
we are in love.
Sometimes,
we are in doubt.
Sometimes,
we are in denial.
but mostly,
I just wanna be happy.
and fucking in love, yes yes and YES.
Happy Birthday to me (:
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